+whatever+

Welll....
You make me fed up. Really fed up today. Stop saying you like me when you really don't seem to. I definately hate you! Please disappear from my sight, you JERK! I hate small kid. I'm not going to believe your words again. You lost my trust in you. I'll be playing RO more and more seldom, then eventually stop. I'm glad that I'll not be seeing you in my life again. So just get lost. Good bye, JERK!

+Let the rain fall and wake my dream+

+come clean+

What the hell?! I'm feeling deep down in the drain now. It's raining some more. Feel like crying and crying. Stupid Eddie makes me so fed up that I'm hating him right at the moment. Sux! Hate him to the core. Somebody please bash him up. Shouldn't have know him from the start. Flirt and flirt and flirt. Whatever. It's alway him who spoil my day. TT Sighhhhhhhhhh~ Nelson what should I do? Arghh.. I hate RO! Deleting every Eddie's message. Dots! Don't every make me feel pissed off. I'll curse and swear at that person. Eddie, please go and die! Sob sob~

+I give u my heart but U give it away+

+coldness+

Sighhhhhh~
Today is such a bad day! Raining day. First time try playing tennis in the rain. >.< feeling so cold in class that I tembled when I'm giving speech. Oh my gosh! Definately going to be mark down on my marks. TT After reading the news about the monday or sunday tsunamis outbreak, I almost cry. Seeing that more than 150 childrens were killed in that waves, make me realise that life is really vulnerable. Sending my prayers to the deads. *praying silently in the breeze of the night*
Quite happy that received ur last night message. But who knows bad thing happened after that? sweat~ Well.. I really got nothing to say if U're going to continue with that kind of attitude when talking to me. Nelson never did anything wrong and U misunderstand him. He's just trying his best to make me happy when u're not there to share my woes. Should I say he's much more mature than u? I hope that U won't be so xiao qi. Cool down and think clearly. I shouldn't demand too much from U. Maybe it's just a crush? yaaaa... Should be. Tired.

+ everything behind me seems so insignificant +

+Flummoxed feelings+

Sighhhh~
Tomorrow will be having school again. >.< So boring. Some more this week got OS test. I can't even understand a single thing of the array in programming. Not interested in whatever I do. I don't even remember in doing the A-math quiz online. Shit! play too much RO and too into Christmas le. I'm dead.
Don't even know what I want in U. Don't even know whether u're true towards me. Don't even seem to believing in U anymore. I'm flummoxed! Some sort of sadness filled inside me. Feel like crying but yet I must be strong. If U really need me, please show me your concern! Action speak louder than words!~ TT

+Seem near yet so far+



hahaha~ your pic appear in my blog? whenever see ur face I feel like laughing. =X weeeeeee~ I'm evil!

+Hohoho+

Merry Christmas everyone!
After tonight, it'll be Christmas. Weeee~ I can feel the breeze of Christmas. Today received many presents! I just brought smarties for the class, hope u all don't mind. Received f3 presents, Jocyceline gave me a snoopy glass, June gave me box of chocolates and Shu Fen gave me a magic pen (a pen with light when u write something)! I love the guys in our class! They are sooooo cute and sweet. ^^ Thanks for the Santa hat and the flower. Hmm.. Weiwah, thanks for the bear.After that went to orchard with F3. So many people. So many things on sales. A lot of people carrying big and small shopping bags, as if those item are free. Sweat~
Today meet Eddie in town. Eh... He quite good looking. haha.. But there is a problem in age. Hmm.. Kinda lame, keep on asking me lame questions. So young already got a wear earring on his right ear le. Oh my gosh! I was stunned when I saw it. In game always bully people but in real life.. So shy? Or act de? hahaha..
Well.. He's thirsty and yet he doesn't want to buy some water. Lazy to go was his excuse. I keep on telling him to go buy some water. Then he said, I scare later U run away when I go buy water. I was... A bit happy? haha.. Whenever I see his message I'll get a bit excited. Don't know why leh. Ahhhhhh..
Don't tell me I....... No idea. >.< Why am i alway choose people younger than me? Where are all the older guys?! arghhh.. Wo bu xi huan! Wishing everyone enjoy your christmas! hohoho~

+we met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said good bye and who'll hear the echoes of stories never told+



santa claus in class. Weeeeeee~

Christmas Neo prints! Hohoho.. Merry Christmas!

