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From This Moment On

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything and everything and I will always care. Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse, I will love you
With every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
I can't wait to live my life with you, I can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

>>> From This Moment On =)

Kill me.

I could no longer smile. No longer think. No longer see.
Every emotion in me is dead.
Just like those trees in the lonely winter.
The street is deserted. Everyone is hiding in their warm cozy home. The cemetery is filled with bitterness snow.
Tears could no longer be felt. For they turned into ice.
I feel like a fool belonging to no where. Walking pass every tomb stone send a chill up my spine. I feel lonely. But those loneliness eventually add up, turning them into emptiness.
How is heaven like? A white place fills with smiling angels? Or is it a place fills with emptiness?
Once someone told me, every emotion will fade off when you're dead. So what if a human no longer have any emotion? They are call living dead?
I am blind. I ignored every signs that you made. I took them for granted.
Today is a bad day. Walking on the streets alone, I see myself being too dependent on others. I... Don't know what is right and what is wrong. I am weakling.
Screammmm! Yep yep. I can't control my emotions.
Stupid me.

I am closing my eyes.

No title

Holiday will end in one week time. And it is schooling again when everyone else is having holiday. booo! But I can't wait for school reopen, even though I hate schooling. By then, I will be able to get daily allowance. Yes! Money money. I love money and I need them badly. Who doesn't? Sigh. My boss really dislike me. I am such a blur queen. =/ Messed up my job schedule and my cca performance day. There goes my job. Cca is making me crazy. I don't enjoy going to school. I don't enjoy playing the same old song again and again. I don't enjoy going there and get 'suan' by other people. I don't enjoy no time for shopping. I am anti-social. Introvert. Living in my own world. Yes yes. I guess Alvin is feeling unlucky to have a gf like me. Sigh. Booo! Stupid linn.
Joc didn't get the same IS duration 2 as us, she got into jap class. Stupid Npal system. Keep on giving error, making the webby lag. Was thinking that I can change my bis etiquette to jap but then that's my duration 1 module. And she got jap for duration 2. =/ Think she can appeal?

I want brown jeans.
I want new sandals.
I want lot of tops.
I want money.

Bad girlfriend.

+Love+

Love in its purest form is the sweetest.
When it experiences the bitterness of rejection it retreats into its cave,afraid to venture out in search of adventure again.
When love dies out, it loses its ambience.
The burning flames that fuels one passion comes from within one's determination to overcome tribulations, and the selflessness to love and be love again.
In the face of adversities the true love will not succumb nor crumble.
To fulfill its purpose, love needs compromise.
Yet the harsh reality of love is ironically a two face deception filled with exhilaration and emptiness at two ends.

Are we?

stupid noochy!

Welll! I am really a fool!
Someone scam my money in ms. FCUK! Damn that person.
I feel so stupid! Arghs. My 700k mesos. Fcuk! Well done noochy. Poor noochy in real life and as well as ms. hahahhaha!
yaya. FOOL! Nobody is going to help me. Feel so useless. Sigh. Feel so POOR. I want that kitty so badly. kitty.. kitty.. And he only knows how to say? HA! Guess I have a good taste in choosing people. I don't know. Feel so sad. Feel so stupid. Sigh. No point of crying like a baby. My eyes are swollen. Sigh. Forgot about it. Forget about everything. I should find myself a job and support myself. Nobody is going to support me. Not going to rely on anyone. Well.. I am going to be independent. ya. That's noochy. Lone-ranger noochy.

/find xdarkstarx

oh noochy!

Gosh.. Days passed so fast. His birthday is over! hoorayy? LOL =X just kidding. I wanna save more money! GG5 top, please wait for me. I wanna buy tops, a brown jeans and sandals. Money!
Work for one day. Guess the boss doesn't like girls? boooo! When is he going to pay me? LOL I feel so poor and unwanted. Feeling quite depressed for the past few weeks? Yaa. Having depression? Maybe. haha!

Love me.
Care me.
Want me.
money me.
=X

dead, noochy!

