I feel bad. Really bad.
Treating u like this is what i will never do.
But seeing u feeling so useless yet i can't do anything to cheer u up.
Am i more useless than u?
If not why am i feeling it that way.
I want to hug u and cry.
But all i can do is to sit at one corner and cry alone.
I thought u will be happy with such decision, but i am wrong again.
I hurt u more than anyone else could.
I feel inhuman.
I feel guilty.
How can i ever face u again?
Sorry alvin. I am really sorry.
I once said before, if u want me to be there for u, i will.
But u didn't..
U told me not to wait for u.
Why?
U think it's meaningless to make me stay?
While i will be happier with other guys?
Is this being kind or being cruel?
Cos I don't know.
Crying doesn't help.
25th.. how can i ever forget this date?
Sigh.
The ring, the roses, the key chain and the toy.
How could i ever hurt someone like u so deeply?
I am foolish.
I am a fool!

Kill me!