+Around the corners+

Hmmm... One more day and it'll be... Christmas! Yesh! I can get my christmas present from June, Jocyceline, Shu Fen and the guys.. Guys better don't disappoint us! hahaha~ Weeeee~ So anxious about this friday. Going to celebrate after classes. ^^ Love u guys! Hmmm... Brought presents for everyone. >.< I'm broke le. Money money where are u?! Tired~ Tomorrow having A-math test. Hopefully I can get the formulas right and a clear mind. Cya~

+It takes 3 seconds to fall in love. But 3 decades to get along+

+Christmas Mood+

HoHoHo.. Merry Christmas!
XD It's friday again and we went to town again. Shop shop, look around, update my fashion sense. Haha.. Today only Shu Fen and jocyceline soend quite a amount of money. I only spent money on foods. I'm trying to save up so that I got money to buy Jocyceline's present. But who knows in the end, we still got no idea what to get for my receiver, left us to draw lots. Haha.. Jocyceline spent the most, on her bf and her wallets, Perrie Cardin. Nice looking wallet, that costed her 130bucks. Difficult to feed a boyfriend. This and that to get for him. Wo yang bu qi xiao bai lian~ =X Shu Fen brought a kawaii shoes at heeran. Love the design of those shoes. *ai shi ni men le* haha.. Saving up money for clothes and shoes.
Suddenly feel myself so into christmas mood. So i decided to change my blogskin. *Love my blogskin now* Love the raining day of winter, love the decoration of christmas tree and building in orchard, love the song rythems that come out from the church, love most is that a new year is coming! Haha.. Hmmm... Seeing U feel so bored of life, I don't know how to cheer U up. The meaning of life is to be discover by urself. U will understand it someday. Just wait patiently.^^ Got to stop writing now. So many things undone. Haven't practise piano for a long time. Having violin lesson tomorrow. Need to sleep. Oink oink~

+To be kind is to be cruel+

+hao lei+

Zzzz....
Feel so tired today. Hao lei hao lei.. No mood to talk to anyone in the morning. Think I'm having sleep deprivation. haha.. Today, when we're having our lunch, some people approached Shu Fen, asking her whether she wants to join in the nomination for ICT school belle. haha ^^ know how pretty are u now? So stop saying that urea fat, because urea not. CD Christmas is around the corner. So excited about it! Have a great talk with F3 today in the library after school. June is so adorable today. Because mummy makes her high lah. haha.. Guess what happened? Mummy was joking about what to give shu fen for her Christmas present. Then June was drinking green tea? She's so excited about it that when mummy said out the present, June spat out her bubble tea. haha.. Then shu fen was..... Shock! Sitting right in front of June. haha.. Some water spat to Shu fen's face. She starts saying yuck. haha.. June say green tea is good for skin. But with her saliva in it? *sweat* haha.. Is June really going to buy for me the Adidas bag? I'll definitely love U deeply if u could buy it for me. haha.. Saw her expression changed when I told her I want an adidas bag. Just kidding only lah. Don't worry. I think I have something in mind. Hmmm.. A Fleshimp T-shirt will do. ^^ Don't know what to buy for Jocyceline. I can't afford ur LV bag or LV wallet. Too expensive le. Anyone got any jobs to recommend me? Need money desperately to feed my three girlfriends. haha..
Sigh.. Gotta buy so many textbooks tomorrow. So expensive some more. I'm broke. Anyone can sponsor me free textbooks? haha.. Having BIS test tomorrow. Without a textbook with me, how am I going to study my BIS? I'm such a weird person. Lacking behind the class, still so slack. Guess this is my personality bah. >.< I'm dead meat. Wish me good luck tomorrow bah~

