There are some days in your life that you will reach a certain highest peak of happiness or a lowest peak of depression.
And what's with me now is the lowest.
I got no idea why.
Linnyberry is not doing well..
I am still waiting for the stupid admin job and my friend said still waiting for ceo to sign.
When can I wait until?
My time is precious. I definately want to work long enough to have moolah to do business. But that's just a unreality thinking of mine.
HA! Opening a business? It's easy than to be done.
I can continue to dream about linnyberry going oversea.
:(

I can dream.

Ahh..
Yes, you can really see how I am feeling now.
:(

I think I hate my phone.

Sometime I really wish that linnyberry sell everything that she posted.
But sad to say, it's difficult. There are just too many online shopping website. With cheap dress!
I really do wish that I could go oversea, buy back tops, dresses, tunics and bags to sell.
But then, I will need a large sum of money!
Yeah, it's the money problem. Sigh.
If only I am as rich as others seller.
I am still not working. Oh no! I forgot that I need to pay for the pillow! =X
I hope that I will be able to have a job, with at least 1.3k per month for the time being.

Oh ya.. My parents ask me to go SIM if I really can't get into any University.
Should I or should I work first for 2 years before study or work until july/august then study?
Sigh.

Why am I stupide.

I am currently very poor. I mean it.
Looking at my bank statement yesterday, it said I left $16. =X
Pathetic amount. Hope F3 will understand hur hur! hugs.


And I realise that I invest a lot of moolah in Linnyberry. ALOT. I think there might be $500? or maybe more. HAHA!


I need to start writing my resume. But.. How do I ever start with?

Okay, how many days to my birthday? Less than a month. sweat. And I haven't even achieve something big. I really hope linnyberry is doing well, so I will at least have a income base on that. And at least if I can't do something big in real life, how about virtually? But looking at linnyberry, I doubt so. BOO!



Is this nice?

Okay, I am so tired now.
I tried to blog just now, but this desktop suddenly hang.
It's not the first time. And it's not going to be the last time too.
:(

I feel so sleepy and having a headache for not sleeping well last night.

Okay, I receive this shit email yesterday in the late night.
I don't understand it at all.
Because they simply have NO reason to do so. I didn't spam their community. They don't have any right to do so. In whatever reason, how well can you define spamming? So does that means that even sending email is being restricted in singapore? Oh well.. I just can't seems to be convince and I am not guilty at all. HA!

Whatever, I can't be bothered.

lost bird.

:(
I can't even get into unsw commerce course now.
Want to know why? Cause I did so badly for this semester that I don't even know what should I do with my life now!
Ya.
Maybe it's really time to find a permanent job and work like cow for rest of my life.
I really hate PI alot.
I hate tourism.
I hate WDD.
This 3 cause me deadly.

Okay, my laptop is send for repair. Cooling fan error.

I am very unhappy with my life now.
Many thoughts and feelings.
I simply can't be bothered with anything now.

Good bye my future.
I won't be online so soon.

:'(

I love this picture. No idea why. Must be because it didn't show my face! LOL.
I love my current job. But bad pay. Really going to find a job soon. Maybe next week okay?
HAHAHA!

Anyone got any job to recomment me? :)

It's beginning of week 2 since the last exam paper.

Yesterday was T11 reunion dinner! LOL. Did you all enjoy yourself throughout the dinner? It's like finally? =X But it's okay, because it was free? hahaha! Forgot to pay minky. Heh!

Today is a busy day as I need to go here and there to search for charms that I need for the remake. Ya, tiring day. Okay, I have order 2 bags from taiwan and they will be arriving in.. ermm.. 1 month time? LOL! Please do support okay, it's going to be an improvement for linnyberry. YA!
:)

I wish I have load of moolah to buy more bags, tops and dresses for linnyberry. I found out that some of the dress can be found in singapore. HAAA! :)

