Poets often use many words to say a simple thing
But it takes thought and time and rhyme to make a poet sings

With music and words,
I will be playing
For you I have written a song

To be sure that you'll know what
I'm saying
I'll translate as I go along

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars

In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing forever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words Pplease me true
In other words
I love you

The breeze of the night is cooling.
The feeling of sitting and slack is nice.
The holding make me feel confused.
I... Don't know what to do.
I can't make up my mind.
I am not ready for relationship.
I just want to rest. Stay happy and have fun.
Why can't it be simple?
I don't like complicated thing.
I never understand it.
Sigh.
I don't understand the meaning of like and love.
What exactly is it?
How I wish I am still a child.
Playground is the only way to make a child happy.
Ice cream doesn't make me happy anymore.
Am I growing up?
Sigh.
How can I love when I am confused.

Love, a complicated word.

V day

I went to school late! I am late by 1hour. It's a new record for me.
Then went to play CS with park they all. Have fun there. =) Thanks for the sun flower guys!
Went out with alvin. He bought me 3 pink roses. What does that mean? Happy to see flowers! =)
We have curry at bugis. Yum yum. Nice.
He said I shouldn't buy him expensive things anymore. But the wallet is really not expensive at all. Sigh. Buy him this, buy him that he doesn't appreciate. Whatever. bitcoenartebh.
I am tired.
I really feel sick of this kind of comment.
Good night.
Happy valentine's day.
Tomorrow will be better.
=)

The PM test today is difficult.
Linn is killed.
Comparision kills.
Died.
Depression.
Moody.
Sigh.

Roses

Have been folding roses since yesterday. It's tough.
Roses that are..
Red: means love, respect.
Light pink: Admiration, sympathy.
Deep pink: Gratitude, appreciation.
Single rose: Simplicity.
3 Red roses: I love you.
Etc..
Roses are often purchase for occassion e.g. valentine day.
Restuarants are often fully booked and rosed are selling at the price of $10 for 1 stalk.
What is so important about valentine's day that people are making a big deal out of it?
Valentine day is a day that lovers celebrate their love. Valentine's day can also be the day to confess the love for someone.
People are often excited about the day as they will anxious to find out who will present them with gifts and what is the gift. But it's not the gift alone that counts. It's the thought that went behind it, the time and effort made.
So what have u plan for your love one?
__________________________________________________________________
Alot of things can't be say.
Is it a long term or a short term?
Silly. Not me.
I think too much.
Tomorrow is a killer day! ROAR.
3 papers in a day. DIE. How am I going to cope with studies? =/

Regret are alway related with what ifs.

La-la-la

Zoo

The zoo trip we went today was fun! I'm quite excited about it. But the rain spoiled everything. Raining photo taking.
Animals hiding in their shether. Discover a lot of things about animals. I like raccoon and graffie. whahahahaha!
My brother got back his result. Better than mine. What a clever brother I have? Confident and smart? =.= i thought he was bullshit-ing about how well he can score but now, I got to admit that he's smart IF he works hard. Told alvin about it. Think he was happy too, didn't disappointed him after all his teaching. =) Thank you.
Was feeling quite moody. Somehow I don't feel like talking. Because of the weather? Must be. Certain thing I don't know how I should react.
Laugh? Smile?
Cry? Tears?
Stone? Blur?
Too many thing to think about. =/

Unwell.

Copycat house! messy messy. LOL! I become a cat too. meow~

I wish I wasn't

I'm home alone again.
And you're out, hanging with your friends.
So you say, but I know it's not quite that way.
It's getting pretty late and you haven't checked on me all day.
When i called, you didn't answer.
Now I'm feeling like you're ignoring me.

I wish that you were home.
Holding me, tight in your arms.
And I wish, I could go back
To the day before we met and skip my regret.

I wish I wasn't in love you.
So you couldn't hurt me.
It just ain't fair the way you treat me.
No, you don't deserve me.
Wasted my time thinking about you and you ain't never gone change.
I wish I wasn't in love with you.
So I wouldn't feel this way.
_________________________________________________
Keep on listening to this song.
It's a nice song.
Bright cheery day.
But I am down with flu.
BOo!
Theory is getting more and more tough.
I am confused with the the rules and position of notes.
I will spare a thought for you from now on.
No matter how disappointed it will be.
Yaa.
Life should be enjoyable.
Life can be easy yet seem difficult.
Life can be valuable but difficult to cherish.
Life can be bright!
lalala~

I. Miss. You.
=)

+Minds Game+

Minds game huh?
I am not a good guesser.
I am too lazy to guess.
Promises were made and forgotten.
Time passed fast, soon everyone will forget what really happened.
Let time proves everything..
My mum woke me up early in the morning.
Shouting and nagging at me.
I repelled.
I told her I am going to quit.
I hurt her.
And now she's not talking to me.
I just feel like slacking at times.
Just feel someone will be here to advise me, telling me why I shouldn't do this and that.
I looked around.
I am the only in my room.
Bed is my only comfort.
I just feel like sleep and sleep.
Run away.
I want to explore the world.
I want to see how people survive in different surrounding.
I want to learn how to speak up.
I want to learn how to be strong.
I just want..

I am just too weak.

+Sweetie+

Return home late as usual.
Talked to alvin on the phone. Was quite happy at first. Until he mentions that he's going for his class chalet. Then I was waiting for him to invite me? But he didn't. So.. I think about it again. Does he really need me? Why am I always feeling jealous? Why am I always feeling hurt? Maybe we both need to think. Really think hard. I can't even communicate well with him, how is he going to communicate with me. But when he really need me to be there, I will be there for him. =)
I am sorry to let you down, I love you anyway.
Life is full of ups and downs.
But it can be memorable at times.
That's why we need to learn to cherish things.
As usual, I am late again.
Mao is offline! ROAR.
Where you want to eat tomorrow?!
NUUUUuuuuuu!~

I am need hugging.
Can someone hug me please?

I..
Feel stress too.
Not only you feeling it this way.
Love is not suppose to be stressful nor pressurize.
I don't feel like doing anything.
Just too tired to carry on.
I can't even think for myself, let alone think for you.
I am too childish, stupid and clumsy.
We're two worlds apart.
Deeply..
Hurtful..
Meaningless..
I am sorry..

Lets stop..

+New Year+

Hello!
Happy New Year!
I am not satisfied with my hong bao. =X
So little. Getting lesser and lesser each day.
Went out with alvin today. Didn't go to river hong bao in the end. We went to visit larry's house. And his mum gave us $10 each! And gave his gf $40! So good. LOL. I think my relatives are all stingy people? =X Anyway, it's just a meaning of new year.
I drank alcohol. Wooo! I am not drunk! Never will be. =X haha.
I feel I let copycat down?
Feel so bad of disturbing him when he's gambling.
Alway online late. And he offline. Sorry cat.
I called out of no where. Alway like this. =X
Am I too strict to people?
Am I irritating when I am asking question?
=/
I am dense?
That is why I wanted to know more?
Guess so.

Smile more! =)

+Sweet+

Some of the best things in life are for free.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

The you in the past will do this. But what about the present?
Thoughts.

Anything but ordinary.

+Reunion+

Eaten my reunion dinner with my family members. =)
Feel so good!
Well.. Affairs of the heart....
Let nature take its course. =)
Why make myself upset when I can enjoy?
Give some thought to it.
I can be more happy!
Cheers to everyone.
Smiles.
Memories is alway memorable.
Life shouldn't get hold back by memories.
Else there will be no improvenment at all.
So great year to everyone!
Hugg.

Merry new year! =)

Feel good after having dinner together. Weee! Love my classmates. =)
Cheers~
Bought a skirt at collage today. In the end, I made mel they all wait for so long.
Sorry bro. =/ hugg.
Seriously, I don't know what to do. My heart belong no where. I just want to be loved. I feel so tired of crying in one corner. I feel so lonely at time. I feel so insecure. I don't like the way u answered my questions. I don't like the silence in the phone. Attachment is coming. There won't be any more time left for me. Your reaction is making me mad at times. I just want to run away. Just like how you did to me. I just need somebody to be there for me.
Somebody.
Tell me that you need me and I will be there.
Maybe I am a bad girlfriend afterall.
I just don't want to get involve in any relationship.
Don't hurt me.
I will cry.
I don't understand at all.

Emotionally unstable.

+Hearts+

Complicated heart.
Feeling will change.
It may be just a jolly moment.
It's a mistake.
Don't make me fall for you.
I am indecisive.
I want to hurt no one.
Even though I need someone to be there.
I am continue to be strong.
Continue to be independent.
Continue to walk on.
Continue to pretend.
Just let me be.

I am crazy.

Ton

Ton at my friend house yesterday to do a BIG project. Sleep for 1 or maybe 2 hours? Do the documentation at around 5 or 6am. LOL. so fun doing project together. We joked and slacked. In the end we rushed. Staying over is fun. But more girls next time please? =X I feel insecure. LOL.
But they showered me with care. hahahaha Love u guys. Even though I didn't contribute much. =/ Hugg. Copycat was so hyber yesterday. Everyone was dead. And he still down there talking talking, jumping around. LOL. Act cute. whahahaha! Behaving like a kitten. haha.
Skipped PM lesson today. Was vey tired. Sorry copycat, can't go home with ya. Anyway u got kian min. LOL! Or u wanted to go home with someone else? erhem. =X
Slept for quite long. End up never go out instead. =/ When i woke up, the first thing i did was to look at my handphone. I thought there will be miss call or sms. But there aren't his. =/ I didn't know what to do. Ps me the second time. Sigh. But anyway there will alway be a next time to go out. Tomorrow will be better.

Hopefully.