+holidays were over+

Hiyayayaya~
So long since I last wrote my blog. XD Guess I'm always that lazy. haha slacking everyday in school, taking thing each at a step, moving as slow as a turtle, slowly and slowly, finally realizing that everyone is ahead of me. This is ME. haha. Friday went shopping with F3 again. haha.. Brought some clothes. Actually is suppose to buy sport shoes for tennis but in the end I brought a demin skirt and a fleshimp shirt. haha.. Wasting money again. June and Jocyceline have to go off first as they have something on. Saw Jocyceline's boyfriend working in Taka, guess what? Her boyfriend look quite dashing. haha.. Well dressed, I like guys who dress in long sleeve and tie, look so formal. XD Then Shu Fen and me went to heeren to shop shop a while. And guess what? haha~ We saw an adidas jacket, pink and grey. Look so sweet~ Shu Fen was so into that jacket and wanted to buy it. haha.. Impulsive act? When I reached home, the first thing I did was to hide my clothes into the cupboard. haha
Hmmm.. Cheer up bah. Knowing that U're sad, while I can't do anything to cheer U up, I feel so useless. Let nature take it course bah. Kang kai dian~

+Cameron Highland+

HellOooo
Back from cameron highland for one week le. Actually I do blog this few day, but I forgot to publish my blog for hours, in the end, it turn out I got to re-blog again. I was like what?!
Yesterday went to my ex secondary school mate, Xin Hui's house to celebrate her birthday. They sang ka la Ok. Hahaha.. All of them were like so shy. They didn't want to sang no matter how xin hui pleased them to sing. haha.. Luckily later on, some of them began to get in tune and sang together. ^^ But I still didn't sang. haha.. Don't know how to sing. We took quite a number of photo at her house. About 7pm then we took out the cake and sang her birthday song. Quite enjoyable. Cameron highland is a great place to relax. The air there is so flesh and cooling. The temperature can be as low as 18 degree celsius. Didn't have time to shop for clothes or gifts for u all, F4. So sorry about it. >.< School is reopening in few more day. Sigh. My pimples still didn't get well. Sad leh. TT Hopefully it'll recover as soon as possible~
Oh well, my dad almost confiscate my laptop due to my over using it during the holidays. TT sad sad sad. Quarrel with him almost everyday. I got attitude problem? Am I? ahhhh~
Today is ur birthday. haha I have a good memory right? Shen ri kuai le~ May your wishes come true and angels watching over you.

+only me+

WOoooo~ Finally performed for the family concert. Yesterday me and Joyceline were so nervous that we were going to stone at the fast tempo music tune. haha. Luckily we didn't. Unexpected our performances were to be quite well done, better than our rehearsal de. haha. A pity that June and Shu fen couldn't attend our concert. Got to go home alone. So boring. Love piano a lot! Envy Edward again. How come he's so good in music, in term of musical instruments. I wanna be like him! Hope my boyfriend will turn out this way. Have a passion for music too. hahaha. Dreaming again.
Today is suppose to ton at Joyce's house but turn out I have to go home. So sad. My mum doesn't allows me to stay overnight at her house. What the hell?!! I'm very furious at this. I'm thinking that I'm already 18 years old le. Old enough to know what I'm doing and take care of myself. Well, whatever. I'm not that angry anymore. Heck care. *relaxing in the melody of yanni's song* Nice man. Got to learn all his piano pieces. haha. Guess it'll take me years to be a pianist. >.< Please give me some motivation~ *mesmerizing in myself* haha.

