+Emotions+

Wahhhhhh.....
So long never update my blogspot le. It had been so long ever since I last log in. Hmmm.. About three days ago? haha.. So many things happened this few day. Tuesday when I'm boarding a bus to school, something embarrassing happened to me. I can't find my e-zink card when I'm already on the bus. Everyone were already sitting down, only left me, I'm the only one standing and searching for my e-zink card. Searched and searched, still can't find. I began to panic. Then the next unlucky thing was that, I looked inside my purse and realized that I only had one then dollar note, no coins for bus fare at all. Got to go around asking people for change, the most pathetic is that nobody had a ten dollar change. Oh my.. Then ask the guy sitting in front, he had not enough change, but he offend me with so coins enough for my bus fares for free. I was so shocked, I rejected him. Don't want to owe a stranger anything. I'm really grateful for his help. You're a nice guy, may the angels be with you. Thanks! Then at the same time searching my bag. Finally I found my e-zink card, after all the effort asking around people for change. So embarrassing sia. I think everyone in the bus surely will recognize me from that day onward. Ahhhhh.... I feel like digging a hole and bury myself inside. Way to embarrass le. Not only that, I even forgot to bring my library book to return. Some more the date due was that day. What am I thinking all this time? What's on my mind? Wake up, ailin! You are already way behind other. Sigh.
Today I did my programming in class until I feel so stress and feel like crying. I'm on the edge of crying, the tears were already formed in my eyes. I just keep on telling myself, I cannot cry in polytechnic. I'm such a weaklings. When it comes to emotion, it's difficult for me to control. Help! I'm really drowning, can someone give me a lifesaver? I'm going to repeat that module. In fact, every module! Shit. I'm really dead meat le~ No time left to study for my walk through on Friday. How?! I cut my hair already, going to dye my hair tomorrow. haha. I think my back is quite short leh. But when waxed up, quite punkish looking. hahaha... Cool. Shit all I know is style, eat, sleep and play. I'm falling apart. Can't even know who am I le.
+Change the unbearable, bear the unchangeable+