I am feeling very unwell now.
Dizzy, really feel like vomitting and later I still need to go out for 'something'. ROAR!
It's the lunch and the bus journey that made me so sick. I took 7 buses today. I am really having bus sick now. I feel like vomitting.
I am in a bad mood recently. Now I ban secret in closet! WTH. The stupid vest cost me $39 and the material is so so so suck. I really hate thing that sell so expensive and the material suck. I don't mind if I paid so much for a nicer design/better quality. But this is not. LIARS go to hell.
I won't even sell this kind of thing online for such a price. I know you're making a business, but such a material and this kind of design I get, I can get it at the price of less than $20 dollars. I will never let my customer regret for the things they purchased.
And just now I went to town to collect my clothes that I sent for alternation, the stupid auntie told me the dress is still not ready. WTF. You told me that I can get both on wednesday and now it's not ready and it will be ready by tomorrow. Hello, I don't have so much time in the world to travel here and there plus I am not using a bus concession anymore. I wanted to talk back, but I hold on. Bad service plus expensive charge. Bitch.
Okay I need to rest. I hate rainy days when I need to go here and there.

I am extremely bored at home.
I declare that I find life is meaningless, boring and I hate holidays.
I definitely need a job to keep me occupy. Yup. Slacking at home isn't a good idea afterall.
But I do want to continue to update linnyberry.
Okay. If you have any job available, please contact me.
I feel so so so lonely and empty.

什麽是爱？
我好像已经失去了那种感觉。。

不想记的东西，没必要记。

Shufen! Remember I told you I want long leggings?
I want this leggings, the length is until the ankle. WOOO!
People, help me look out for this okay?
Thanks!



I am waiting for my laptop to be back so that I can update linnyberry!
HO!

I am now very inspired by the color grey.
I want a grey color stocking..
I want to create my own fashion!

I simply love colors.

okay. I won't be online this few day. Maybe seldom. So anything sms me okay? About the streamboat thingy. Thanks!
Cya ya(s) soon!

I am worry for the faculty test.
I read through the example given to me..
All so tough.

How am I going to make a 'visual metaphor' of a word or phrase with the given geometic shapes?
And I have to create adventisement of a given product/service so that the audience will know the awareness of it?
I need to draw my left hand if I am a left hander using my right hand.
I need to create three abstract compositions that demostrate emotional states of mind using a set of graphic element.
I need to use pencil to create ten different type of marks.
Then I need to do story boarding!
GOsh! I can't breathe..
I need to write something that happened to me recently!

So much to be finished within 1h30mins.
Can I make it? I am not creative enough! I am worry about the visual metaphor and emotional states of mind.. They are so tough. VERY. Can somebody explain what is visual metaphor to me? Cause I don't really get the meaning of it. I know it's quite similar to simile just that it uses 'is a'. But .. I just don't really get it! And the three abstract compositions, I don't even know how am I suppose to do it!

I need solutions! Just the explaination part will do. Please! :)

HOOOOOO!

More moolah pleaseeee..

This year red packages really shrink a lot. Everyone is preparing for the 7% GST is it?

=X

Well..

Yesterday went to visit relatives's houses. Keep on travelling in bus, I feel very sleepy throughout the journey. Pig year ma!

Okay. Today I have been browsing websites again.

I really loves all this.. I wish I have plenty of moolah to buy everything.

Nice?

Nice nice?

I interacted with my cousins that are all older than me. And it seems that there are still some ways to get a degree.

a) I was told that I could work for 2 years and apply for degree

b) There is alway other opportunity to get into oversea university.

c) S*M

I thought that S*M is so bad? But then my cousin who is doing her radiation therapy course in nanyang might be going to S*M night class for her degree in the coming july.

Hmm..

How man?

And now I got another problem. My stupid laptop is giving me problem, low hard disk space,virus detected, low memory space etc.

WHY man? I didn't download any program at all!

ROAR! I don't want to format!

I hate virus!

I got shoot down everytime I voiced out.
Ya.
That's why I don't want to know about certain thing.
And that's my assumption from what I see.
I told you. You upset. I don't tell you, you also upset.
I really don't know what I should do.
If you will in my shoe, what will you do?
It's tough being the middle man.
VERY TOUGH.
U know that I will still stand by ur side even though my assumption don't support you.
U know that I do try to help u make peace.

Now I doubt you know.
Now I feel that I made a mistake by telling you.

I want peace. I really do.