+hello+

Hello to my new friend who is viewing my blog now.
=.=
Accompany this lonely Copycat home.
Feel as if i am escorting a child home. =XX
What am I thinking huh?
Took 151 from np all the way to hougang interchange. Dots.
I must be insane. Oh noo.. Must be too tired to make sense.
LOL.
Anyway he showed me around hougang. Shop houses. And I discovered something. There is an auto door at the hougang shopping mall! haha. At such place, to think that there is auto door.
I ate tako! Octopus balls. I dropped one. And that silly person took it with his hand. PIG. =X So silly.
Took nel mrt home. And a stalker stalk me into the mrt! =X
So silly yet cute. bth. Never see such a guy before. hahahaha! indeed is COPYcat.
Still feeling quite exhausted. Feeling very heaty.
Feeling sick.

Praise the lord.

Ponders

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolth of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could meant
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

How long are u going to run?

+Rainy day+

The rain continues for days.
Why is it so? Winter?
It's a good weather to sleep and slack.
I am beginning to go back to my bad habit. Sleeping in class! F5.
i just feel so bored. =/
Feel so tired after school tis few day.
As if I had not been resting for days.
Or is this growing old symptom?
=X
Is this what happened to park?
LOL.
I miss feiry.
I want outing. =)
Ya.
Did something extremely stupid today.
I broke 3 violin's fine tuner by sitting on it.
This show how heavy and stupid I am.
=X
Thanks to me, this is the BIG new in club house today.



It's amazing, isn't it? 4 fine tuners, now left 1.

I get down on my knee and pray.

Loneliness

I am still not use to the feeling of staying at home.
Used to go out with you.
Even through, we didn't talk that much when we meet, I still love the feeling of be out there with you.
But now, I got to stay at home. Nowhere to go.
Sigh.
Where are you? TT
Why didn't you msg me at all?
Sad.
For the whole day, I have been mapling and going to piano class.
There is nothing much for me to do.
You have been treating me cold.
Much colder than I expected.
So different from the past Alvin.
Very different.
What's going on?
Am I still dreaming?
Somebody tell me, please.
TT
Love, me.

I pray.

Thoughts

I want dress!
Ohh myyy.. I want the pink dress. I look nice! *wink
LOL! It's cheap too. Only about 45bucks! Buy for me, someone?
Have been feeling low since yesterday. It means alot?
It's your attitude. Give me an answer. Please. It's hurtful.
Tell me the truth. Will you?
If you want to hurt me, just hurt me once and for all. Or cherish me.
Think about it. =)
Thank you. =)

Time limits : 20th Floor.

I, tear.

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
Its such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I've got to choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let u go, I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go?

If I let you go.

+Bad day+

Tico alert.
PUI!
An uncle riding bicycle approached me twice. Arghs. *stare Ask me whether I want extra service. I was...... feel like giving him a punch. Get a life! I got no phone with me. If he approaches me another time, I will make sure I call the police. Give you a hard time. =/
Guys.. This is what the world look like?
Got to deliver the cheque to funan. And went I reached funan, it was dizzling, not so bad.
When I came out of funan, I was raining heavily. Oh man. I waited and waited for the rain to go away. But the rain just getting bigger and bigger. Then finally when it's getting smaller a bit, I ran to the bus stop. Ran and ran. Reached the bus stop drenched. =/ Poor me. But soon, my bus arrived! yeah. Everyone in the bus was like looking at me. I just bath. LOL. A kind lady even offer me a packet of tissue. So nice of her. =))) Luckily, there is a warm side of the world. People in the bus will kind. Some offered seats to elderly people. This is a good sign. I feel so warm. =D
Today is 31th of dec 2005. Tomorrow will be a new year, 2006. So what is my resolution? Haven't think of one. I want to be happy and strong. I hope you will be happy too. =)

Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
Must be strong
And we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you

Must be brave
And we must be strong
Cannot say what we've know all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memoris
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you when you are gone

How can I? :'(

I'd rather

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
You said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

An then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine.

I'd rather have bad times with you
than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm
than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

Who holds my heart.
Will you?

Christmas

It's over! Christmas is over.
Same for us?
My mind is in a haze.
I can't focus well.
I am simply lazy to think anymore.
U're right.
It takes more.
Frankly speaking, I have to admit that I never think of the future. But i know that relationship is not all days honeymoon. It takes alot of commitment. And I ignored your signal. I just care too much for myself. I am.. Selfish. I shouldn't hold you back when you can find someone even better than me and more committing than me. But.. I was really hoping that I can change for the better, change everything. Without thinking how to? How to.. Change? I am at the loss of words now. Is my feeling fighting against my own thinking now? I guess I am a feeler more than a thinker. Yaa.
I am not that hurt as last time. I just don't feel like crying anymore. It's tired to cry. Guess I am learning it well? I just feel so tired. Feel so dead. I am back to the don't know what to do stage. And i need someone there to guide me. =S
Sigh. Don't throw away the box. =X I will miss it.
What should I do now?
I got no emotion and innovation to draw.

Why am I moving forward when I know it's going to be a dead end?

Sighhhh.
Why have things turn out to be like this? :'(
Why when things get worst then we start to talk it out? Why must human being always wait till the last minute then they start to realize that actually they cherish each other a lot?
Why?
What is the root problem? What is/are the root cause(s)?
I don't know.
We get into relationship without knowing where it will lead us to. No one really know how a relationship will end up. And we are the one to decide it. To end it or continue. A strong relationship takes a lot of hard work. Commitment, compromise, care, share and time. It takes time to love someone as well as to be loved. Some time we love someone without getting anything in return. Love means living to make the other happy, not using each other for gain or satifaction, but giving without counting the cost, sometimes at great sacrifice.
In conclusion, it actually takes a lot to love someone, a lot of courage.
So why not make it better?
Scream.
No more i don't know this words.
Hearts may change.
Will you?
I promise for the better.

I heart feiry.

Bells..

Jiggle bells.. Jiggle bells.. Jiggle all the way~
Christmas is coming! WEee! Will i get MORE christmas present this year? Better not to think so much, or else I will make myself disappointed again.
=)
I haven't find anything to give him. howwwww? Days are getting nearer! *panick
Bag? Wallet? Sneakers? What to buy?
*ponders
Just gotten my attachment result. And I got the job. But.. I don't know how to go. LOL. This is another worry. Hopefully everything go well. Yeah yeah!
Just finished 1 project, which is SA. LOL. Learn alot. Bird flu and a lot of useful information. =) Great job guys.

I love my peers.
Hug.

esufnoc

After a long yesterday, finally I had my interview as well as role play done!
Hooray!
Went out with park, shufen and melvin. Had a great day with them. Melvin, you're a good entertainer. haha. It's a compliment. =)
Actually, I am feeling VERY sad. YA. Sometime, it really kills me. It's all about compromising. At times I feel I didn't treat him well enough. And at times I feel I am not being pamper enough. At times I feel... I am not clever enough. Most of the time, I feel Lost. Sigh.
It's five months. Time passes. And what I am feeling now is.. I really feel like giving up. I just don't know what else can I do? Maybe I didn't try at all? Maybe I didn't give enough. Maybe I am not good for him. Maybe I am.. Dumb. Am I really so useless?
Just like what u say? Tell you u may not know what exactly is. If never tell you, you will never know. So might as well don't say? This hurts. Ya. I hate that sentence A LOT.
Scream! I am so dumb and stupid.
Ya.
comparison kills.

How I wish so.
For U. For us. Forever. Ü

+Projjecctt+

Project! Project! PROJECTS!
Sigh.
I miss the old sweet days.
When can i meet u? My heart is missing u. Yep. =)
Lets meet often? LOL.
But I doubt that. This semester too many project to do. Kind of stress about projectS.
And next semester I will be having intern. Intern is just another name for project? Because intern is a more better term? haha. And by that time, I will be doing project for about 6months? Ohh myy. I wonder can i cope?
YES!
I need to work on project again.
I just need to..

Pissed off!
what the hell is that?
I feel so stress.
Projects meeting clashed.
So what am I suppose to say?
huh?
I never like project. Especially when people has different time table. So what can I do?
I really begin to hate school.
I want to run away from everything. Sigh.
And u can happily go to zouk and enjoy ur wonderful evening. Happy clubbing!
Dammit.
I feel so unwell.
Cold, flu, cough and tired.
I need to get some sleep.

Scream. Lost. Miserable.

LaTiDo

Disappointment.
If I am the judge, u're going to fail the test.
Dating etiquette is indeed different from what really happened in reality.
So how to judge a guy?
I, myself is not even sure of the answer.
What makes a girl unhappy?
Reason: A lots?
I am thinking too much again.
unhappy tears.

Hairy Potter, k6

Full house

Ohh myyy.. I love full house alot! So touching. Sigh. Can't stop watching. So funny and nice. Pretty girls and charming guys inside too. =X
Something is wrong with my hair. It looks weird. =/ My friend said my hair is ugly. BOO! Bad hair day. None of us satisfy with our hair. First time see her cry in public. We don't know what to do. Cheer up F1, smile! Ur hair really look alright, I like ur fringe. My fringe is short! I want longer fringe. VIP coupon please.
Lots of project coming up. Sigh. No more slacking days. ;(

She is expecting more.

Nov 2000 (paper1)

Question 5a

Sarah thrusted a green flag in her hand. "Go!" The crowd shouted loudly. My fingers slid on the slick white enamel of the Cherelle's steering wheel. All I needed was to concentrate on the drive and win the street racing by driving up the middle of the S-shaped curve.

I glanced at the side mirror, the nissan was only inches behind. I stepped on the accelerator and sped at least one meter in front of the nissan. The highway was the most dangerous roas for racing. I decided to take up this challenge because I needed the money so badly to buy a new car instead of sticking with my old Chevelle car.