AP

Attitude problem! Alert. Alert.
Got back my internal theory paper. BOOOO! Such a disappointment. Just pass. I want to get distintion. =((((( I want to work hard. VERY hard.
Arghs. Money stress. Sigh.
Went to bugis after theory lesson. Gosh. I almost faint when I look at the wallets. Pc wallets, cost around 71bucks. Ohh myy! Money money! Are they going to fall from the sky? Please drop some money for my sake. =X After doing my calculation, I got no such money to buy the wallet. Add up my allowance, I only got 50bucks. Sooobbb! Feel like buying bag for him. His bag look quite old. Bag.. Where to find cheap and good bag? Top shop bag expensive? LOL. I think I might rob the bank. I need money! I want to buy good present. =((((((((( Daddy.. Where is my sugar daddy? Sigh.

I need money. =(

+The result+

EEEKKKK!
I got back such a bad result. Sigh. What's going on? Need to study more. =(
Well.. i really need a job! BOOO! No money equals to no shopping. SIGH.
Practices seem to be boring for me now. Don't feel like going back to school. BORING!
I feel bored. =/

+The idea+

Hooray!
IT's getting nearer each day. LOL.
Some how when the day come, I scare I will make a mess out of it.
God please bless me. Let me create a wonderful day for him. =)
He's going to tutor my bro for sub science. LOL. Today will be his first day. hahaha! Hope everything goes well for him.
Prepare prepare! WEEeeeee!
Watched corpse bride. Funny show. hahaha! Enjoyed myself today. =)

+Love is a powerful word+

HA!

I am backkk!
Back from chalet. Back from pub. Back from everything. =X
Enjoyed myself for the past few days. Wooohooo!
Love hanging out with my friends. Especially when you don't have to spend any money when going out with them. =X Guess I am cheapo. whahaha.
But I just love it.
Simply because I have no money. Yaa.
F> sugar daddy, who can sponsor me everything. LOL
Money is so important. Sigh.
If only.. I can have a rich parents. Then.. I will go out everyday. Have fun with my friends. BOOO!
But I am not.
Am I calculative? I had no idea.
Hmm.. Asked him whether he could tutor my bro for combined science. He asked me how much my mum going to pay him. hahaha! Calculative huh? Maybe I think too much? huh? I thought he is willing to teach for free? Your girlfriend's bro. Am I cheapo? Is this call cheapo? LOL I don't know.
Apparently my network seems to have difficulties reaching his network.
hahhaaha! I am thinking too much.
BOOO!

I am cheapo.

Sigh.
I don't know. It was confusing. Silence.
What's more for us to say? Nothing?
Maybe it's true.
I feel alone.
Maybe there is something wrong with me. Ya. maybe?
I need to get away. Far far away.
Sighhh.
Maybe should stop mapling awhile.
I should sort out my thinking.
Sighh.

+Yeah+

WEEEE!
It's our 3rd month anniversary! YES!
Didn't prepare gift for him as I am lacking of ideas. Was preparing for him birthday? Yup yup on budget. His birthday is coming.. Hope to give him a BIG surprise. XD
I received flower from alvin. =))))))
Went to Esplanade again? hahaha. Long time even since we last went there. Nice scenery and air was cooling. It was a fantastic night especially with flower. haha =X
Love him always. Thanks for the flower.

+camp over+

WEEEEEEE!
It's over! The camp is finally over. =X I am so excited about it. I am back home playing maple again. hohohoho. The slacking season is here again. Now I need a job. To buy clothes and doll myself up. LOL. Long time ever since I wear nice nice le. whahaha. Finally no longer need to eat scramble eggs with extra ingredient for breakfast. BOOO! yucks.
I am damn tired yesterday. Run here and there, prepare for bbq. The raw foods should have taken out of the fridge at least 1 hour before. But think nobody take note of it. Was very busy, got to de-frozen those raw foods. Then got to make sure everyone eat something. Lets not talk about it. It's over.
Was feeling kind of unwell this few day. Emotional.
Sorry for scolding U. =(

+Us+

When to holland village with Alvin today. Explored there. Lots of shop houses. There is a bead shop. When in and have a look. Spent most of our time there. Bought some beads. Feel quite bad as I think Alvin is bored. =/
I was joking about the flower(s).

Break the silence.

