I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist
I am a saddist

Am I really one?

사랑했던 너의 기억이
다시 내게 다가오는데
버릴 수가 없어 잊을 수가 없어
너를 사랑하는 나

의미 없는 시간 속에서
하루하루 지쳐가는 나
느낄 수가 없어 웃을 수가 없어
나 자꾸 눈물이 흘러

따뜻한 너의 눈빛 속에
내 모습 지워도 지워지지가 않아
꿈을 꾸듯 아련한
너와의 기억 속에서 머물고 싶어

이렇게 너를 사랑하는
내게로 다가와 줄 수는 없겠니
또다시 네 품에 잠들 수 있도록
다시 내게 돌아와

차가운 이 빗속에 서서
지난 시간 속을 헤매어
처음으로 다시
되돌릴 수는 없는 거니
널 찾고 싶어

따뜻한 너의 눈빛 속에
내 모습 지워도 지워지지가 않아
꿈을 꾸듯 아련한
너와의 기억 속에서 머물고 싶어

이렇게 너를 사랑하는
내게로 다가와 줄 수는 없겠니
또다시 네 품에 잠들 수 있도록
다시 내게 돌아와

Here is Joc's present! hahahaha

Park, please send me all the pictures! They're so overdue!

I feel so unlucky today.
Took the wrong bus which I thought it will stop at the third bus stop as there are more buses to take to school. But when it went into the lane to toa payoh, it went all the way to the highway lane. I was shocked. And I thought there is another bus stop somewhere near so that I might be able to take a bus back and just cross over the bridge to the usual bus stop, I was wrong! It went all the way into highway and there is not a single bus stop for me to get off! The bus uncle might thought that I am crazy because my feet hurt like siao and I keep on cursing and swearing. I feel so dumb can. How on earth will I take the wrong bus?! I must be blind or too retarded to think. The bus brought me to Yio Chuo Kang. Cool right? Thanks to my dumb brain, I need to take a cab. Instead of saving the 10bucks which I can spend on tomorrow meal, I spent it on something uneccessary! And the cab costs me my $13. How sad can I be? I am desperately in need of money that I am selling all my clothes soon on Linnyberry. Please buy them. They smell nice and nice to wear.

I have been thinking about a lot of things recently.
I think I must be crazy.


I have many liabilities.
I really hate Christmas.

Christmas, Christmas time is near,
Time for toys and time for cheer,
We've been good but we can't last,
Hurry Christmas, hurry fast!
Want a plane that loops the loop;
Me, I want a hu-la hoop.
We can hardly stand the wait.
Please Christmas, don't be late.
Something for the sweethearts..

HAHAHAHA Joc's one is not up yet! Soon soon okay? It's a surprise!

Thanks June, Shufen, Joc and XX for the christmas presents!

Xx, ur present will arrive soon okay? =X

I need time to save, no money to spend.

I am going out to celebrate Christmas with my np cca dearies! SEE YA!

Santa please be kind to me!

Chipmunk is cute!
$170.
Feeling bad and stress too. I guess Shufen feeling that way too?
Somehow a bit shock. Is there a motive behind?
Or you're trying to impress us?
I am not quite sure, maybe I think too much.
Extreme Tired for today.

I think I am mean.

I think I couldn't make in for the sociology test again. I have problem memorising theories! They just can't get into my head! :(
The assignment is just a little comfort as I copy most of the texts from the textbook and study guide. This is bad and I am scare! Mum keep on repeating this to me, 'If you fail the first year, I won't let you repeat. You have to quit and go out to work.' Somehow this scared me, I have no idea what to work as and which direction should I go.
I am being alienated from my true self!


The jerk

I hate people who keep on calling even when I rejected the calls 2 times! And they still didn't get the idea that I am busy. Obviously right? Else I don't even reject call at all. And if you have anything important, you will leave a message even if I reject the call instead of saying 'wa, what the hell sia? how come reject call sia..' WTF sia. I cannot reject your call meh?! It's NOT a must to answer loh, I can choose whose call to answer and whose to reject. Don't make me fed up, I can block you in msn too! At most everytime you call, I reject them only. Bloody old uncle!