Within five minutes, the Nissan inched in front of my car. I sped up and was driving side by side with the Nissan. When I reached the next turn, fear started to grip me as my car swung crazily into the next turn, an S-shaped curve. I jerked the wheel hard, straightening the car out. To my terror, speeding on the S-shaped curve was not as easy as I thought. I pumped the brakes as I hit the middle of the S-curve. However the Nissan was out of control. The Nissan lurched to the right and smashed hard into my car. I uttered a startled cry as the Nissan bumped hard against the passenger side of my car. Then the door flew open and I was flung out of the car due to the impact. I hit hard onto the parement, pain burned through my entire body. Then I heard shattering glass and the groan of bending metal. I blinked my eyes until I could focus. I peered down the road. I saw the Nissan roll over completely, landing back on its tires. The driver was completely stuck inside and his body was covered with deep cuts by the shattering glass. "Help! Help!" The driver was screaming weakly. The Nissan rocked for a moment. Then it exploded. I felt a blast of hot air as the cas exploded. Thick smoke filled the air and choked my throat. I pulled myself to my knees, struggling to breath and see. By then, the Nissan was already blazing away like a fireball.

Tears streamed down my face and I laughed until I choked. "I won! I won the race!" I laughed hysterically. Hobbling towards my car, I drove away silently. I was not going to admit the mess I created.

What goes around, comes around.

Disappointment.
I thought i could get my pay by today. But I couldn't. Dammit. Why is my boss always lie to me? What kind of boss is him?
=(((((((((((((
I want my pay! Arghs.
Boo!
Pui!
Pay me!

Don't know what to blog about.
Why didn't u tell me u're going back to school as well?
We could have go to school together. But u didn't.
Hmmm.. Where are the old happy times? Gone far far away. The longer the relation, the closer we should be? I feel so lifeless. Only when I am working, I feel the reality. =/ I think I am addicted to work. Sigh. Maple no longer look fun to me. It's a boring game.
I... am.. Workaholic?
Love breeds worry, love breeds fear. Love breeds happiness but it also breeds sadness.

Pohspot

Woooohooo!
I am back! Back from work and school.
Awwww! I really enjoy working there. =( Got to meet a lot of people. Enjoy the freedom of working there. Plus when I am on quite 'good' relation with them, i can't work. =/ Just like what jocyceline said? Life is unfair? Yaa. My boss said the banking is in process. So when is my pay going to reach me? I waited for so long. Booo! I want my pay! I wanna buy clothes from topshop, zara, brown jeans, bags and slippers. I want alot of stuff! I just need to work and work and work to support my own expenses. Feel really POOR.
Hi everyone, my name is a****. *wave. LOL.
I guess I am a bit crazy today. No idea why. Suddenly the teacher make me so high. I miss my job! I wanna continue to work there. Sigh. I wanna work in T******. Is my wish going to come true? blink blink.

I feel great there.

Pepp pepp

From This Moment On

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything and everything and I will always care. Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse, I will love you
With every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
I can't wait to live my life with you, I can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

>>> From This Moment On =)

Kill me.

I could no longer smile. No longer think. No longer see.
Every emotion in me is dead.
Just like those trees in the lonely winter.
The street is deserted. Everyone is hiding in their warm cozy home. The cemetery is filled with bitterness snow.
Tears could no longer be felt. For they turned into ice.
I feel like a fool belonging to no where. Walking pass every tomb stone send a chill up my spine. I feel lonely. But those loneliness eventually add up, turning them into emptiness.
How is heaven like? A white place fills with smiling angels? Or is it a place fills with emptiness?
Once someone told me, every emotion will fade off when you're dead. So what if a human no longer have any emotion? They are call living dead?
I am blind. I ignored every signs that you made. I took them for granted.
Today is a bad day. Walking on the streets alone, I see myself being too dependent on others. I... Don't know what is right and what is wrong. I am weakling.
Screammmm! Yep yep. I can't control my emotions.
Stupid me.

I am closing my eyes.

No title

Holiday will end in one week time. And it is schooling again when everyone else is having holiday. booo! But I can't wait for school reopen, even though I hate schooling. By then, I will be able to get daily allowance. Yes! Money money. I love money and I need them badly. Who doesn't? Sigh. My boss really dislike me. I am such a blur queen. =/ Messed up my job schedule and my cca performance day. There goes my job. Cca is making me crazy. I don't enjoy going to school. I don't enjoy playing the same old song again and again. I don't enjoy going there and get 'suan' by other people. I don't enjoy no time for shopping. I am anti-social. Introvert. Living in my own world. Yes yes. I guess Alvin is feeling unlucky to have a gf like me. Sigh. Booo! Stupid linn.
Joc didn't get the same IS duration 2 as us, she got into jap class. Stupid Npal system. Keep on giving error, making the webby lag. Was thinking that I can change my bis etiquette to jap but then that's my duration 1 module. And she got jap for duration 2. =/ Think she can appeal?

I want brown jeans.
I want new sandals.
I want lot of tops.
I want money.

Bad girlfriend.

+Love+

Love in its purest form is the sweetest.
When it experiences the bitterness of rejection it retreats into its cave,afraid to venture out in search of adventure again.
When love dies out, it loses its ambience.
The burning flames that fuels one passion comes from within one's determination to overcome tribulations, and the selflessness to love and be love again.
In the face of adversities the true love will not succumb nor crumble.
To fulfill its purpose, love needs compromise.
Yet the harsh reality of love is ironically a two face deception filled with exhilaration and emptiness at two ends.

Are we?

stupid noochy!

Welll! I am really a fool!
Someone scam my money in ms. FCUK! Damn that person.
I feel so stupid! Arghs. My 700k mesos. Fcuk! Well done noochy. Poor noochy in real life and as well as ms. hahahhaha!
yaya. FOOL! Nobody is going to help me. Feel so useless. Sigh. Feel so POOR. I want that kitty so badly. kitty.. kitty.. And he only knows how to say? HA! Guess I have a good taste in choosing people. I don't know. Feel so sad. Feel so stupid. Sigh. No point of crying like a baby. My eyes are swollen. Sigh. Forgot about it. Forget about everything. I should find myself a job and support myself. Nobody is going to support me. Not going to rely on anyone. Well.. I am going to be independent. ya. That's noochy. Lone-ranger noochy.

/find xdarkstarx

oh noochy!

Gosh.. Days passed so fast. His birthday is over! hoorayy? LOL =X just kidding. I wanna save more money! GG5 top, please wait for me. I wanna buy tops, a brown jeans and sandals. Money!
Work for one day. Guess the boss doesn't like girls? boooo! When is he going to pay me? LOL I feel so poor and unwanted. Feeling quite depressed for the past few weeks? Yaa. Having depression? Maybe. haha!

Love me.
Care me.
Want me.
money me.
=X

dead, noochy!

AP

Attitude problem! Alert. Alert.
Got back my internal theory paper. BOOOO! Such a disappointment. Just pass. I want to get distintion. =((((( I want to work hard. VERY hard.
Arghs. Money stress. Sigh.
Went to bugis after theory lesson. Gosh. I almost faint when I look at the wallets. Pc wallets, cost around 71bucks. Ohh myy! Money money! Are they going to fall from the sky? Please drop some money for my sake. =X After doing my calculation, I got no such money to buy the wallet. Add up my allowance, I only got 50bucks. Sooobbb! Feel like buying bag for him. His bag look quite old. Bag.. Where to find cheap and good bag? Top shop bag expensive? LOL. I think I might rob the bank. I need money! I want to buy good present. =((((((((( Daddy.. Where is my sugar daddy? Sigh.

I need money. =(

+The result+

EEEKKKK!
I got back such a bad result. Sigh. What's going on? Need to study more. =(
Well.. i really need a job! BOOO! No money equals to no shopping. SIGH.
Practices seem to be boring for me now. Don't feel like going back to school. BORING!
I feel bored. =/

+The idea+

Hooray!
IT's getting nearer each day. LOL.
Some how when the day come, I scare I will make a mess out of it.
God please bless me. Let me create a wonderful day for him. =)
He's going to tutor my bro for sub science. LOL. Today will be his first day. hahaha! Hope everything goes well for him.
Prepare prepare! WEEeeeee!
Watched corpse bride. Funny show. hahaha! Enjoyed myself today. =)

+Love is a powerful word+

HA!

I am backkk!
Back from chalet. Back from pub. Back from everything. =X
Enjoyed myself for the past few days. Wooohooo!
Love hanging out with my friends. Especially when you don't have to spend any money when going out with them. =X Guess I am cheapo. whahaha.
But I just love it.
Simply because I have no money. Yaa.
F> sugar daddy, who can sponsor me everything. LOL
Money is so important. Sigh.
If only.. I can have a rich parents. Then.. I will go out everyday. Have fun with my friends. BOOO!
But I am not.
Am I calculative? I had no idea.
Hmm.. Asked him whether he could tutor my bro for combined science. He asked me how much my mum going to pay him. hahaha! Calculative huh? Maybe I think too much? huh? I thought he is willing to teach for free? Your girlfriend's bro. Am I cheapo? Is this call cheapo? LOL I don't know.
Apparently my network seems to have difficulties reaching his network.
hahhaaha! I am thinking too much.
BOOO!

I am cheapo.

Sigh.
I don't know. It was confusing. Silence.
What's more for us to say? Nothing?
Maybe it's true.
I feel alone.
Maybe there is something wrong with me. Ya. maybe?
I need to get away. Far far away.
Sighhh.
Maybe should stop mapling awhile.
I should sort out my thinking.
Sighh.

+Yeah+

WEEEE!
It's our 3rd month anniversary! YES!
Didn't prepare gift for him as I am lacking of ideas. Was preparing for him birthday? Yup yup on budget. His birthday is coming.. Hope to give him a BIG surprise. XD
I received flower from alvin. =))))))
Went to Esplanade again? hahaha. Long time even since we last went there. Nice scenery and air was cooling. It was a fantastic night especially with flower. haha =X
Love him always. Thanks for the flower.