+Dreaming+

Sigh~ So many things happened today. First, late for Npstrings practise today. Luckily they haven't start practising. Reach the club house at about 1.30pm, looking restless and soul-less. haha. Just don't feel like talking to anyone. Don't even know why. Am I anti-social? Oh my.. I think I got attitude problem. Sigh. I didn't improved in my speed nor the right tune. Still make alot mistakes and the sound is so weird. Stopped a few time during the rehearsal. When will I don't make any mistake? Today heard edward playing piano. So evny him, the way he plays, u can feel that his song is alive, those type of soul music. To me his standard is more than grade 8. Just that he didn't got a diploma yet. When will I make it to his stardard? Sigh. Borrow Yanni scores from him. Those pieces quite soothing. Quite suit my taste. haha. Hopefully, tomorrow I can photocopy, by friday it'll be ready. So many grade 8 pianist in Npstrings. oh myyyy.... I'm way below them. >.< Well got to practise very hard for my piano and violin. Three more days and I'll be performing for the family concert. Way to go!
Secondly, got home quite late today, unexpectedly. We're held up by the second rehearsal. So when I got home, I'm motivated to play on my piano. Play until 9.15pm. Daddy nagging at me, as I didn't even bath and eat my dinner. Well, come online at about eleven. Daddy and mummy start nagging at me again. Some more the way my dad nags is those type of shouting one. So U could hear it when U're just walking past my house. Not in good mood today, I just fight back. Then nagging turned into quarreling. I shout back. Fighting for my rights. This is no way in teaching a child to obey U. Every child has a different character. Your way of teaching is already the past. Not every child can stand the way their parents teaching method. Sigh. I don't really mean to quarrel with anyone. it's not that I'm grow up and I have my own wings to fly. it's not that.. Just that I need some freedom and respect. I don't wish to have everything until ur control. Moody. Bloodly. Worn out. I need respect!

+wo hui lai le+

WooHoo~
I'm back from my camping. Finally, after 5days 4 nights camping, I'm feeling very worn out. But overall the camp is quite a nice one. whahahaha.. We did a friendship dance during the last night which is yesterday night. Haha. I'm the first dancer which means I got to move around and dance with other second dancers. haha. Fun. I get to hold a lots of guys hands leh. whahaha. At the same time also got to hold girls hands lah. I held Wei Qiang's hands leh! whahahaha. Canoe vice captain leh. whahaha. I also held jonathan's hands, Tian le's hands and Alvin's hands. haha. I like the dancing the most. So fun! Jocyceline, are u jealous? whahaha U should attend the dance. haha. Hmm yesterday didn't sleep well, only sleep for about three hours, because last night le. Everyone was so enthusiastic about playing games. So we went over to the guy's room to play game, as the dorm is more bigger. I played the story teller game, with characters : polar bear, civilian and wise man. Quite fun at first, but as I played and played, I'm feeling more and more tired. So I stop playing at about 4am? Think so. Then I sat on a empty mattress and day dream. haha. Why are Jeremy they all always vote for jonathan to be kill. Jonathan looks so innocent to me. hahaha. Then after a while, Alvin came over to accompany me. He taught me how to play the guitar, how to identify those keys and strings. Then he also play to me the songs he practiced for the family concert. Hao hao ting. I like the piece, 'Can't help falling in love with you'. Although he only play the bass, but already quite nice. Plus his singing. Woooo~ He's quiet a nice guy. haha. Jocyceline said his eyes look like her neighbour eyes. haha. Are u interested in him? If I will to comment anything about the camp, I will complain about the bed. haha. I keep on telling the first Jeremy that the bed is too hard to sleep onto. Whenever he asked about how's the camp, I'll definitely comments about the bed. haha. *Yawn* getting tired, very tired. Family concert is coming, Npstring will be busy practicing. Got to work very hard to get the keys and sound right. A lot of the keys is out of tune. Oh my, I'm so nervous. Way to go.

