+Practises+

AAHHHhhhh~
DAMN!
Not enough time for practise. Yet most of the time there is/are surely some people not able make it for some of the practise. How to coordinate well and expect to play well with this?!
Ridiculous!
Sigh. I didn't play well for this few days. Worries. Running notes not smooth. Timing not correctly. Intonation not correct. This are the weakness in me. Dead. Broke down into tears yesterday. Practise half way suddenly, become serious and feel so stress up. Luckily nobody saw. We have been practising since last week. And result? No sight of improvement at all. This is the worst case I can expect. After practise, Jeremy wanted to have a talk with me. So I went out. Walk along the corridor. Then he said I look so stress up. Yes, i am. I told him, I keep on making the same mistake over and over again. He told me, my timing is the problem. And I didn't play badly, it's I am too self conscious. Am I? Nah. He said alot of things. No choice, broke down into tears again in front of him. Awww~ Wrong timing. Then he went to toilet and took alot of tissue paper for me. Too much paper. haha. Told him, do I need so much paper? haha. I laughed. Jeremy, thanks for ur advice. I will keep that in mind. He's nice to me. The more he's nice, the more I don't know what to do. After practise, went to atrium with him. Waiting for him to transfer money to me. whahahaha. 160bucks! lalala~ Going to run away with the money! haha. Shocked that he asked me to help him register for his Japanese Advance A class. He trust me so much? Accompany him to KAP and eat for awhile then on the way we argued about my violin. Si jeremy, insisted on helping me taking my violin. Waste up so much time arguing and saw my bus went off without me. AH! Then I start to say him ben dan. haha. More shocking is that, he told me, Actually I am quite happy that instead of feeling stress up, I had made u angry. Shocked. Don't know what to reply. Waited quite long for the bus. Then he accompany me in the bus for a few stop.
I think I am beginning to feel something.
P:I'm too shy to ask... I just want to know whether you have little feelings for me?
W:Zzz.. zzz.. Zzz.. No idea. Erm.. Don't want to talk about relationship.
P:Ok.... Another 66 go pass me. Haha.. At least you didn't say you don't have.
W:Dots! Zhu ar? =X hahaha jk. U should go home first. Erm.. Thanks for ur advice.
P:Never mind... I am happy to send you home, at least a bit.... So guess what I can do now is to wait for you.
W:Don't wait lah. Ben dan. haha really. Don't wait. I'll not be a good gf.
P:I know you will be a good gf, its just to see whether its mine...
W:Nah. I'll not. U don't even know my character. haha sleep lah. Tomorrow still have to work. Reach home?
P:ya.. Sleeping now. Good night.
Dots! I am not IT.
Hmmm.. Going to shop for black collar top tomorrow. Waste money on useless things again. Feel like buying the shiny black bag in Far East. But no money. Bored! Gotta practise really hard. Prays.

Jia you bah! On we go.