+camp over+

WEEEEEEE!
It's over! The camp is finally over. =X I am so excited about it. I am back home playing maple again. hohohoho. The slacking season is here again. Now I need a job. To buy clothes and doll myself up. LOL. Long time ever since I wear nice nice le. whahaha. Finally no longer need to eat scramble eggs with extra ingredient for breakfast. BOOO! yucks.
I am damn tired yesterday. Run here and there, prepare for bbq. The raw foods should have taken out of the fridge at least 1 hour before. But think nobody take note of it. Was very busy, got to de-frozen those raw foods. Then got to make sure everyone eat something. Lets not talk about it. It's over.
Was feeling kind of unwell this few day. Emotional.
Sorry for scolding U. =(

+Us+

When to holland village with Alvin today. Explored there. Lots of shop houses. There is a bead shop. When in and have a look. Spent most of our time there. Bought some beads. Feel quite bad as I think Alvin is bored. =/
I was joking about the flower(s).

Break the silence.

Sorry.

+Gogogo+

HOOOOoraaaaayyy!
Exams were over! i am already enjoying myself. LOL. Went for movie just now. And it was damn nice! The longest yard. Nice movie. =) Funny guy. Went shopping the whole afternoon with cheng ju just get a present for yc. BOOO! Keep on walk and walk. From heeren to far east. in the end just buy him a cap. hahaha. So silly. =X Then we talk about going taiwan. hahaha. he says he can help me pay for everything if I wanna go taiwan. Because taiwan is his home town. So bloodly good. Make me even more tempting to go. haha. See how things go bah. Friendsss..
Yaa. Think Alvin is unhappy. Sorry. Did I say sometime wrong? =/

Dead

Aiks.
I can't memorise a single things. Don't understand what's it all about.
Helpss.
Hope tomorrow paper is not going to be a tough one.
Don't let me stone.

Sickening

Nothing to hide about. BOOO!
Get a scolding from my parents.
This is nothing to me.
=)

Linn()

Just wake up from the afternoon nap. Went to school for DB paper early in the morning. I am the earliest of all. Muahahaha. Finally make it on time. I am so tired today that I don't feel like waking up. Aiks. DB paper was okay. Except that the ER-diagram is tough and last question is a bit tricky. Was feeling unwell during the paper, luckily got a nice invigilator sponsor me tissue. Haha. After that paper, we went to find our OOP teacher. I am disappointed again. Sigh. Got back my assignment result. And it wasn't good at all. I was thinking if I get a B, at least a B then tomorrow paper if I got a D, at least I will still got a C grade for average. Soobbbbb! Tomorrow is going to be a tough day for me. And I am not feeling well. Feel like I am going to have sore throat. Maybe I am hoping that I will be sick? haha.
From young I have been worrying what future I will be having.
When I am in primary school, I worry about PSLE. Worry about what secondary school I will be going to.
When I get into a secondary school, I worrying about what class I will be going into, what friends I will be meeting, how will my class be like.
During O level, I worry about whether I can get into Poly or not. Wondering if I could really make it into poly. I aimed to get into accountancy course. But end up I got into IT. My hope clashed.
Then I start to worry about my future again. What can I be in the future in order to use what I learnt in the IT? The answer is still unknown.
Here again, I am worrying about tomorrow exams and the future exams. How will it be like?
For the past 18 years i have been worrying about this and that. When will this worrying be stopped?
Feel the stress of future unsecure.
Aiks.
Hate the feeling of worrying.

Worrying about tomorrow OOP paper.

Wonders..

Ponders.. Wonders..
What will the questions be like for database tomorrow? Will it be easy or will it be tough? Will it be tricky or will it be simple? Will I pass or fail? Questions! Flowing in my mind. Just now went back to school to study with Steve, weiwah, yeesheng, zhi wei and guang lin. haha! Guang lin is so funny today. Is he too stress over exams that he was joking every minute? That's a bit scary. hahaha! But I found myself laughing at his silly jokes. =) That's friendship. Enjoy this type of cheerfulness. WEEEEeee! Friends forever.
Wanted to wait for u so that we could go home together? But then, u say u're going home. Heart sink. Going home with your friends? Yaa. And you say u miss me a lot, never see each other for past few days? Hmmm.. You could have volunteer to fetch me home. But you didn't. I also didn't say anything else. Heart sink again when you sound kind of frustrated because you can't click on the coupon I gave you? Well.. I was silent the very minute. I don't intend to talk anymore. So I just sigh. Yaa. Sigh. Wonders a lot.. Maybe I am too sensitive..

Good luck everyone. Including me. =)

Examssss

Ahhh! Exams are getting nearer and I still haven't study finished a single module. BOOO! Can't concentrate. Too many distractions. Tend to walk around my house. Play piano. Use laptop, play maple. AHH. Kelvin says mix around with friends who are studying. Hmm.. who? hahaha. I will end up talking with them? No idea. Sigh. DEAD. Dead. dead. Alvin is studying in school with his classmates. And I am slacking at home. EEEKKK! Kelvin....... Help me. Give me half of ur brain will do. =(

Days are getting near.

No title

Not in the mood. Pms?
I don't know what am I thinking.
Feel so lonely.
Waste my day away again.
What am I suppose to do? To make u happy?
BOOO!
I feel so tired.
I am a pampered girl.
I am... feeling lonely.
Unsatisfied.
Sigh.

+Sha-la-la-la-la+

I am back!
Chalet was fun!
Enjoyed myself there. whahahaha! Went to Alvin's sister, Alina, 21th birthday chalet on Friday. I intend to met Alvin at bugis because I need to buy my theory papers at peace center. On the way there, I met pc! Ohh myy. I was wondering who is this girl. Then suddenly she turned her face, I was shocked. So coincidence. WEEE~ I miss pc! Miss a lot of classmates. Didn't talked much with her because both of us is not taking the same route. Can't meet up with her this weekend. So sad. Shall plan again. Reached the shop. This time, the shop is opened. hahaha! Finally, I got my 2003&2004 theory exam papers. AHHH~ So expensive. Two papers cost me 16.75bucks. Then I walked to Bugis. Then we bought a necklace for his sister from perlini. And then proceed to Pasir ris. Went to the NTUC over there to buy sakae. He wanna make his sister drunk? =X Met his parents in the bus. Ohh myy. His parents are quite friendly? Maybe because they thought I am their daughter friend? Yaa. Should be. His parents are strict with them. They want them to concentrate on their studies first. But they don't know that both of their children are already involving in a relationship. haha! Alina is a friendly girl and funny girl. Interesting person. Her boyfriend, Larry, was there too. Clicked quite well with Alina friends. We're joking about being Les while Alvin and Larry are gay. hahaha! So funny and gross. Alvin was calling Larry dear. EEEKKK! Disgusting. Have a great talk with Alina yesterday. Girls talk. haha! We'll talking about guys ego. Yup. Need to understand Alvin more. haha. =)
When the bbq was over, we drank volka Origin? The taste is so strong that when I drank the first slip, I was... Hate that taste. I am not supposed to drink it that way because the volka need to be mixed with soft drink. whahahaha! Stupid me. The volka contain 40% alcohol. Ohh noo. After that cup, I was abit dizzy. I knew I need to rest a while. Don't know is it because I am tired or abit drank? Rest a while. When I am feeling quite alright, we went to beach to play sparkles. Missed playing sparkles. Took quite a lot of pictures. Happy times always passes fast. Then.. Alvin piggy back me from the beach to the chalet. Raced with Larry. I was touched. Because he was sweating like hell when we reached the chalet. Even though I was shouting "Put me down" on the way back to chalet, but I didn't mean anything bad. Didn't want you to hurt urself. Reached home around 11am plus today. Sleep all the way till 7pm. Had a great night yesterday. =)

+Lovely memories+

+BOO+

Yes! The exact title for today. Feeling bad. Feeling tired. Feeling poor. YAAA! BOO! Went for the ushering thingy. Luckily Johnathan accompany me awhile during the ushering. It's damn boring. And we're feeling thirsty. There is no free water for ushers. =( sob. Saw melvin! *blink blink. haha. BOOO! Wanna act as if he's one of those award receivers. Knew he was there for the free foods too! Muahahaha. Finally, the prize giving ceremony starts, it's more interesting. hahaha! Got NRA! WEEEE! Love their dance. So hip hop and cute too. Then we got free foods to eat! whahaha! alot of variety. Yummy. I love free foods. Hmm.. I am so broke recently. It's damn broke. Got to buy piano theory papers, go out with pc, chalet and camp. EEEKKK! Hate it. I am poor. =( Sigh. Exams coming. Sighhh. Stress. Yucks!

+Our Day+

WOOOHOOO!~
Happy 2nd Anniversary!
We didn't went out to celebrate that day, because he got to teach juniors guitar. Was quite disappointed again. But after reading the letter he wrote to me, I was quite alright. haha. Stone in club house. Manage to find a laptop and played warcraft3. Quite enjoy the game. Weee! New game. hahaha. He accompany me home. Didn't talk much in bus. Guess because he feels guilty for not bringing me out? =) I am not unhappy. Just thinking why am I so easily disappointed. Are my expectation too high? Maybe. haha. Gave him his present. Hope he likes it. Quite messy with the card. The markers ran out of ink. It's the thoughts not the appearance. hahaha! At least it's some kind of hand make thing. Love hand make things *hint hint.
Yesterday went to east coast for cat's birthday bbq. Enjoyed myself alot! Ate alot of foods. WEEE! Free foods, I'm loving it. hahahaha! Most of all, I love alvin. whahaha! We met at bishan before going to east coast. And he bought me ring. whahaha! Propose? =X He doesn't know my size, that's why he wants me to meet him. =) Love him. Went to east coast happily. Melissa they all haven't reach yet. So we went to the break water there and sit. The scenery is so romantic. AWWW! He put on the ring for me. AAHHH~ I was feeling so loved at that moment. whahahaha! So sweet. Love him. XD

+Good game+

Damn.
I lost my star hair pin on the way to meet Alvin. Sigh. My favourite. Feel like crying when I discovered that my hair pin was gone. Damn stressed.
Baked cookies for so longgg. The longest of all. Damn. Spent too much time on those cookies. =(
I am so tired now. Haven't do my ECID project yet. And guess what? Tomorrow I am having a group meeting to combine our work for the project. Fcuk. Didn't even study for tomorrow NF test. I am damn tired. Think I got kidney problem. My left side of my back was hurting just now. So painful that I can't stand straight. I can't sleep late anymore. Damn exhausted. Fcuk. I should stop here.