Please help to save the earth, we're together as a whole!
3R policy: Reduce, Re-use and Recycle

I hate Christmas! It's all about spending lots and lots of money! Not only that, you go round and round to look for something suitable for your friends.
It makes me broke and totally not enough time at all.
And I have a sociology test on Tuesday! HOW SAD CAN I BE? :(
I feeling super stress now! I might fail again for this test!

Having headache.

I have a urge to be in love again after watching witch yoo hee. X)
But then I need a good partner. HAHAHA!
It's so romantic in drama but why didn't all this happen in reality?
Kinda depressing..

This is the life of men on earth:
Out of darkness we come at birth
Into a lamplit room, and then -
Go forward into dark again.

My bank statement is currently into depression.
I need to do something, something.
Any part time jobs?

My fringe is nice okay! I don't look like cheena! NOOOOO! :(

I cut my hair today. And the hair style remain me of my young days when I am in primary 6.
Please don't laugh when you see me.
I will get upset easily.

:)

This 2 days I have been going out from afternoon till night.
Friday have a small group outing. =X
It's happy to see the guys in our class again! Mel & Minky haven't change much lah. They are still a good entertainers as before. And our class motto still the same, we will still occupy the space and talk then we move again, and occupy the space and talk. LOL. Steamboat is not filling! When I reached home, I am craving for cup noodles. Next time every minutes I must be eating food from the steamboat liao!
On Saturday, meet Joc for shopping. For her is shopping, for me is window shopping. haha! I tried to control myself not to buy anything! I failed. I bought a nice black scarf with cost $25, I feel that it's EXPENSIVE for a scarf to be over $20 as I can easily buy from oversea for less than $20. This is a bit self contradicting, but it's so nice that Joc also agree that I should buy. hahaha! =X
Joc bought fake eyeleashes! Tell me how is it okay? Then I will buy too!
We saw this poor bird being trapped in the 5th floor of FEP. So poor thing, I think that it's tired of flying as it just stood outside of a salon quietly waiting for its saviour!
After walking round the 5th floor, we decide to have dinner first before Joc do her express manicure. Joc wanted to try this 'VERI GOOD' stall with attracting food pictures. She aims the creamy chicken for very long ah. hahaha! I tried the dory fish with lemon sauce. It's CHEAP and NICE! Serious! Given the price, it could be worst, but it's really tasty! Yum yum! Joc is content with her creamy chicken too! We have fried ice cream for $1.50! Cheap right? Must try ah! The auntie friendly too but weird at times. lolol.

Now I am drooling over the dolly fish again! :D
I love to eat. I hope I do. hahaha!
I need to go church with you some day.

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is more than anyone you adore

Love is all that I can give to you

Love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for you and me

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No cute guys yesterday. I am so sad. Mostly are in their 30s? When we step into the pub, I was telling wan jun, "we seem underage here." I was praying to meet doctor as my friend is currently working as a nurse. But sad to say, if those uncles are doctors, I will faint. haha! There are only a few people around our age. Sigh, nurses. =X

I am still waiting for ting/cat to send me pics!

Me & Poh Chan


Spot the different!

Ting & wan jun

A buay song look from tian ming

Artistic?

Our secondary school mates, mostly from my class. ahaha!

Me & ting

Deserted in Orchard. HAHAHAA Guess the timing!

Anyway I went to sing K at party world with poh chan, tian ming, kiat seng and wen jie. Ermm.. I am their audience. LOL. And the worst thing is they make me sing the Savage Garden - Truly madly deeply because I don't know how to read chinese words and plus lots of chinese songs never hear before. =X So please send me more chinese songs people!

See you soon, pc! Thanks for the pics & the K! :)

Should I wear this tomorrow? HAHAHAHAHA!
I am just too excited!

Tons of things are undone!
-Sociology assignment due next tuesday
-Music GIL assignment due tomorrow/Monday
-Econs test next Thursday.


