+Emotions+

Wahhhhhh.....
So long never update my blogspot le. It had been so long ever since I last log in. Hmmm.. About three days ago? haha.. So many things happened this few day. Tuesday when I'm boarding a bus to school, something embarrassing happened to me. I can't find my e-zink card when I'm already on the bus. Everyone were already sitting down, only left me, I'm the only one standing and searching for my e-zink card. Searched and searched, still can't find. I began to panic. Then the next unlucky thing was that, I looked inside my purse and realized that I only had one then dollar note, no coins for bus fare at all. Got to go around asking people for change, the most pathetic is that nobody had a ten dollar change. Oh my.. Then ask the guy sitting in front, he had not enough change, but he offend me with so coins enough for my bus fares for free. I was so shocked, I rejected him. Don't want to owe a stranger anything. I'm really grateful for his help. You're a nice guy, may the angels be with you. Thanks! Then at the same time searching my bag. Finally I found my e-zink card, after all the effort asking around people for change. So embarrassing sia. I think everyone in the bus surely will recognize me from that day onward. Ahhhhh.... I feel like digging a hole and bury myself inside. Way to embarrass le. Not only that, I even forgot to bring my library book to return. Some more the date due was that day. What am I thinking all this time? What's on my mind? Wake up, ailin! You are already way behind other. Sigh.
Today I did my programming in class until I feel so stress and feel like crying. I'm on the edge of crying, the tears were already formed in my eyes. I just keep on telling myself, I cannot cry in polytechnic. I'm such a weaklings. When it comes to emotion, it's difficult for me to control. Help! I'm really drowning, can someone give me a lifesaver? I'm going to repeat that module. In fact, every module! Shit. I'm really dead meat le~ No time left to study for my walk through on Friday. How?! I cut my hair already, going to dye my hair tomorrow. haha. I think my back is quite short leh. But when waxed up, quite punkish looking. hahaha... Cool. Shit all I know is style, eat, sleep and play. I'm falling apart. Can't even know who am I le.
+Change the unbearable, bear the unchangeable+

+StreSs fighT+

AhHhhhh.....
This few days don't know why I keep on feeling tired and sleeping all day. I feel like I'm a snake hibernating during winter time. Oh gosh, make me think of Anacondas. Feel so disgusting leh. Think of that make me having goose bumps. Nothing to talk about for today. Haven't go for a hair cut. I want to style my hair. Style it, style it, style it! But the academy never open on weekend only weekday. Some more the booking time is so weird, only can book for 10am, 2pm or 4pm. How am I going to have time to cut my hair? Sigh. This few day eat lots of heaty foods and stress over coming exams, got many pimples popping out. Sigh >.< color="#cc33cc">[ To mean something to somebody is one of the greatest satisfactions in life ]