+I miss you+

+Fireworks+

WEEEEEEE!
Went to marina south with Alvin and his friends to see fireworks. hahaha. I enjoyed myself! Beautiful fireworks! NICE! Too bad shufen can only hear the sound of fireworks from her house. hahahaha! Love that moment. Wanted to say something to him. But in the end, I don't have the courage. Sigh. Such a waste. I mean, sometime some words/actions are only mean to be say/do in romantic moment. Aiks. Nevermind. I will pluck up the courage for the next time. =) We stayed in marina south until 1am plus. Then took mrt home. I want to treat him more better from today onwards. Feel like I haven't been a good girlfriend. Yuck. His classmate said, "Alvin treats you very good." I was.. Ya. Come to think about it. Yes, he treats me extremely good. Yet I still so demanding. Should be. Yes. Goal for this month, treat you more better.
So many projects to rush for. Arghs. EBF, DB, OOP and ECID. Ohh nooooo!

+Love ya, love me+

+That Moment+

Hmmm.. Just reached home and talked to alvin on the phone. Quite upset. My eyes were filled with tears with he said "Maybe I am going to quit NPS too." I was.. Speechless. Yes. For that moment, I am going to cry. But I hold on to my tears. I asked, "then, we will have lesser time to meet." and he said, "Ya." I was... Sigh. Hmmm.. Don't know what is going on. Maybe he really busy until he wanted to quit NPS. Then he added on.. "Maybe only." Well, who knows? Look at micheal. Micheal is alway joking around, being friendly to other. But now, he's quitting NPS. What is going on? I feel so sian of our relationship. Started too fast. Now is kind of i don't know what to do. Sigh. I told marcus about this. And he says I think too much. But am I really thinking too much? Some how I can feel alvin is sian too. Have some talk with him today. Hmm.. Kind of alright. I still don't dare to ask him about the problem that is on my mind. Maybe some times later bah. I feel that if alvin really so busy, then.. then... Maybe we should do something about it. Hmm.. I am a strong girl. Yup. Shouldn't be too upset. But for now, I don't know what to do. Feel like talking to someone about my problem. But then.. I will end up crying. So.. Well.. Let it bury deep inside my heart. Yaa. =)
I am not good for you.
Maybe I am thinking too much.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Somehow, things don't taste the same.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Teach me. How to be strong.
Teach me. Just teach me.

+From that moment onwards+

+No mood+

Started my day quite alright but then PMS got hold of me. I'm feeling totally unhappy. Yaa. Unhappy. Cheer me up. But u didn't. U sound a bit unhappy just now. From that moment onward, I don't even feel like talking to anyone. I know I am slow and dumb. Don't have to talk to me in such a way. Everyone is feeling tired. Ya. We're both feeling tired. Not in the mood for whatever stuff. Arghs. Hate PMS. Cheer me up. Someone please cheer me up.
Unhappy. Upset.
This is not what I want.

+1 Month Anniversary+

HAHAHA =)
Happy 1 Month Anniversary!
Quite bad luck in the morning. I woke up EARLY so that I can have enough time to dress up nicely. But then, in the end I'm still late for class. hahaha. Keep on dropping things today. What happened to my hand?
Was going out to celebrate but then.. The weather make a joke on us. It was raining "mao mao yu". hahaha. I really thought is that the rain was not so heavy. But then when we came out from the class room. It was raining cats and dogs! Ohhh myy.. Me and my "mao mao yu". Was going to meet alvin in orchard. Guess he was there buying present. Last minute work.. I was trying not to get wet in the rain. Damn. It was pouring as if singapore lack of water. The damn worst thing is that, when shufen and I decided to take the 154 or 151 bus, I was rushing out of the bus stop in that rain, the bus driver closed the door. ARGHS! Then I got to rush out and in to the bus stop again. So stupid lah! Damn that driver. Maybe raining, his eyes sight not so good huh? Should be. Unfortunate things alway happened on raining day. Feel like going home for a bath before meeting alvin. Was drenched from rain. But then he was in orchard wondering around.. So I guess I should meet him. Yup. Was really feeling disappointed when we can't go to that secret place of his. AHhhh. Things didn't went smoothly as it should be. He was broke as his mum took 20bucks from him. Then plus he bought a present. He's poor. But then it was okay for me. The most important thing is that find a place and sit. So we decided to go city hall due to the large amount of people in orchard. Reached city hall, I suggested esplanade library. Quiet place to sit and sleep. haha. I sleep awhile. Too tired. Only slept for 5hours yesterday because I start making his card at 1am. Make until about 2am then went to bed. So I need to rest. Alot of things were on my mind. But then what make me quite angry was when I hear this from him. "Don't write me a too mushy testi, so that when I posted, my church mates will not suspect anything." I was... What's wrong to let your church mates know about our relation? DOTS. But then after awhile, I am okay le. haha. Bluffed him that I got no present for him. haha. Hope he'll wear that T-shirt. It was expensive for a 1 month anniversary present. hahaha.
Even though it was raining today, but it's the thoughts that really count and not where we are.
Thanks for the alvin2. hahaha.

+Arghs+

Not feeling good.
I don't know.
Just feel fucking pissed off.
I am petty.
Don't make me angry.
I will fight.
Damn.
I wonder why am I feeling this way.
I don't know.
Not in the mood.
Tests didn't turned out well.
That spoil my mood.
Wanted to treat u well.
But the way u showed, make me doubt.
Am I doing the right thing?
Maybe PMS.
Yaa. Should be.
I am broke.
No life.
Leave me alone.
That's the way I am.

Leave me alone.

+cookies!+

For the past whole week I have been going out non-stop. whahahaha! Plus sleep with my bed. *Winking at june. Therefore for this common tests week, I didn't do well. Guess I know my result. Something bad happened on last sunday and till now I still having the bad luck charm. ARGHS!~
Met Alvin on sunday at boon keng mrt. We walked to his usually boarding bus stop. Walk half way, my left leg slipper broke. I am so panick at that moment. Never meet before this kind of circumstance. Alvin offered to accompany me home. But I insisted on accompany him wait for his bus. Haha. In the end, got to hop back home. People look at me as if I am from other planet. Zzz. Never see human hopping home with a broken slipper? haha.
My broken slipper. =(

Yesterday is OOP test. WHAHAHAHA. Guess my tester is gone case. I really didn't know how to do the tester class. I did one array and then... the rest listAll method.. I got no idea how to do. whahaha. It's okay. That is the past. wooo.. Went to Alvin's house yesterday for study but end up watching windstruck. So touching.. One year ago, I watched this movie with pc and her bf, now I re-watched it with Alvin. So strangely yet so memorable. Hmmm.. Accompany him ate dinner at macdonalds. Reached home at around 8pm. Was so tired and sleepy. Online awhile and can't take it anymore. Went to bed early yesterday. =)
DataBase test today is... "Easy"? That's what Mr chee said to park, "The paper is easy right?" EHhh.. Do u think so? Appendix A was damn difficult? I can't remember any term. Or should I say I didn't read through? whahaha. Anyhow wrote. Was hoping if I can get some mark to give me a pass. Appendix B was about commands. Hmmm.. Last minute study, all I can remember is just inner join. Hope my Appendix B will get me a pass. But then come to think of it, last minute study never work right. sweat.
Was raining just now. Got home and wash my leg immediately, was rushing out from my kitchen to change my clothes. But who knows. Humpty dumty had a great fall. I slip and fall. Hurt my backside. Didn't know whether should i laugh at myself or cry. Was shunned at that meJust now talk to my mum about the selling cookies stuff, got to use her oven to bake them. And guess her reaction? whahahaha. She said she will help me look out for apples. Prefer me to give apples rather than sell cookies. She even say she will sponsor me those 5000 apples! SWEAT! I was shocked. Wow. U're rich huh? dots. Nothing better to do? Then she says, she will buy me cookies instead of baking them. ERRrr.. What was that suppose to mean? She said that I have no standard to sell those cookies. And who will buy? AHHHH! So bad! She's mean. What a not sporting mum I got. SOB!

Closer..

+Blah blah+

I am bored!
Can't study! Not in the mood to study. Die... I am so slack.. Everyday I will be going out. Oh myy.. I am going to fail my common tests. Sigh.
Not even a single module I have finish studying. Sigh. I need time to study! Whenever I reach home, I'll feel so tired. Wanted to study before I go to bed but alway end up sleeping with the book in my bed. What a slacker I am. Argh.
I need.
Time.
Time.
Time.

Dead.

+Restless+

+Breathless+

I am very tired today. Feel so lifeless. I am even more quiet after watching Initial D. I was wondering, what if one day you saw alvin and me hugging together, what will you do? Wonders. After watching Initial D I understand how you feel? Maybe I am selfish never thought of your feelings. Maybe you will be much more happier and feel much more better without me. I can't think anymore. I am just... So.. tired? I want to be alone. Away from everything. Running away.... To a far far place where nobody is. Yaaa.. I am okay after crying. So don't worry. Happy knowing you. =)

Nobody is right or wrong. It's the timing. Or maybe it's my fault. Maybe..