The moment I think of so many things to complete, I feel so stress up!
I shall enjoy myself first! =X

I want a camera!
i) HOLGA CFN SILVER LIMITED EDITION -- $85 online
ii) Vivitar Ultra Wide & Slim -- about $50 local/ $25 for online
iii) Fisheye -- about $78 online

In love with these cameras! I want to be old school!
:D

BUY ME BUY ME!
Fill me with cameras!

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I did account assignment. However I can't balance. ROAR! Where went wrong?

And hurray! The Sociology presentation is over! WHAHAHAHA! I am happy! But she gave us another assignment which is essay writing due next week! BOOO!

I want to enjoy my weekends! Can't wait to meet up with my secondary school mates on Xue Fen's birthday! YEAH babes!
What're you all going to wear? hahaha! I need COOL dressing! Stocking plus shorts, stocking with grey dress, navy blue dress with brown belt? Tell me!

I know lah, wearing this one okay! So long never wear that chiffon top. Because I grow skinny that's why i don't dare to wear 3/4 sleeves anymore. :(

Okay, I will consider something else. Since it's going to be at some ktv pub, hope there are cute guys! Don't worry, I will seduce them with my skinny hands. lol!

I am busy with lot of stuffs.
Finally my piano theory exam was over! I know that there are 6 marks gone, as I didn't memorize my terms well enough! And my melody writing is like shit. I feel so dizzy thoughout the exam as the person sitting beside me keep on erasing her answers. Each time she erase, the table shake like some earthquake. I feel so drowsy and nauseous. I hope I can PASS and get on with grade 8!
Currently, I was given account assignment and I haven't even touch it yet. I only read through the first question then I leave it there and off to Linnyberry. HAAA!
And I am having some problem with my body. Getting skinnier each day and body aching every night after 11pm. Old liao lah! I hope I am not having some illness or what because I have loads of undone things!
Okay, I need to sleep, my body can't take it anymore.

Good night!

Weird human, if you want to minimise expenses, you can alway choose the cheapest alternative.
But no, they still choose the best and complain when they saw their expenses for the month.
It's weird and I believe many of you out there, do the same thing right?
Is it because you want the best for someone or yourself, making sure that they get the best at any cost? Or is it because you just want to show off/complain to people around you, that you are having the best for somebody/yourself?
Or is it that you don't have a choice? Then in this case, you can alway state out your opinion, like how to minimise expenses. We're alway open to suggestion and room for improvement right? But it's still up to individual to take that into mind.


I think I am one of the above at times too.
Ahhh.. I am eyeing on one dress! SHIAT.


This is just a opinion post.

I am so lazy that sometime I don't even feel like getting off my bed after I wake up.
I am so lazy that I don't even exercise. Maybe that's the reason why I becoming more and more skinny!
I am so lazy that I don't even work hard for test. That explains why I can't even get a passing mark for my tests.

Two test papers received. Well.. It's upsetting and demoralised.
If only I have enough time and I concentrate in class. I am really worry that I might fail year 1.

My life might not be perfect for the time being.. However, I am learning to enjoy myself as single life. I might say it's tough in the beginning. But now, I think I am getting use to it. :)

Hmm.. I find this funny! Don't you think so?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BJtR_cciCZU

Some people say it's lame/cold/stupid.


I wish money is never a problem.

'As soon as you start to worry about style, you lose the fun of fashion' Quote by English fashion designer Luella Bartley

So dress whatever you feel like wearing today! ;)
I am going to wear my stocking with shorts out someday! I think so.

I love cute guys. Look what I have found?

WHAHAHAHA! My new obsession!

Zac Efron!

He got stunning blue eyes. I love those eyes of his.

Cute huh?

I am surprised at how trendy Korean Fashion can be.
I am totally in love with these pieces:

I want the Ankle Boots, so cool can!

I love the pencil skirt or you call it tulip skirt!

PC, when you wanna shop for your high waist skirt? lol.

Far East got a lot now! Bring me along!