+Can't help falling in love with you+
Wise man say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For i can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

+Thoughts+

I can't cry. Or should I say, I don't even know how to cry anymore? I had fogotten how to cry. My tears no longer flow out from my eyes. Because my heart is bleeding, that it has make me too pain to cry for help. I lost myself in your shadow.
In love..
It doesn't matter whether who will take the role of a guy or a girl.
It doesn't matter how much time u spend with each other.
When two person are deeply in love,
it is intoxicated.
When hatred filled the heart,
it will easily break the heart.
The most miserable thing in life is to keep on waiting for the person that can never be yours.
The most foolish person in life is not to be brave enough to tell him/her that you love him/her.
The hardest thing to do in life is to watch the one u loved, love the other person.
Be contented because u might never know when u will be losing what u have.
Never take someone for granted, the person close to your heart and soul.
Because u might wake up one day to realize that a diamond is lost while u're busy gathering stones.

+Camping Time+

Yawn~
So boring at home. Always scolded by my dad and he will start throwing things at my lappy. Oh my, please loh. So childish. Some more I'm so old le, I know what I'm doing. Is it wrong to play online game? Please piss off man. I'm so irritated by his nagging. I really got nothing to do ma. Then U want me to do? Find a job? U think I don't want to? U think it's very easy? Oh my... I think I'm going nuts. Luckily next week I won't be at home. whahaha. Going to enjoy my camping in school. Guys, must miss me hor. I'll miss u all de. >.<

+Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars+

+Nothing+

Nothing much to say. All day laze at home and rot. Play ro~ ^^ fun sia. haha. After that incident, I really don't know what to say. Fear grows within me. Emotionless. At first hatred filled me. But after alone for sometime, I discovered that I had no right to object what u're doing, no right to tell u what to do. If u really blocked me, I really got nothing to say. I won't blame U. U're still my friend. Since now, u're in a relationship, just wish u good luck bah. Yao jia you! Take good care. Anything need my help just message me.
+To understand it all was to forgive it all+

+Sentosa outing+

whahahahahaha..
Today T11 went to sentosa~ whoohoo. Only seven of us went lah. haha not all. Such a pity that there is no sun today. So Yee Sheng is still that white? hahaha. Don't worry, there will still be a next outing in sentosa. Coming soon. Please stand by. haha. Didn't get to tan as well. Raining a few minute after we got into palawan beach. we play "monkey" in the sea. Quite fun. then Joc, June and me begin to strip? hahaha.. Not really. just took off our clothes, of course we are wearing bikini inside lah. DiaoZ~ haha. Show off our figure. hahaha. no lah. I got no figure to show. Flat like airport. haha must drink more papaya milk shake le. hahaha I feel so high? Must be the volka effect lah. See lah. Let a young kid like me drink so much alcoholic. haha. I prefer weiwah buy de alcohol leh. Is it volka lime? Taste more like soft drink. haha Not much thing we did at sentosa. Because of that stupid raining lah. Just leave sentosa by about 4pm? Think so. On the journey out, I think I drop my dad's digital camera pouch on the bus. So unlucky man. Some more is not my digital camera leh! Oh my.. Start panicking and look all over the place. So well of course didn't managed to find it. Then went to parklane to play pool. haha. All xiao didi down there lah. My favourite? hahaha. No way man. Not going to like xiao didi anymore. So immature. haha. Then after that went to PS for dinner, the grilled chicken was nice at the food court. U all should try it. Well, of course I didn't forgot about my dad's camera pouch. After dinner, went to Song brother and brought a digital casing. So expensive leh!! It costs me $17. oh my.. I'm penniless now. haha. Sigh. Some more my dad don't like it. Oh my.. He doesn't accept the casing. Waste my money leh. Feel so heart pain! My $17! It's my one day outing allowance leh. SobSob..
Hmmm.. I really thought about it for a long time. I'm really not suitable for relationship. I'm not going to blam u anymore. I'm forgiving u and forgiving myself. I'll not think about our past as often as before. I'll not tell u I still like u alot anymore. I'll not say anything that offence u anymore. I'll not write about u as much as possible. All this while I had been very unhappy and depressed about it but now, I finally release what is inside my heart. Here I am to say that: ' I'm really happy for u, to found the person who u really like so much. I really hope that we can be best friend. All I hope for is just best friend and that will be happy for me. Because if U're happy with her, I'll be happy for u too. I'll feel the happiness too. I wish u the best of luck. Must try harder to win her heart hor. Yao jia You! Wo hui zhi chi ni de. One more thing, my instinct tells me that ur computer is not spoil. Think u block me in ur msn bah. Hmm.. If this is the case, I really got nothing anymore to say. Is there any misunderstanding between us? I really can't afford to lose this friendship between us. We're purely friends. ' Yup. This will make both of us more comfortable. ^^
+Hatred will only makes a person miserable+