+It's hard to be strong+

+Hurts+

Bad bad day to begin with. Sigh.
Went to school early in the morning for violin evaluation. Still need to practice a lot. Intonation is total out, timing not constant, etc... Got to do a lot of practice. Feel like freshies. After the evaluation, thought of practicing piano as I never practice for the whole week. Put my violin on the chair while I am practicing piano. A freshies just finished her evaluation, came out of the room, excitedly? Knock onto my violin, my violin DROPPED to the floor. ARGH! That point of time I really damn concern about my violin. She just walk away? never even say sorry! Damn her! Bloodly bitch?! Scatches on my violin and she broke my shoulder rest! ARGHH! Still never say sorry. Why am I alway the unlucky one? Just spend 40bucks on my bow and now.. Need to save money to buy shoulder rest again. Bad luck!
Meet eddie after piano lesson. He... Grow more man? Ya. More well build. Quite smart in his macdonald outfit. Was shocked to see him dress so formal. Hmm.. Treat me quite well. Then... The moment arrive. He saw my holding hand picture I took with Alvin. Yup. Alvin and me. His friend was mumming something. I looked at Eddie. He just doesn't know whether should he smile or not. Then.. Attitude changed. I...... My fault? Maybe. Didn't want to make him more upset. After they went to arcade, I went home alone. Yaa. Alvin was playing lan game with his friends. Well.. That moment really quite hurting? I thought a lot of things. Feeling so down. Feel tears dropping. Wipe it away, pretending nothing happened. You just don't understand how am I feeling. U're damn sad. What about me? It's hurting. I was waiting and waiting.. And Alvin came into my life too fast. You didn't even know what happened between us. Alvin. Get close to him is because something happened to steve. We wanted to cheer up steve, bought a card together. Then went to esplanade library with steve. Yup. As simple as that. Things just happened too fast. Before I can clearly think. The feeling when I am with him and when I am with you is totally different. What am I talking about! Just like what you said craps. Maybe. It's not totally your fault. It's mine too. It just play a trick upon us. Just like how it did to million thousands of people. Fallen for the wrong party. Sigh. I don't know what to do. Tell me what should I do.

It hurts to see uupset. Kill me.

+Park+

ARGHhhh~
What a place to go to? Fort Canning Park. whahaha. He said which will be different. No long esplanade nor club house. Climbed so many stairs.. Reach the top, feeling breathless. Legs were wobble. And u know why we went there? To feed to hungry mosquitos. Dots. It's so itchy.... Damn irritating. But then we change place after that, because it's too many hungry mosquitos to feed. In the end, we walked to a windy place. Nice feeling. Windy and nice sky. Sit there and dream. hahaha. Didn't manage to hanky panky. =X Quite alot of people walking or jogging pass.. whahahaha. Talking about hanky panky is making me high again. hahaha! SHHhhhhhh...

+Thou feeling+

+WOOOooo+

I am bored to tear in school! Nothing to do now. Alvin is teaching the juniors now. I am in the club house online.. Surfing porno! whahahaha. jk =X So many projectssssss! Stressed! EBF assignment, EBF tutorial, ECID and DB. So many... Today F2 saw Alvin. whahaha. Their reaction so weird. whahahaha. So funny! June even runs outside and see him. Then she runs back inside again. whahahaha. Cute F2! Even Alvin also says "your friends very cute." whahaha. Then I went to club house with Alvin. After putting down my bag and laptop, went to have a walk around the school with Alvin. No money to go out dating ma. That's why I got to stay in school and date. whahaha. I am damn poor this week. Used 30bucks to pay membership card. Now I am broke! Waiting for my aunt to give me my pay! Owe me my pay for almost one month liao. Next week still need to pay for my new bow and it costs me 40bucks! Damn. I am getting poorer.
BORING!

+25.6.05+

WOOOHOOOooooo!
Too many things happened for the past few day. Don't know how to say it out. =P Went to esplanade yesterday with vin2. Hmmm.. Nice scenery. Went up to roof terance to view the scenery. So windy. Feeling great. Don't know why am I feeling normal this few day even when I am.......... Yup. =) Feel great today. haha. Meet vin2 at the bus stop after his church service. Walk around boon keng. Nothing to shop about here. haha. Show him my house and marcus house. hahaha He was shocked? "Wahh.. Marcus so rich ar? Live in condo." hahaha. Then I saw my secondary friend, kenny. Ohh myy. Was shocked. Didn't expect the world to be so small. Especially yesterday! Met Edward and jolin at the traffic outside esplanade. AH! Then alvin shouted, "Eh.. Edward!" You should have seen my expression. Ohh noo.. The whole club house is going to know about it now. Last time went out with jeremy, also saw them, now also saw them. What is going on? Such a coincidence. Is this consider as lucky or unlucky? whahaha. Nevermind. We waited for his bus. He missed a 133, because he wanted to accompany me longer? hahaha. That's quite foolish. Ben dan. Hmmm.. Don't know whether should I allow him to come tomorrow? Because it's F4 cookies day. WEEEeeee! I bought the ingredients le. Look at the ingredients on the cookies packet, it was different from the pervious packet. Weird. haha. Anyway, by tomorrow, F3 will know how untidy my room look like. It's a mess! Hmm.. Don't mess up my kitchen. LOL. Hope tomorrow he will does well for his presentation.
Think by now, F3 should know the news? =P

+Nice guy+

+My Cookies+

Baked cookies today. But failed! So sad. All below are burnt! What's going on? If a few is still can be understand. But now is all. Thought that I could show my mum that I produce nice cookies without her. But... In the end got a scolding from my mum. Baked this kind of cookies? Want me to clear ur mess? Then what happened to my oven? The first minute I got home, she told me "Clean up my oven." Dots! Arghhh. So girls, think u all got to leave my house early on monday. Sorry.
Tired.. Went to Funan to eat sakae with my brother today. Got a 20bucks sakae voucher, finally can use it. Was quite busy for the past week. Ate quite full. Then was late to meet Pc at kimage to cut hair. Hmmm.. Didn't manage to cut the hair style I wanted. Because hair quite short. AHHhhh! Got to let it grow longer before my next cut. hahaha. XD Then we went heeren to take neoprints! whahaha. Will put it up next time. Eddie called me and ask me where am I, told him the place and at first he told me to find him but then he said he'll go find me. I was shocked? Because he never voluntary that before. But in the end, still never meet him. Then Alvin wanted to meet me for dinner but then the sp concert ended too late. So next time bah. Hmm.. Did a stupid thing. I missed a bus. Don't know why. Maybe was hoping for something to happen. But it didn't. Went home alone.

+Are u the one?+



My burnt cookies.. SAD!

+Blk 50+

Hmmmmm!
Feeling a bit confused today. Everyday is thinking of the same old matter again. Think I got an answer le. All thanks to jocyceline? hahaha. =P She knows what I am talking about. hahaha. Was shocked at first. Because a friend won't do that? Maybe I am too conservative le. Or thinking too much? Hahaha. Memorable night at Blk 50, 24th of june. Quite nice scenery there. But I prefer Blk 72 level 3. It's nice to view the sunset there? Nice sky. =) Eating Ice cream there. Saw freshies trying to run away from practice. Playing hide and seek with micheal. haha. Freshies asked alvin some question. Hmmm.. Weird question? "Are u seeing with her?" And they asked me the same question. Ohh myy.. Just say no. Then they don't believe. Ahhhhhh! Really. We're not together. haha. Are we? =P No lah. Too many things happened too fast. Ohh noo. I still haven't start doing my EFB! And I need to start on the ECID assignment too. Damn. At least I have practical 5 answers? whahaha. Thanks xiang ming! U're soo goooddd! Gosh! I am hungry at this hour. I need foods! I think I am falling sick soon? Got flu for the whole day. haha. Zzz. Tired.
Tomorrow going to cut hair with Pc. Weeeeeee~ Quite excited. Wanted to see kimage hair dressing skills. =P Hopefully I can try to bake some cookies tomorrow. No school day = Helping out house chores day. Hahaha.

+U're moving too fast. Can't catch up with ur pace+

+Sadd+

Feeling quite low today. Think because I didn't did well for this morning database presentation. Our team got a B-. Sad. Sorry team mates. Guess I was not well prepared. Very sorry. Sigh. Now need to see the EBF assignment thingy. Haven't even start on it. Feel so dumb. Human is so contradicting. Say this thing and do another. Well.. Anyway, at least I spent my afternoon in club house. Actually wanted to find someone to confront my feeling, but he wasn't there. Then yuhang came and entertained me with his stupid comments about me again. Haha? Guess I really not into the mood today. Yup. Thats all. Tomorrow will be a brighter day.

+U don't understand me well, I guess+

+Her+

When to school as usual. Finally monday lessons are over! Then... It's time for tuesday lessons. The most boring of all! Argh. I didn't even know that there is EBF assignment. Until shufen mention about it today. Ohh myy gosh! I need to write 3-4pages of e-business again. Damn. But then this time 3-4 pages are without picture. NOOOooo! I am dead. 3-4 pages with the font size 20? HAHAHA! Presentation is push to wednesday. Not again. From wednesday to monday then to wednesday again. Sian. I am so anxious about it. And still need to pass up practical5 for database. Who can let me copy? Send me the file asap. haha. Bleah. I make Jocyceline angry today. Joc, dui bu qi. Should have let you eat first. Next time cannot starve her. She loves food! She's quite quiet for the whole day after that incident. Sigh. Don't angry with us anymore? =)
Hmmm.. She is so... kind of weird at times. Haha. Quite close with her this few days. Don't tell me she begins to like me? Can't be. I don't feel it. Haha. We are just neutral friends. Yaaa. So darlings, don't think too far. Hope everything goes well for June. Haha. Enjoy! =P
Ps: Thanks park for the moisturizing lotion. LOL. I will try to use it. Love ya. haha.

