Thing happens too fast, too sudden.
I can't concentrate. For one instant I thought my cousin is joking, but after I clarify with my mum, it's true.
Out of a sudden, I feel fear growing within me. A lot of thoughts come into my mind, what if this happen to me, what will I do? The convesation we had on just last weekend, you told me that she will be starting school soon and this time she will be more hardworking than last time. And I know she will because she's a sensible girl that's what I told you. But then, isn't it too early to leave now? What will happen to them? They're still young. Who can they look for if they need help?
Tears start rolling out, I feel sympathy to them, I feel so useless compare to their hardworking spirit, I feel so insensible compare to their filialness.
Then I start thinking, what can I say to them when I see them? I can't find the right word to use nor have the courage to say.
I am not sure if they're feeling better now with my cousin accompany. I hope they do.

Even though we haven't been talking heart to heart during chinese new year, due to rush schedule but I hope, if there is anything that you and your brother need our help, just approach us, we might not be able to offer the best solution nor the perfect advice, but then afterall we're cousins, we will try our best to help you out.


And I know they will live life to the fullest.

Rest in peace, 1st aunt.