+Food morE+

Wahhhhh... Finally get CSA assignment done. Today we had our presentation and we are all so nervous throughout the whole presentation. I can feel that I'm stumbling over words and I keep on having pauses! I feel so irritating. Luckily after ten minutes or more, our presentation was over! I felt so relieved. PhEw~ haha. Now all I need is to concentrate on my Psp1 assignment. So difficult leh. Is very difficult! I'm so stress over it. haha. After my Csa lesson, then we go out. We went to town again. haha. Orchard seems to be our second home. Or should I say our Friday leisure place? We all fell asleep in the bus. Jocyceline keep on letting her head fall onto the left side, which is me sitting beside her. haha remind me of the morning incident, where a girl sitting on my right, also keep on letting her hair more and more to the left. Then when she felt her head is on my shoulder, she quickly sleep towards the right side. So funny. haha. Luckily jocyceline wake us up on time or else we will be missing the bus stop and we will find ourselves in the bus interchange. After shopping with F3 for about 1hour, I got to go for my dental appointment. Don't feel like leaving the f3 leh. Had so much fun with them, feeling sad to be separated. haha. Think I had made a waste trip to the dental as she only check my teeth and say I don't need any cleaning. I was so shocked, like this also need to pay money ar? Waste my money and time leh. Feel like doing braces, but my mum says my teeth is not very untidy. Should I or should I not? Braces cost quite a lot leh. Some more got to make appointment with National Dental Health to check my teeth first before proceeding to other. Hmmm.. Then went to meet my secondary school friend, Pc loh, still got who? haha.. The one getting more and more pretty, zhi lian and thinner? hahaha. Just kidding, don't get offend by it. Haha.. We went to shopping and shopping. So many things on my wishlist le. I like the Zara mao mao top leh. But expensive, it's 69bucks leh! Need to save two week of allowance then can buy. I think Pc try the turtle neck white de quite sweet leh. haha look fatter in it, guess it's thick that's why u seems to be fatter. Then our last stop is take neo prints. haha. We're still so into photo taking. So long never take neo prints with her le. Kinda miss the days leh, when the three of us will be squeezing into one camera screen. haha. Hmmm.. Maybe going to dye my hair to cover the white hair. Which color should I choose, guys? Any opinion? Hope tomorrow I can get to style my hair. haha.. Feel so excited over this kind of thingy. Am I going to school to study or for modeling? Both? XD

Seeing u online, waiting for u to click onto me and say 'halo' like u normally do. But wait and wait, u never chat with me. Then I feel so boring le. Well, maybe u're busy with ur game or chatting with her? Hmmm.. Now the distance between u and me seem to be further and further. I'm getting more and more lifeless. More and more blockhead. haha. I also don't feel like thinking about it anymore. It's getting more and more meaningless and useless. Finally one day, will I say "I can't be bother about it?" Hmmm.. With my character, unless u forced me into saying it, if not, don't think I'll say bah. Hao lei, so long never have a good sleep le. Keep on doing projects and projects. Well, got to have a good night rest. Replenish my energy for a better tomorrow.

[The only picture that left in my memory is ur back view]

This is the neoprint that we took~ one blue, other one is in color. haha.. cute right? XD Feel so hungry now~

Recently scan one. haha. Nice right?

+Alive outside, dead inside+

Sigh~ Still got two more projects to rush for. Some more tomorrow got two tests leh! My gosh, how am i going to study? Guess I'm really dead meat le. Assistant needed. haha.. Today when we are having break before Psp1, we go canteen3 and eat da bao. hahaha.. So funny sia. When june brought the da bao and waiting for us to buy something to drink, i told her, "Why u only buy one da bao? U need two to be balance leh." haha we broke into laughter down there. Who knows, i brought papaya milk juice, make the whole topic more funny. Girls, i really don't know what to drink, please think straight. haha Then after that me and shu fen also brought a da bao. haha.. Now got two da bao, we got so excited and become abit horny le. Think the canteen is filled with our laughter. We start to take pictures of the da bao, passer-by students will look at us as if we're a group of lunatics. haha..
Finally u told me that sec 1 girl name le. haha.. Anyway, I don't think that much anymore le. So what if i got her name? I can't do anything ma. I'm taking things as lightly as I can. Think U really think too much le. Don't be stress over relationship lah. Save half of ur heart to think about me leh. hahaha.. I must be dreaming again.