+Love my darlings+

+Esplanade+

I am back! Home sweet home!
When for class today. After that wanted to go bugis to shop around. Kills time. Wanted to took bus to bugis rather than mrt. This is the advantage of bus concession. But then ended up took the wrong bus. Ohh myyy.. Walk back to the nearest bus stop and guess what? Thought that 166 got go bugis. Then just aboard without asking. Haha. In the end, wrong bus again. What is happening to me today? So blur! Alright at the bus stop near to peace center and walk to bugis. Give up taking bus. Walked two streets bah. Scare me, I thought I'm lost when I didn't saw anything familiar. Reached bugis lifeless. Saw alot of cute T-shirt. hahahaha! Wanted to buy but then have to buy yan xuan's present. In the end walk around edge and buy nothing. Wait for next week bah. Two brains are better. Haha. That les so slow. Make me wait until a bit unhappy. hahaha. Took bus to city hall. Went to raffles place to walk. Feel so hungry and lonely. hahaha. Long time never shop alone le. Some more today is not in shopping mood. Ate my dinner alone. Continue my hunt, went to precious thot for big cards. But then the big card is so expensive. 13bucks! Ohh myyy.. Didn't buy it. Too expensive. Bought a nice color small card for alvin. About christian. Thought of him. Then it's only 30cents, so no harm of buying it. Finally he called. Les alvin. So slow. Ice cream on him. Remember u owe me ice cream treat. No school ice cream nor 50cents ice cream. whahaha. U're dead le. Then went to hallmarks at citylink for big cards. Saw some cute cards with 'What Izzit' in front. Damn cute! Bought it for steve. Hahaha. We're so excited about the cards. Didn't have enough time to write message as steve already arrived. See lah. Slow Alvin. Head to esplanade. Long time ever since last went to esplanade library. Took a mickey mouse picture on the way. So cute. =X haha. The library is so quiet. Little people at the music section. Good?! I don't like crowded place. hahaha. Went to some corner away from steve to write message on the card. Hahaha. And I put, 'From: aiai + vinvin' whahahaha. So gay! Wooohooo.. At time I feel Alvin is abit gay leh. Don't know why. whahaha. Because he's tall and skinny? Maybe. And he's quite hand itchy? Or am I sensitive? No idea. Haha. Wanted to meet eddie but then, perhaps other days will be better. Kind of missing... A tired day. Tomorrow is presentation day. Well, I am scared!

+ Are u serious about what u said to me? +

+Moonflower+

A long tired day.
Went back to school in the morning to meet I&E lecturer for more information on the health and lifestyle project. Need to call company for sponsorship by next week. So many projects on hand, ECID, DB and I&E. Shit. I have to present DB assignment about the attributes and entities on monday. Need to revise on that data on sunday. haha. last minute work. So many things to do. Need to get my friend a birthday present, celebrating her birthday on sunday. Money! I need money! Went to bugis to eat curry chicken. hahaha. Yummy. Delicious curry. Then we went to orchard to buy the bag. Nice toilet it has in Great World City. haha. Go to cold storage to buy june's brownies. But I bought a packet of oatmeal & chocolate chip cookies making. Shouldn't have bought it. haha. I feel like I don't even have time to bake it. So busy nowadays. Keep on going to club house after school. I don't even know why I like to go there. hahaha. Sorry, f3 think may not have time to bake the cookies this two weeks. We witnessed a car accident outside lucky plaza today. Life is fragile. But luckily, there is no blood scene. Just a minor car accident. Discover that I am packed with unneccessary stuff. Sigh. Still need to accompany my brother to eat sushi. Ohh myy. I don't have time. I will be very busy next friday. Maybe going to meet sponsorer then, sushi with brother and finally, meet my friend for haircut. Not sure. I am pack. Ahhhhhhh! I need to rest.

+Missing.. The fragrance of life+

+I Believe+

AHHHhhhloooooowwsss!
This few day keep on having cca thingy and went home late. Mum is not happy about it. Sigh. But this is how the process of growing up. Met a bendemeerian in my cca club house today. I was shocked. Didn't expect a bendemeerian to join Npstrings. haha. Anyway, she lives near me and marcus, marcus accompany her home today. Walk home alone. hahaha. I am a independent girl. Yaa. Have fun with alvin today. whahaha. He said he's going to teach me guitar for that japanese song. In the end, we craps there. Most of the time, listen to him playing songs... Then he played 'I believe'. Ahhhh~ Nice song. And he taught me the starting notes for 'I believe'. Saying, Lets play duet for family concert. I was.... huh? Are you kidding? Must be. I don't even dare to play to our club house people, what makes u think i dare to play to those people i don't even know? hahaha. But anyway, he's a nice guy. Although he hasn't teach finish the japanese song. Going to master that piece. YEess! And he's going to master violin. Twinkle twinkle little star.. hahahaha!
Eddie is working now. Quite shock when he sms me about it. haha. Working can make people grow more mature in term of thinking. XD Take good care. Play less computer game. haha. Worrying about my presentation on monday. Hope everything is going to be alright. Lets.. go wild. hahaha. I am talking craps. Too tired...

+ I must learn to speak +

+ai hen jian dan+

YAAaaaa. Back from suntec. Was so hungry just now. Meet F3 at Chinatown today for trimming eyebrows thingy. In the end only jocyceline trimmed her eyebrows. The rest of us were quite scare to trim our eyebrow, because we don't have thick eyebrows. hahaha. But 5bucks is cheap. And jocyceline eyebrows look quite nature. Not bad. Then we went to bugis for ice monster! whahahahaha. =p Accidently let the cat out of the bag. But then think they didn't catch it. phew~ I am a forgetful person. whahaha. Keep on coughing after ice monster. Then now having flu. AHHHhh~ Need to drink more water. Yup. June also need to drink more water. She's still having her cough. We were enjoying ourself and discussed about our I&E event things at the same time in the ice monster shop. We are goody girls. :) Hope our event will turn out the way we expect them to be. Most importantly is hope we can find sponsor for the apples! Applessss... Went to orchard for june'sss erhem bag. haha. Then cenileisure for dinner. The dessert store was so interesting. Weird names for a dessert. Watching shu fen and joc eat. haha. Was planning of going home for dinner. Then suddenly, Eddie sms me ask me whether want to meet him at suntec. Hmmm.. After some consideration, I agreed. I meet glenn on the way to arcade to find them. He's so thin and tiny. Ehhh.. I was shocked to see him. haha. Asked me whether i want some free drinks. Erhem. I am not that cheapo. >.< Even through the PCK ticket is free. Yaa, xiao mei. Eddie is there playing those car racing game with his friends. sweat~ I feel so bored inside. Nothing to do. Watch them play. So boring. Wanted to go home before 9pm for the 9pm show, because it's the last episode. Did I really changed alot? No. I am still the same old me. And he said.. I changed.. I grow more... SHORTER! Arghhh.. I am not short okay. Idiot. Luckily U accompany me to bus stop. If not minus minus mark. Quite surprised that he accompany me. haha. First step to be gentleman. Keep it up.
Got to rush for my EBF assignment. No more problem to write about. HELP! E-business... Just goes on and on... Hopefully, I will be able to produce 3 to 4 pages.

+I dare not... dream+

+Nerdy+

Arghh..
School laptop really sux! Borrowed a laptop home yesterday. Guess what? The laptop came with a canvas bag. And it's... So cool?! whahahaha! Nice "LV" bag okay. Thought that Marcus will be coming for the practice. In the end, I have to bring the bag home myself with the Mickey mouse and violin. I looked so cool in bus. whahahaha. Canvas bag on my back, Mickey bag on my right shoulder, violin on my left. Ahhhhhhhh! Not only this. I couldn't find my ez-link card. Then I was so... Auntie. Carrying so many bags and searching for my ez-link card. Reached home. Used my "new" laptop. Can't connect to internet. I was so fed up. Keep on pestering my brother to help me connect. At least connected at around 12.20am plus. Then sign in to msn. Keep on dc! Not one or two time(s) dc. Is a lot. I think more than 5 times. Can't even reply to my friends message. Cries. Lousy connection? Should be.
A new Jeremy came to our cca club and he's Jeremy Ang. So now should have Jeremy Ma, Jeremy Poh, Jeremy Yang and Jeremy Ang. He's quite good looking! Tall too. Ohh myy.. My dream guy. hahaha. And... He's a pianist! With a diploma in piano. Ohhh my gosh! Perfect dream guy. Tall, dashing and play piano. He seems to be good in every instrument. Born to be a genius in music? If only... I am born with his talent. Man.
Woke up with a sore eye today. Went to school for tutorial and lectures. So boring and my eye feel so itchy. Went home after school. Have a nap. haha. Nice nap. Woke up and online for the I&E brainstorm submitting. Brain can't really work well. haha. And I already post it. Typed 'purposer' for the word 'proposal' and apple without S. whahaha. Mr Tee will laugh till his head drop off. So embarrassing! WEeeee.. Friday is no school day. whahaha. Enjoying.

+Laptop+

Laptop is Dead...
Dead...
Dead...