Math is tough.
I can't think thoughout the paper.
The after effect is bad. I can't stop thinking of it. I am gonna fail.
:( :'(

I have been meeting weird people. Do I look like I am operating some charity organization?

Things are not going smoothly but I still have to be strong.
Because I need to stay on to the choices I made.

Goodbye lover, I don't have to love anymore. :'(

Hope I have a good weekends.

100 Kisses

Dear Sweetheart,
I can't send my salary this month, so I am sending 100 kisses.
You are my sweetheart
Your husband
Allen

His wife replied back after some days to her husband:
Dearest sweetheart,
Thanks for your 100 kisses, I am sending the expenses details.
1. The Milk man agreed on 2 kisses for one month's milk.
2. Th electricity man only agreed after 7 kisses.
3. Your house owner is coming every day and taking two or three kisses instead of the rent.
4. Supermarket owner did not accept kisses only, so i have given him some other items......
5. Other expenses 40 kisses

Please don't worry for me, I have a remaining balance of 35 kisses and I hope I can complete the month using this balance. Shall I plan same way for next months, Please Advise !!!
Your Sweet Heart


WOO.. Sony Ericsson S500i has unique color!

I have been keeping myself busy with maths. GG.

I wonder how this sentence came about "The opposite of love is note hate, it's indifference."
Because it's so true.

It's not that simple as I love you and you will love me back.

Arg, I need to put on weight!
And, I need to study for my math.
It's tough for me.
GO GO GO!

What do you get when you fall in love?
A girl with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, he'll never phone you
I'll never fall in love again

Don't tell me what it's all about
Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So far at least until tomorrow
I'll never fall in love again


What can be so busy when one book out?
When one doesn't even answer call or even sms?
Maybe it depends on who is the person who call or sms.
Sigh. It's not the first time.
And I got my limits.

YEAH!
Finally went to Newton to eat with double X (sweetheart).
Yum yum. I love the stingray. Nice right? Everything is yummy! Free of course it's niceeee! Thanks double X!
HAAAA!
After that we walk to little india, cause I wanted to go Sheng Sh*ong to buy tibits and replenish my sweets. And I bought something that I don't like. BOOO! The nuts are so undelicious! As usual, double X will say "everytime, you alway choose the wrong thing." So bad meh?! =X
Then we continue our journey, we walked to Mus*afa to get some drink as I thought there is drinks inside? But there is none! In the end I bought from the 7-eleven just outside Mus*afa. And we continue on.. walking home! It's such a nice and sweet journey.
:)


I love doing silly thing with you.
Happy seeing you.

I am so in love with fashion that what I do everyday is to read journals and fashion blogs.
They're so addictive! =/

BUT..
I needa study.



Numbers that don't give a reply.
Does this make a difference whether you're inside or out?

The future is going to be tougher than I can imagine.

I have been super busy for the past few days.

Slacking, watching snow queen, going for musical play, sleeping, eating and reading fashion blogs.

I need to study for my music, as I am lacking way behind class! Study study study!

My Passion:

Wanted to wear this out on saturday, but somehow I changed my mind.


I need to grow fatter! ROAR.

Sleep early sleep early!

Passion in fashion.

Pictures that I am lazy to upload.

Went to my bestfriend(PC)'s 21th birthday celebration at Down town east chalet. I met my friend at 8.45pm because he booked out at 6pm+ and he had to take the birthday present then went home and wash up before he could meet me, sat on his bike. WOOOO! I was quite frighten at the beginning until I saw a guy doesn't even hold on to the biker, then I felt embarrassed holding to my friend's shoulder like crazy. =X And I relax a bit lah.

I love his helmets! Like scooter one! COOL! He's going to buy a vespa soon! I hope that I can ride on it too! WOOHOO! I can even help you take care of it while you're in army! WHAHAHAHAHA! No worry okay? =X

This is his gift to my friend! Lillies! Sweet right? hahahahaha! Pc, your secret admirer leh.