Today I saw toddler who was sitting in the pram, he was trying to fall to the right side, trying to grabs thing that is on the floor I think.
And the mum/nanny was saying "sit properly, ah ninis come already. ah nini.."
I was O.O who is ah nini?
sweat.
Is this the cause of conflict? The correct way of teaching young children?

Now, I believe sweetheart is wrongly accused for that incident.
Nobody should be treated unfairly definitely not now.

I am so bored!
WDD WDD WDD
Haven't really been studying. Once I am online, I will start browsing website.
WDD is boringggggg!
Oh my gosh!
I need dress. Nice Dress. =X
I need a satin top too! AWWW

Lastly, I need sales. Sian.

I need motivation! ROAR!

What are U all going to wear for shufen birthday? Black or white? Or both? Lets dress like moo moo or zebra? Huh? =X

It's demoralising to know how bad I did for the past 5 semesters.
Now, I can confirm that no university will want me.
First, I didn't do well for my previous 5 semesters, not even a gpa: 3.
Second, I am no gift in music, not even a grade 8 cert.
Third, I got no other special talent nor any CEO of some company. Can Linnyberry be considered as a private company? Even with that, I still can't get into university!

Extremely disappointing. Maybe I should consider becoming a piano teacher after I get my grade 8 cert.

Sad. Demoralising. Depressed.

Some people likes to be alone.
What can I say?
When they don't even reply or don't want to reply?
HA!

I am pissed off. VERY.

When to our secondary school classmate Ting's 21th birthday! She's getting more and more pretty! *drools
I must say, it's very successful and fun! We're enjoying ourselves with foods and cake! U should have see the cake! It's so sexy! LOLOL. Wait until I get the picture, the guys will steam man, quote from ting.



My stupid friend took this picture of me when I was concentrating smsing.
But I don't look that skinny leh. I seem weird in this picture, like my head is so big and my body is tiny. I got big head!
Anyway I did enjoy myself yesterday! So funnn! Heh!
Our stupid friend is always entertaining us! He's more bps than me. Keep on drinking water and eating non stop. Can you imagine? He even joke with ting's mum.. Who knows what is he up to?
After the cake cutting and everything, it's almost 10.30pm and the last shuttle bus has already left.
Shit. And we have to wait for people to drive us to the mrt station, there is so many of her poly friends there! We have to wait for our turn.. By the time we reach the mrt station, the last train is gone as well. Sian. I cannot go to the airport to fetch my dad. And my relatives must be happy too huh? Got free stuff as expected? Bps people.
Anyway, we decided to go for mid night movie. Five of us squeezing into a taxi with extra $3 charge. Heh! Better than splitting into two groups right? Went to The cathay, but don't have any interesting movie. Sian. Our stupid friend calls up his friend to check whether is there any interesting movie in town before we walk to cineleisure. Long way man, and I am already feeling sleepy. HA!
But I found something interesting in cheers!



Look Look! The giant pocky! Giant enough ma? LOL! Don't know why our stupid friend dress so formal for what. Everyone is wearing T shirt with jeans or shorts with shirt. He must be wanted to seduce the birthday girl!
The movie is great. Yup. Seriously great! I give 4 stars out of 5 stars. I will watch it the second time man, didn't really get the beginning. Bleh. Happy Birthday



Okay, this picture is taken from PS. After our movie, at 4.45am. MAN. See how late? And I am getting so high lah! I mean it. HIGH.
We waited for the first bus home. It was so cold in the bus. I thought I might cold to death.
I bathed and went to bed. Yup, it was 7am plus in the morning. I can't sleep at all, wake myself up at 11.30am. GG. I wan deprived of sleep liao!
I am so poor now. Broke. Seriously poor. Two friend birthday in a week. Sian.
After this still got 1 week of holiday and I can foresee that I will spend alot of money during that week!
Oh ya.. Talking about soccer match, I think we're having conflict with the Thai. Die. And now, we won the soccer match. Double insult to them! Holy shit. Good luck singapore.

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The fun time we have in class! Remember mel?


The last day of eating in school canteen. We went canteen 4 to try out the chicken chop. It was months/ year since we last went there.

I will miss the school..

Soon I will graduate.. Too soon for me.

I want my little black heels.