Sorry.

+Gogogo+

HOOOOoraaaaayyy!
Exams were over! i am already enjoying myself. LOL. Went for movie just now. And it was damn nice! The longest yard. Nice movie. =) Funny guy. Went shopping the whole afternoon with cheng ju just get a present for yc. BOOO! Keep on walk and walk. From heeren to far east. in the end just buy him a cap. hahaha. So silly. =X Then we talk about going taiwan. hahaha. he says he can help me pay for everything if I wanna go taiwan. Because taiwan is his home town. So bloodly good. Make me even more tempting to go. haha. See how things go bah. Friendsss..
Yaa. Think Alvin is unhappy. Sorry. Did I say sometime wrong? =/

Dead

Aiks.
I can't memorise a single things. Don't understand what's it all about.
Helpss.
Hope tomorrow paper is not going to be a tough one.
Don't let me stone.

Sickening

Nothing to hide about. BOOO!
Get a scolding from my parents.
This is nothing to me.
=)

Linn()

Just wake up from the afternoon nap. Went to school for DB paper early in the morning. I am the earliest of all. Muahahaha. Finally make it on time. I am so tired today that I don't feel like waking up. Aiks. DB paper was okay. Except that the ER-diagram is tough and last question is a bit tricky. Was feeling unwell during the paper, luckily got a nice invigilator sponsor me tissue. Haha. After that paper, we went to find our OOP teacher. I am disappointed again. Sigh. Got back my assignment result. And it wasn't good at all. I was thinking if I get a B, at least a B then tomorrow paper if I got a D, at least I will still got a C grade for average. Soobbbbb! Tomorrow is going to be a tough day for me. And I am not feeling well. Feel like I am going to have sore throat. Maybe I am hoping that I will be sick? haha.
From young I have been worrying what future I will be having.
When I am in primary school, I worry about PSLE. Worry about what secondary school I will be going to.
When I get into a secondary school, I worrying about what class I will be going into, what friends I will be meeting, how will my class be like.
During O level, I worry about whether I can get into Poly or not. Wondering if I could really make it into poly. I aimed to get into accountancy course. But end up I got into IT. My hope clashed.
Then I start to worry about my future again. What can I be in the future in order to use what I learnt in the IT? The answer is still unknown.
Here again, I am worrying about tomorrow exams and the future exams. How will it be like?
For the past 18 years i have been worrying about this and that. When will this worrying be stopped?
Feel the stress of future unsecure.
Aiks.
Hate the feeling of worrying.

Worrying about tomorrow OOP paper.

Wonders..

Ponders.. Wonders..
What will the questions be like for database tomorrow? Will it be easy or will it be tough? Will it be tricky or will it be simple? Will I pass or fail? Questions! Flowing in my mind. Just now went back to school to study with Steve, weiwah, yeesheng, zhi wei and guang lin. haha! Guang lin is so funny today. Is he too stress over exams that he was joking every minute? That's a bit scary. hahaha! But I found myself laughing at his silly jokes. =) That's friendship. Enjoy this type of cheerfulness. WEEEEeee! Friends forever.
Wanted to wait for u so that we could go home together? But then, u say u're going home. Heart sink. Going home with your friends? Yaa. And you say u miss me a lot, never see each other for past few days? Hmmm.. You could have volunteer to fetch me home. But you didn't. I also didn't say anything else. Heart sink again when you sound kind of frustrated because you can't click on the coupon I gave you? Well.. I was silent the very minute. I don't intend to talk anymore. So I just sigh. Yaa. Sigh. Wonders a lot.. Maybe I am too sensitive..

Good luck everyone. Including me. =)

Examssss

Ahhh! Exams are getting nearer and I still haven't study finished a single module. BOOO! Can't concentrate. Too many distractions. Tend to walk around my house. Play piano. Use laptop, play maple. AHH. Kelvin says mix around with friends who are studying. Hmm.. who? hahaha. I will end up talking with them? No idea. Sigh. DEAD. Dead. dead. Alvin is studying in school with his classmates. And I am slacking at home. EEEKKK! Kelvin....... Help me. Give me half of ur brain will do. =(

Days are getting near.