+Hey Mickey+

I am back! Hope my laptop behave more better now. *praying My belovedd laptoppp. Quite an alright week to begin with. Went to school early in the morning for I&E class. Health and lifestyle. Sound exercising? I also worry about that. Very late for class. Got in the lift with three person. One guy was walking behind me and I think he's in the same class as me. Stepped into the class when I saw joc they all. Saw the teacher and greeted him. The guy followed in. Who knows. Teacher starts to say, "sorry, I think u all come to the wrong class. The class here is not from R17." Then I turn back abit shocked. Find a seat and sit down. Another girl was late too. Rushed in. Then he repeat the same things. Bad teacher? This is obviously R17. Where got teacher lied to student? The girl was shocked too and went off to the next class to ask. In the end she came back and said, "The teachers from the next class say that this is R17 class." The teacher was, "Ohhh.. Sorry. I made a mistake about the classroom. This is R17." Wahhh! This is funny. I am laughed. What a funny teacher. Even think of an excuse to make. And he said that he was going to let us manage our time and let us have some space. So after the first two weeks, we can go watch movie or go east coast and go wild! And he said, "Maybe under wild circumstance, u will find ur talent." Really a weird teacher. Keep on asking we all to watch movie. Even more weird. Can't afford, we are poor. When it comes to the grouping time. We are all crazy. Jocyceline they all snatching the box from him. Hahaha. We want our own group members. Then our group name is.. 'Don't want to tell u.' The teacher thought we are kidding about the group name. But don't we sound serious about it? HAHAHAHA!
Class dismiss at 9.30am. So early! Extremely early! What are we going to do with this hours? Shopping centers are not even open yet. Went Far east to have Long john Silver. Miss cheese. Reached there and it was still serving breakfast. ohh myy. Waited for half an hour more, just to eat lunch. Yummy. Ate lot of cheese. Until I am abit scare of cheese now. whahahaha! After that, we went around. Orchard seems boring to me now. No idea what to buy. Then June bought a slippers from C&K. Nice slippers. Went to have butterscotch ice cream. Yummy. Love ice cream. Drooling. Hahaha. Off to heeren and bugis. So long never go bugis. Been such a long long time. The cinema center remind me of my first time watching movie with Eddie. Brought back memories. haha. Went to the newly open Mickey Mouse shop. And it was having some VIP and Guest event. No access of outsiders. Wahhh got to wait again? What's wrong witht today? Go everywhere also need to wait. Shu fen recommended us about her delicious curry from the food court. Ohh myy.. It's nice! Must try! Not that spicy and the smell is so tempting. I was sharing the Crispy Chicken mushroom soup with june. I am such a greedy person. hahaha! Love curry and soup! Quite filling. After we ate finshed, it is already 4.30pm and we went to the Mickey Mouse shop. Hmmm.. First impression of that shop. Ehh.. Quite childish? haha. Mickey mouse everywhere. Some clothes are nice, some are not. Then saw a Mickey mouse bag. Quite nice looking. Unique? Try the rectangle one. Hmmm.. Look weird on me. Don't know why. Just feeling weird. Don't know whether should I buy or not. In the end, I bought it for 35bucks. It's cheap. But i am broke. Awww~ Cannot go for shopping on this weekend liao. Sobb.. Guess where we went after that? June's hometown! =X Many things in that departmental store. Hmmm.. Alot alot. But then we buy nothing. haha. Jocyceline was getting afraid and uneasy. Then we left after some time. Hahaha. F3 didn't know the way out. Guess it was a long walk to reach the bus stop. Walk for some distance to my bus stop. Feel so tired. Sleep and money is all I need! Hand it over!
Reformated my laptop on thursday. Thanks to guang lin. hahahaha! jk. Jammed half way during practical then.. Blue error screen appeared! I was so excited? Wait for so long. Reached school at 12pm plus that day, so that I got time to bring my laptop to mel service center to have check up. But then the uncle said, I can't do the repair for u. Because I don't know what error ur computer has. I was like..... getting fed up. Then he asked me to switch on my laptop and wait till the blue screen appear. And I wait and wait. I am rushing late for my 1pm class lah. The blue error screen still didn't appear. Then he told me, when the blue error screen appear, bring ur laptop to me. i was... Fed up. What kind of service center is this? Because too many people? Maybe. Then they should hire more people to assist. I am a IT dummy. If my laptop don't have any problem, why am I bringing it to u. U think holding a laptop walking up a level is very fun? It is heavy lah. Then when my blue screen appeared, I brought it up. And guess what the other uncle told me? Ur laptop dead liao. Keep on repeating. Oh.. How am I going to know whats wrong with my laptop? I wanna know why my laptop is dead and not hearing things like "ur laptop is dead". I got so fed up. U are an IT assistant, u think i got x-ray eyes to see what ur mind is thinking? I can't tell. Got to ask him so many questions lah. Then he said, repair is only 1 out of few cases will be success. Maybe u'll be the lucky one. dots! I asked how about reformat? He said, if after u reformated ur laptop and the blue screen still come back means ur hardware problem. At least this is a more better answer. Then I go down and take my cd for reformating. Melvin said alot about the mel service center. In the end, I asked him to help me reformat my laptop. Haha. Poor him, got to help me take my laptop all the way to canteen 2. =X He's a kind soul. Thanks melvin! Thanks alot. Alot of software got deleted. Don't even have microsoft word all that, macromedic stuff, Visual basic and JCreator. Damn. Got to download in school again. Got to ask park for help on how to create domain. Forgot all that stuff le.

The mickey mouse bag I bought. Complicated pictures? Say it looks NICE!

+A Beautiful Mind+

Sigh! My laptop is dying. Sob.. Park help! I deleted the spyware thingy but it will come back to me again. Just now I use ad-aware in safe mode to detect whether there is spyware but found none. Then my laptop is still laggy even switching programs. Help! help! I worry that there is virus. I loved my laptop alot! SOS!
Yesterday is Vesak day. Vegetatian for the whole day. I was longing for meat. Visited my grandma in AMK. Had durian at her house. Yummy! Long time didn't eat durian. And I was so hungry for it. Haha. Ate alot, until I am bloated. Love fruits.
Saturday.
Went out with secondary school mates- tingy, xue fen and agnes. Was supposed to meet them at 6pm at heeren but then as usual, I was late. whahahaha. Didn't meant to. Went to school in the afternoon for practise. Then after that, practise with Jeremy for his exam pieces. Forgot the time and we practised until about 6pm. I did improve. At least abit of improvement. Still must buck up. haha. And it was still raining. Gosh. I forgot to bring my umbrella. Was walking very fast to the bus stop. Checked my handphone. It was switched off. Damn. Nowadays I got no idea what is happening to my handphone, keep on automatic switch off for no reason. Time for new phone? AHhh.. Money! Received 5 missed calls from agnes. Five is alot! Then a sms from her saying "U want me to put red carpet then u willing to come huh?" Hahaha. What a funny sms. I replied, "I won't mind if u're willing to do so. haha" Reached Heeren at 6.45pm. Was late for 45mins. I am not the only one who was late. Tingy was late too. Guess raining day is a good excuse? haha. Can't decide where to eat. Sakae or Jack place? Went up to see Sakae queue, it was long.. Agnes suggested sushi tei. So we head to paragon. So coincidence. That word again. I saw shu fen when I was crossing the traffic. Shouted for her. But guess she was busying crossing. Then when I reached paragon, I called her. Wanted to bluff her, I saw U walking in Orchard with a guy. But then didn't noticed any guy beside her. Haha. Continue walking to sushi tei. The menu is so expensive. Six pieces of sushi for less than 10bucks? Not sure. Forgotten. Finally we made decision to eat Crystal jade. I love the entrance. Feel like a princess when I am walking in. Everyone was looking at us. Afraid that we have no money to pay after eating. Haha. We ordered, one dish of noodles with big prawns in it. Then Scallop with nuts, Vegetable with mushroom and Sour and sweet pork meat. Yummy~ The waiter keep on wanting us to order a bottle of wine. But we didn't. Driving later on. =X jk. hahaha. Finished all the foods. Quite a small portion. No full yet, decided to go some where else for dessert. Pay exactly 99bucks for the meal in Crystal Jade. Quite expensive. Then we went to TCC in cineleisure. I love my Ice Mon Cheri. Nice color! Love the cherry taste. Eat and talk about guys. whahahaha. Yaa. We used to find a bf during secondary time, is to have someone to care for u. Now finding a bf is for lifetime commitment. Feel I am so old. Yaa. Life is short. Live it.

Extra Me

WOOOhooooooo!
Yesterday go and reborn my hair. whahaha. my money. Now I am damn broke. So many expenses. This and that. And the hairdresser asked me, did u highlighted ur hair? I was... dots! My brown color faded. And U say it looks like highlghted. Oh man. I am good kid okay. whahahaha. Opps. Shu fen, i didn't mean u. =X whahahaha.
I am so bored at home that I took pictures the whole morning. I am getting vain in boring days. Then practise piano and violin in afternoon time. Worried about tomorrow practise. Playing piano in duet with violin is a difficult task for me. Sorry jeremy. Didn't do a good job. Grade 5 is just a name. Ahhhh~ Wonder how am I going to sit for my grade 6 exams next year. Sigh. Need to buck up liao. Or else.. I am worst than a grade 3 student. Got to sleep le. Need to do lots of things tomorrow.
I need money!

+It will be pointless to continue when u knew the ending+



This is how i look like now. No highlighting in my hair. NOOOOOooo!

+heartless+

Sigh~
Am I really that heartless? Maybe.. I really don't want to get involve in relationship. Not at this moment. Sorry. Waited for Jeremy at boon keng bus stop, so that he could pass me the DVD. Then he asked some questions. Okay. I answered him quite truly. Think he thinks it through. And he is not going to continue. Sorry. I am really sorry. Thousands of sorry.
Awwww~
Like what Marcus says? Don't miss it. But I really don't know what to do. He's good to me but I don't know whether is it because he's good to me then I feel something for him or am I really beginning to like him? Well.. Whatever it is, is not important anymore. We are going to be good friends from today onwards. Yup. Just friends. I am not the right girl for U. U are a very nice person. A person that have the leadership quality and a person that can be confide in. Yup. And for me? Hmm.. Continue to wait and wait and wait? Wait for who? Now I also not sure what am I waiting for. Waiting for someone to unlock my heart? No idea what my heart says or wants. Don't want any guys to come near me. Haha. I am weird again. Sigh.

+I am not the right girl+