whahahaha.. wo de da bao~ hao hao chi de da bao. Inside got egg some more. haha

+Let it be+

Hohoho~ Today finally finish my Iac project le. i'm so nervous during the presentation. So nervous that I'm stumbling over the words. So embarrassing. Think i'm the only one down there stumbling. haha.. Make a fool out of myself. At least one project lesser. Still got two more to go, Csa and Psp1. Csa is so difficult leh. We don't even know what the teacher wants some more we're not given any example on how should we do the project. We're totally without any guide line. Help~ The Psp1 assignment had already started and yet, i still haven't do yet. haha.. Having honey moon mood now. Sigh. Psp1 is so difficult when it comes to the method thingy. So confusing. Think my hair was damaged from the swimming. Now my hair is getting more and more rough leh. How? haha I feel like reborning my hair. Can someone please sponsor me? haha..
Well, this few days, ever since he doesn't want to tell me who is that girl, I think i'm withdrawing from him. Don't know why. But I'm feeling unfair. It's unfair that he doesn't want to tell me who is the girl. I'm his ex and senior, why can't I know who is that girl. However, when i really think about it, I think I'm just being jealous and childish. If he doesn't feel like telling me, it's okay. I shouldn't be angry or sad over it. haha.. Lin, please grow up bah. Be content! If he wants to tell me, he'll tell. I don't have to force him to say or what. I'll just wait.
[ The opposite of love is not hate. It's indifference ]

+swim, swim and swim+

AhHhh.. Wake up so early in the morning hoping that i can go swimming in Ngee Ann, but end up lazing around in canteen1. Due to raining, all because of my fault, we are suppose to meet at 9am, but i came to scholl at around 9.30am plus. hahaha.. Can't wake up on time. Sorry guys. haha.. But on the other hand, the pool only open at 12pm, haha so not quite my fault. All of them dress so nice even when we are going to swimming, except for me, I wore a bemudes, t-shirt and slippers. haha.. As if I'm going to the market. Now going to rot in canteen1. Park is going to go into Lala's land soon as he forgot to bring battery for his lappie, he's feeling so bored. Jocyceline, june and me are surfing the net. haha.. It's so boring to wait for the pool to open. Waste my two hours sleep leh. hahaha.. Oink oink~ Rotting~ Lazing~ Praying~ Dreaming~ Hope that we do get to swim and hope that the weather won't change anymore. Please don't rain.

Haha.. Here is a photo we took in canteen 1 when park is sleeping. So interesting~

+Be strong+

SobBbb~ Don't know why am I feeling so sad today when I'm chatting with U. I finally know something that U had never tell me before. It's so complicated. Too complicated for me to accept that is the fact. Suddenly, I discovered that U're no longer the person I once knew. Hao nan gou. Hao xiang ku, you bu ke yi ku. Zhe ge gan jue hao nan gou. Hao bei shang. I'm flummoxed. Should I continue liking U? sigh. Wo fang qi. Giving up every single hope. To love someone, U really needed alot of courage. I don't have the courage and got to admit that I lost the battle. Feel like hating U. But it's not ur fault too. Give me some time to settle down. God, please help me! Guide me through the darkness. Forgive U and to forgive myself. zai jian le wo de ai.

曾经为谁哭红了眼睛，那是生命中最美丽的表情。爱是一场不靠岸的旅途，也是上天最骄傲的礼物。前世的500次回首才换来今生的一次擦肩而过，能在茫茫人海中相遇相知，怎能说不是一种缘分？ 也许他们都该庆幸这样的结束。