Now I will show you my bestfriend picture! She still look pretty huh? I look ugly like shit! See my sleepy eyes. And imagine that I stay up to the next day 7am! I was sleepy like hell lah. And my friend is sleeping on the benches outside the chalet. Stupid friend.

Ratatouille is a funny movie! Thumbs up for it! :)

Which one nicer?

Tell meee! :)

I have a boring life. I want a happening life leh!

Introduce me your friends okay?

"Follow the notes upon a journey
At first sight marks one's destiny
Once the voyage comes to an end
Return lies within hasty key"


I like the music played in the movie.
Oh.. I love the school and the scenery in the movie!
The place is actually dan shui, which I don't even know located at where.
I found it when I am searching for the music score. WOOOO!
I get to know a lot of things..

Take a look at this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jay_Chou

Hard work pays off. :)

Pei pei, I finally tried out making the bunny le!
First attempt, somebody said ugly. :(
Why ugly? it's so cuteeeeee! Just that maybe the mouth a bit weird, it's not easy to cut the cloth into small pieces. BOOHOO!

Given a face


Wanted to sew something on the body so it won't look plain.


Then I decided to give a small little furry tail for the bunny.
The black color stain at the back is because I used the marker to draw an outline first. HAAA


And I wanted to sew my name on it, but failed!

TADA..

My ugly/cute(to me) bunny with cotton inside!

Back View

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Some time certain things are to be left unsaid.

Unable to be reached when needed.

Assai dolente.

Seriously, I don't feel secure at all.

From what I know now, I can conclude that it's easy to get a man to buy things for you.

Man are cheap, they just wanna get something in return. HAA!
Isn't it silly?

Tico goes to hell.
Blahhhh..

Hey Jude, don't make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

Hey Jude, don't be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain,
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.

Hey Jude, don't let me down.
You have found her, now go and get her.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.

So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin,
You're waiting for someone to perform with.
And don't you know that it's just you, hey Jude, you'll do,
The movement you need is on your shoulder.

Hey Jude, don't make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her under your skin,
Then you'll begin to make it
Better better better better better better, oh.

Na na na nananana, nannana, hey Jude...

I love this song.
I want fish head steamboat!
Miss it so badlyyyyyy.

HOOOOO!
Back from genting and KL. Have been eating junk for the past few days, hopefully I will gain some weight! whahahah!
I think I am getting used to the supper timing that in the middle of the night, I often feel hungry again.
I have been trying to sleep earlier, but failed to do so. Because I have been watching 1 litre of tears. It's super duper touching! My gosh.. I really recommended it!
I accompanied sweetheart to watch transformer for the second time, the ending still a bit confused. ahahaha!
Have been going out and eating expensive food this few days. BOOHOO! I am so much poorer! The sociology book costs me a bomb! And my parent hasn't been giving me allowance! This is bad.
I have shopped too much lately. I need to have self control. :(


I am worry for my future again.

I have a long pouring out just now.
I definitely feel better now.

Am not teddy.

Today went to Pasir Ris Camp to send sweetheart into army. The environment there is not bad. Maybe just the surface huh. =X
Anyway, I am not allowed to post any pictures online stated by his parents and him. I will miss u! Meanwhile just enjoy urself in army, don't push yourself too hard! hahahaha!

Our last day at work which is 13th the friday also know as black friday. And we're so camera whore that we took picture almost everywhere around the company. We're just behaving like tourists. I want my toilet shoot! Pei hua & charmaine, faster upload your pictures! I want them!

My tibits/snacks! So many to clear lah!

Trying to act like I am working hard. I know I don't look like! Just want to take pic of my seat lah.

A timer group photo!

A close up picture of my beloved droplet!

My stretchy droplet! So cute!


She loves my droplet! HAHAHHAA

The biscuit stealer no. 1!


The biscuit stealer no. 2!

The biscuit stealer no. 3!

The poor victim. HO!

Our pre-loved snack machine. I know the IA students love it lots!




The retarded shot after the embarrass incident of some venting machines!


Shot of our company venting machine for soft drink.

One of my shoot. Nice?

Genting & KL soon?