+coincidence+

Yawn~ Yesterday sleep at alomst 5am. haha. Play ro, train like hell. Finally my base level is level 60 le, as for job is only level 45. But I change my job to assassin at 45. Lazy to train anymore. So difficult leh. Today saw ur friends again! Oh my.. So coincidence? Really so qiao. Happened that when i'm with TriaLz, I saw ur friend, kamuza, or what. Dots! He thought I'm TriaLz's gf. Oh my god. Wei.. Are u avoiding me or what? How come this few day never see u online? What happened to u? Are u okay? Think I'm gonna sms u tonight bah. Quite worry about u. haha. Ni zhe zhi zhu zhong shi ran ren dan xin.
Brought a violin just now. Guess how much it costs? Quite expensive man, it costs $315 for the violin. haha. Of course my mum pays for it lah. Where can I get that sum of money? I need a job man. Now having my holiday, feel so boring at home, must do something so that I won't be that free to think too much. Yup. Job~~~~~~~~~ Then at cristofori, there is this guy playing piano so well. Some more very smooth. I hear until I feel so inferior. He played Ou de yang- gu dan bei ban qui. Hao hao ting. Zhen de hao xi huan ta de qui! haha. He looks young. Like my age? haha Hope to have this kind of boyfriend, so that I can get to hear his playing everyday? But he is so tall. About 180cm? Or maybe because I'm short? haha. Quite excited about this coming tuesday, T11 going to sentosa. hahaha. Yeah! Feel like buying a bikini leh, but I'm broke le. Must plan my budget well or else I'll be left with no money on tuesday. Ya. Cya. Miss u.

+waiting for u+

Hmmm.. Today was a great day for swimming? haha. Meet f2 at 11.30am but went swimming in the afternoon at about 12pm? That was when the pool was just open. Swim around for about 1hour plus then due to jocyceline feeling cold, we got out of the pool and went for a bath then went off. Wahhhh... I'm darker le. haha Gosh. My body has two colors now. So funny. My hands are more darker than my legs. How come? hahaha..
This two days never see u online, busy playing ur ro or ton at ur friend house? haha kinda miss u leh. zhen de xiang ni. Did i talk too much that u're avoiding me? haha hmmm.. Few day ago I met your friend in ro. haha guess what he said? "Are u supreme #17?" I was shocked. haha. I just reply nope. Guess because my nick is SuPreMe, then he thought I'm u bah. Play acro leh. See ur friend is playing too leh. Play leh~ haha. Miss ur scolding leh. Wo shi zhu cai xi huan ni? hahaha just kidding. Faster come online and quarrel with me! haha don't make me worry hor. xiang ni. xiang ni. xiang ni. Zai deng ni.

+Life has ending, Love doesn't+

+Love+

LOVE, Like RAIN,
can nourish from above,
drenching couples with a soaking joy.
But sometimes, under the angry heat of life,
love dries on the surface and must nourish from below,
tending to its roots,
keeping itself alive.