+A girl, a lady+

HooooooHoooo~
Today I'm kinda tired. Have to wake up on time for my 9am lessons. Csa is so difficult. I really having difficulties in coping that subject. It's getting tougher and tougher. Ahhhh.. S.O.S~ Some more my Immf, i haven't even go through the practical yet. Psp1 assignment is coming soon. I'm dead meat! Today attend PSP1 assignment briefing, the progam is so difficult to create leh. So many JButton,JLabel and JTextField. This is not the difficult part. The most difficult part is the meun things. U got to write in all the main course, drinks, etc and prices so that when u click on to the button, it will show all the meun foods and prices. Sigh. How am I going to handle all this stress? The assignment only take up 10% of the overall, it will be the interview/walkthrough that will kill us. The walkthrough take up 90% leh! It's 90%, it's a written test to test ur ability and to know whether u really understand programming or not. Man.. >.< Today we went to orchard. Brought a purple T-shirt. Quite satisfied. Haha.. Then we went to Far East to eat Ah kun mian bao. So delicious. We took a bite of the bread then use our camera phone and took a picture of it. haha.. so funny. Think only we're the craziest girls down there. Even the small little girl sitting beside us, stare weirdly at us. Trying to figure out what are we doing. Inside the Ah kun mian bao shop, we can feel the ground is vibrating beneath our feet. Is that earthquake? Or is it due to some constriction underneath us? It's quite frightening. Tonight u chatted with me, u asked for my blogspot address again. I gave it to U. Don't know whether am I doing the right thing or not. I'm hesitanting whether should I gave it to U. I'm not worrying about whether what ur answer will be after browsing through my blogspot. I'm worrying about whether U'll avoid me or can we still be friends. Didn't meant to make U even more sadder. Don't think I'm doing the correct thing by letting u see my blogspot bah. Sorry. Cheer up. sigh. I'm not good at cheering people up and consoling people.Just want to let u know that I'm alway there for u, just beside U.
Today is koR birthday le. haha.. Happy Birthday, Chunwei! Must be happy always hor, remember u still got me as ur mei. I'll be there for U.
+I'm a girl, not yet a lady, but a tough one+

Here is the Ya Kun mian bao picture. Haha Yummy~

+small is beautiful+

Hiya~ Today i'm feeling much better than tuesday. haha.. Two days had passed ever since we quarrelled.Today nothing special happened. Tonight i'm abit nervous when i log online. Don't know why. Maybe because of u bah. Worry that we might not be on good term anymore after what i had said to U on tuesday night. Keep on waiting for u to msg me. Well, haha finally u message me in msn. Quite happy leh. Think i'm going to be crazy soon le bah. Can't even understand what i wanted. Emotions totally mixed up. Luckily today never say anything offence to U. I think U should know my blogspot address bah. Half of me don't want to let U know what is my feeling about U, but part of me wanted U to know. What should I do? In the end I never give U my address. Things can never be the same again right? Can they? Are u really going to change for the better as what u promise to be? Hope so bah.

Recently there is something happened to our group F4. Jocyceline blogspot had been hacked. So scary and evil leh. Who is/are the culpit/s behind it? We're not going to let u off. Beware of ur belonging because u might just discover that u have a red note stick on it. F4's warning notes! haha.. Hope that nothing like this will happen again. May we be sound and save.

+Don't let happiness be under duress. Happiness is worth waiting for+

+Hurts deeply+

Haha.. I'm always that foolish to like U. I knew the result all along. Yah. I'm that stupid. I'm that stupid to be concern and care for U. I'm that stupid to wait for U. I'm that idiotic to promise to be there for U. All my fault to like U. It's not ur fault. Ni shi wo wei yi xiang yao de liao jie. U had disappointed me enough. It's enough. Whatever is no longer important le. Because it's my business. My business to give u a chance to hurt me again. My business to let u go, thought that because u like her a lot too and hope your feelings and her will stay there. My business to suffer silently when I don't even want to tell u I like u, because I scare I'll lead to misunderstand between u and her. My business to trying to be cheerful in front of u when I'm not. Whatever things, is MY BUSINESS. Believe it or not, I'm crying just because u say "if u're not going to believe me, it's ur problem." It's totally hurts like hell. U don't even know the feeling of liking someone and loving someone. It's not that easily to like someone and then forget about it so easily. Hoping that U will understand me one day. Hoping for one day the fairy tale does happen on me, asking me to be ur princess. But I don't think there will even be a glimmer of hope. I had already done my best in this marathon that has no ending for me to aim. I'm too tired to continue anymore. I'm exhausted in those disappointment rather than joyful moment. I'm totally beaten. I admit the defeat. Don't keep on saying sorry, because u make me feel even more disappointing when i expect more than just a sorry. I should be the one to say sorry when I knew the result and yet keep on digging my own grave into it. My heart no longer had any emotion for anything anymore. Thanks for ur "ur problem", U making me wake up from the beautiful dreamland that I have been waiting for. Buddies forever. It's is all over? God knows.
[Waiting For U Is Like Waiting For The Rain On This Drought]

+waiting and waiting+

Hohoho~ Today went to watch Cinderella story with my friend after my IS class. AHhhhh.. The story is so nice. Just like the fairy tale, except that the glass shoe was changed to a handphone. haha.. Overall is touching. It's all about being who you really are and not trying to be who your parents/people want you to be. Austin is so cute, so does Sam~ haha.. The way Austin is, make me think of Michael. haha.. I think Michael is quite cute leh, don't know why li ting said he looks nerd. haha. How I wish fairy tales do happen in real life. But those tales seem to be like a glimmer of hope. I even doubt that it does happen. Sigh. Oh my.. I must be cheerful. *Can't sigh* haha. The sentence in Cinderella that caught my attention was "Waiting for you is like waiting for the rain in this drought." In fact I like the whole part of that scene when he is going in the changing room waiting have a soccer match till the end. So touching when they finally kissed and the sky starting to rain. Romantic sia~ But too bad, I watched this movie with a girl. haha.. Make me think of that time when I watched Harry potter part3 with U. Do u still remember about it? Haha.. Actually that time, I wanted to rest on ur shoulder de. But, too embarrass to do. It was all in the past. Don't think U'll ever remember about it bah. Some memories are difficult to forget. Just like when it had become the other part of U. There are still a lots of things I wanted to know about U. hmmm.. Guess I got to be more patient. Think I'm feeling a bit more better everyday in my life without U. Praying that U are happy then I'll be contented. haha every little things that u do, make me jump up with delight. Sound so funny. Miss ya so much.
+Seek and U'll find+

+confession+

Today is so boring like the rest of my daily life. Went for piano lesson in the morning then after that just go citylink and suntec walk walk for a while. So many things caught my eyes but pocket no money can't buy. haha so sad sia. Then I saw poh chan's parents. haha.. Didn't recognized them until they called my name. Then I turned back, looked so shock. Glad to see them, so long never see her parents le. Last time used to go her house, but not often. Miss that kind of closeness. For the rest of the day just stay at home and rot.
Hmmm... So happy to see him online again. haha.. I won't do any impulsive action again. Just wait patiently for fate to come in my way. Hai zai deng, deng dao you yi tian, xi wan you ge tian shi nen jie kai zhe ge zhou yu. Zai deng ni...

+confession+

I have been blind

unwilling

To see the true love

You're giving

I have ignored every blessing

I'm on my knees

Confessing...

That I feel myself surrender

Each time I see your face

I am staggered by your beauty

Your unassuming grace

And I feel my heart is turning

Falling into place

I can't hide it

Now hear my confession

I have been wrong about you

I thought I was strong without you

For so long

Nothing could move me

For so long

Nothing could change me

Now I feel myself surrender

Each time I see your face

I am captured by your beauty

Your unassuming grace

And I feel my heart is turning

Falling into place

I can't hide it

Now hear my confession

You are the air that i breathe

You're the ground beneath my feet

When did I stop believing?

by Josh Groban, great lyric right?

+I am such a letdown+

Today is a great day. Went to town after our CSA lesson to catch a movie( The Terminal). The movie was great~ Really funny and quite touching. U guys should watch it. It's about a man from Krakozhia and his native falls into chaos. A state of civil war means he and his country are no longer recognised by the United States government. He is stateless and in a peculiar quandary (access denied). He can neither return home nor enter the US. He's told to stay in a transit lounge and wait. Then later he fallen in love with a flight attendant. Well, for the rest of the story I'm not going to tell U. haha.. Watch it urself, I'm sure u'll never regret spending ur money on this show. After the movie, we went shopping around orchard. Feel like buying the white and orange Puma bag we saw at heren. But quite expensive leh, it is $59.90. More expensive than Shu Fen's Adidas bag. Who can sponsor me? haha.. Then guess what? I saw the pig! Remember the pink and red pig we saw at Bugis during our first date? But at heren only left the white and red pig. Sigh. Shopped until about 5pm then we go home. When I reach home I'm so tired. Feel like a log, too heavy to move around.

Finally, today I received ur msg. I'm so happy and excited about it, but u only msg me that u changed ur hp number. Hmm.. A little bit disappointed. I msg back asking u, "u changed ur hp ar?" U just replied "yup..." Well, I don't know what to reply at all. Suddenly u're so cold toward me. I'm not used to this changes. U're behaving as if I'm a stranger to U. Aren't we suppose to be good friends? Isn't that what we promised? The promise is not there anymore. How am I going to continue liking u when I can't find a single reason for me to like u? Please give me some hope to lead onto. Maybe it was my fault to make such a change in U. I shouldn't change my nick and display picture that day. It's my fault, I'll blame myself if we can't even be friends anymore. Sigh. I miss ur messages and goodnight kiss. But time is not going to turn back, life just move on without waiting for anybody. Life is so transient. Something just can't be force. Let nature take its course. Miss you.

+i'm not e angel, u're looking for+

Another day just pass. People come into my life and go out of my life. When love comes easily, it'll goes easily. Treasure the other part of you when u can. I admitted that I'm not as strong as u seem me to be. I'm just trying my best to be strong, trying the best. Someone told me this before that i'll never ever forget : "Don't try to be strong, just be strong!" Guess i'm going to work hard on being strong. Everytime when someone mentions about him, i'll just hold back my tears. It's difficult to think about a relationship which u once had before then lost it now. sigh. just resign to my fate le. i'm so tired and sick of everything. The hardest u try, the least it'll happen. So u might as well wait silently and expect it the least. When u're really unlucky, there will be something lucky happens to u later on. Maybe.. I just have to wait patiently. Don't be sad becuse it is over, smile because it happened. But how can u ever be happy when it happens on u? Hmmm.. I'm learning to be content with what i have. At least i cherish the friendship i have between us. I do cherish it alot, even through u maybe avoiding me. That is the way i feel ur feelings toward me, u're avoiding me. Are u? Tell me if u're not. I'm sitting right beside u. I may not be the angel u're looking for, but i do have the criterias to make u happy, if i'm given one more chance. +Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing ur enthusiasm+

+zui ni xin fu+

+ninini+

wo men zai yi qi de shi hou, wo bu zhen xi ni, dao le shi qu ni de shi hou, cai lai huo hui mo ji, yi que dou lai bu ji le. gang ren shi ni de shi hou, wo zong shi mei chi shang wang shi, ni zong shi zai di er tian di pei zai wo, dang ni ming tian hai you ke de shi hou, ni zong shi heng wan cai shui jiao de pei wo liao tian, ni dou pei wo jiang hen jiu de dian hua, you shi huo ni pa wo gu du, mei tian pei wo sms, zhe xie, wo zhi ji de, wo zhi dao, wo hen ren xing, you hen ma fan, zong shi xi huan ni chang ge gei wo ting, xi huan ni gei wo wan sms, xi huan ni fan zhe wo, jin guan wo hui jing chang rang ni bu kai xin, sui ran wo lao shi ai hu shi luan xiang, jiu xiang ni shuo de na yang, wo jiu shi ben dan, ke shi wo zhi dao ni hui qian jiu wo, hui dui wo hao de, wo ye yi yang hui dui ni hao, wo zhi shi xiang dui ni shuo : "xie xie ni wei wo zuo de yi qie, wo jiu shi zhe yang cai xi huan shang ni de~"


+wowowo+

Ren shi ni de shi hou bu tai xi huan ni, ye bu xiang xin ni. Wo zhong shi hua yi ni shuo de hua, shi yi wei ni hao xiang hen rong yi xi huan shang bie ren. Ke shi xiang chu jiu le, wo zhen de xi huan shang ni. Wo bu shi bu hui chi chu, er shi wo bu xiang ren ni kan dao wo chi chu de na yi mian. Wo yao ni zhi dao ni zhi ji zai zuo shi me. wo zhi dao ni xi huan shang ta. Qi shi wo shi hen bu xiang ran ni zhou de, ke shi wo qie kai bu liao kou ran ni zhi dao. Ye sui ta zhen de shi he ni. yi wei bei ai shi xing fu de. ni bu yong dan xin wo, wo hui zhao kui zhi ji de. Dang jie ju bu nen gai, wo you he bi duo kai? Jiu zhe yang bah..

Xian zai xiang qi lai wo men fen shou, yi jing yao liang ge yue le. Ke shi wo hai shi yi zhe zhang zai yuan di, deng zai ni. Wo zhi dao zhi ji hen sha, ye zhi dao ni bu hui lai, ke shi wo hai shi xi huan zai ni. Wu lun ni zuo shen me, wo dou hui zi chi ni de. Yao jia you!

+I love U, guys+

Wahhh.. So fast another day had passed. Yesterday, we had a class gathering in Sentosa, Palawan beach there. It was so fun. It had been such a long time ever since each of us went our own way. Hao xiang lian ni men ah~ haha.. U, guys really change a lot sia. Tian ming had become quite good looking, the guys all becoming more childish leh, wan jun had grew fatter yet still so pretty and the girls had becoming more and more beautiful~ Some more all of the girls worn bikini leh except sl and me. hahaha. Well, how I wish that day had never ended. Think we left Sentosa at about 5pm plus. Went to eat then went to see a movie, Quill. The dog is so cute, responsible and have a thoughtful mind. That movie was quite boring and touching at the same time. I cried at the ending, guess it was because of the music made me filled my mind with something else. I'm depressed again. Today cry again when listening to windstruck songs. Today chatting with u, I know where i'm standing in ur heart le. I knew the answer right from the start, it'll alway be the same, am I right? Such a hurtful feeling. But I'm scare of letting go of the memories and feeling that we once shared. The hurt is unbearable, those really hurt in ur heart, like there is something piercing through. Are U being fair? Or am I being a fool?

+mixed feelings+

hohoho~ wo hui lai le. this few days had been busy with projects and FS class test. so stress~ so many projects to pass up. some more is THREE projects leh, still got one more coming up. wo hao ya li! haha today go online i chat with him again. we chat and chat. as usual, our chatting is so cold, like nothing to talk about. sigh. but when he says that actually on teacher's day, he hoped to see me going back to sch. i got so happy, suddenly feel so happy about it. what am i doing? i care so much about what he says to me. even just s simple msg from him, will make me happy and brighten up my day. i think i still like him, even through he may not feel the same for me anymore. i really really miss him alot! it's a feeling that i could not find the exact word to describle. the feeling is just there, no matter how hard i try to be forget. sigh. it's so miserable. it's just like something is missing in my life and i figure it out, it's u. breaking up is just a way of testing how stable our relationship can be.

hmmm.. just listening to jie kou from jay's newest (qi li xiang) album. the lyrics is so meaningful and sad.
here is the lyric i'm going to paste it here for u all.

jie kou

fan zhe wo men de zhao pian, xiang lian ruo yin ruo xian

qu nian de dong tian, wo men xiao de hen tian

kan zhe ni ku qi de lian, dui zhe wo shuo zai jian

lai bu ji ting jian, ni yi zou de hao yuan

ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo, ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou

wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo, qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo

jiu suan shi wo bu dong, neng bu neng you liang wo

qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu

wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou, shi ni shou shang de jie kou

qing ni hui tou, wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou

jiu suan mei you jie guo, wo ye neng gou cheng shou

wo zhi dao ni de tong, shi wo gei de cheng nuo

ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong, che mo shi yin wei bao rong

ru guo ya zou, qing ni ji de wo

ru guo nan guo, qing ni wang le wo