+ Virtouso XII +

I am so tired...
Practise until so late then reach home. Leave school at about 11.30pm? Think so. Go home with Marcus and Jeremy. Intend to take bus at the beginning but then when we saw a mec taxi, Jeremy rushed toward the taxi. In the end, we took a cab home. We took to Balestia then to my home as marcus lives the opposite block of mine. The fare is 9bucks quite cheap. haha..

I need to save money for my BOW! I broke my bow on tuesday. Argh! I was swinging my bow and who knows the next moment, I dropped it and heard a crack! It was broken. Can't even use super glue to save it. >.< Heart break~ Don't even dare to tell my mum. She will surely say I am so violent, careless and some more I bought the violin for few months only. Need to save money for a new bow. sigh~ Plus tong hua score? Maybe will buy guang liang composition pieces for about 25bucks? AHHH~~~ Some more going oversea in May. Badly in need of money! I need to shop and shop and shop! Spent more than 40bucks on wednesday when I was shopping with my strings girls. Brought a open toes heels. Weeeee~ Love the design. haha. Broke.

Enjoyed the chalet with T11. Went for midnight bike ride with some guys and F3. It was exciting! June knows how to cycle now. haha.. ^^ Then after the cycle, About 3am++, we went to Changi to see transvestite? They are all so pretty! Damn fermine! Ohh myyy.. Am I a girl? I wonder... Then zhi wei drove us to see old Changi hospital. It was so dark! Luckily he drove the other way in, where there are houses. Scary~ Went back to the chalet at 4am++ Just nice that the soccer match finished. I am so tired like hell. And there wasn't a space to sleep? In the end I really can't stand it anymore, I slept on the bed above ming kiat and his gf. haha. Feel so tired now, tomorrow still have practise at 9am. Back aches. Didn't intend to go practise so early but then marcus ask me to go with him. No choice. Live near him. Gotta have morning call from him. >.< It is going to be another long day.
Jia you~

+Turn Right, Turn Left+

Awwwww~
Such a tears jerker show. >.< I love that movie! Sigh. Think of the situation I am in now, feel so sad again. Everytime see u online, I don't know whether should I chat with u or not. But then, alway wait for u to message me first. Our gap is getting wider. Li de hao yuan hao yuan. Now that I am quite busy preparing for concert, whenever I come online, u will be sleeping soon. U stop playing acro. U say u changed a server. _ _lll And have to buy cd in order to play?! Too much money to spend? =X Seems like we have nothing in common to talk about. Ahhhhhh~
When out with a group of cca girls on sunday to shop for virtuoso clothes. End up buying a top from topshop and a pair of new black shoes! Ohh myy.. I don't care. I am going to buy another black color shoes with purple and blue strips in front. It's soooo stylo! I love that design but then stefanie say it look ugly. >.< Today rehersal at vch is totally craps! I didn't put in enough effort. I think I really need to practise alot alot of times! jia you bah! Birthday coming.. No plan in mind yet. It's soo.. boring? I am so exhausted. Love being single? HAhahaha! Any sunshine guys to intro me? Great smile will do! whahahaha.. I am crazy. Boring.. What is going on?! Everyday practise will be long! I haven't shop for my open toe heels yet. Ohh noooooo~

+Parallel lines will never meet. Just like u and me. On with our own way+

One of the pictures I edited for him. Cool? From this to the right side one. ^^ Before and after.

+Erasing..+

AHHHhhhhhh~
Preparing to fail BIS. Sigh. The section A was exactly what is on the slides. But I didn't study at all. Shit! Play too much. Think too much. Dream too much. Hopefully the teacher will be kind enough to give me a passing grade. I really don't want to re-take that module. Like what shu fen said, boring module. Yuck! Lady luck isn't on my side. A-math.. Another no hope module. I really need to pass A-math. But then was given such a teacher. I doubt his ability in teaching. Doubt everything. Eddie messaged me in msn today. I was shocked. He said.. "She rejected me." I was... What the hell?! Thinking.. "So this is the reason why u message me. That is because she rejected u and u want me to comfort u?" But then I didn't voice out. I feel hurt and sad at that moment. Dropped few tears, but stop myself from turning on the tap again. Cheer up is the only words I can say to comfort U. Did u say cheer up when I am sad? HA! Not even once. Sorry is what u said. But then I think my action speak louder than ur words. Well.. Not going to let u bully again. Shhooo.. Not thinking that much.
I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. I like U. Just like U. Erasing.. In process... Cheer up.

+I am not the girl u heart is missing+

Nothing to do. Edit some ro pictures. haha~

+leave+

What a day to begin with?! Having EVP exam in the morning. Last minute study, help Eddie yesterday night to level his character. Sigh.. Then went home to rest awhile, left home to dental and hand in my piano fees. Happened to pass by a cash deposit machine. Everything went well.. Until the money the machine counts my money. It counts for quite long.. Then stuck! ahhhhhhh~ I am so scared. First time come across this kind of problem. The first thing I do was to check my account balance, the balance is still the same! Oh myy... Then I called my mum. She was talking in the phone so loudly as if it was my fault to make the machine stuck. >.< I got so panicked that I cried on the spot. sigh. Fill up the form and have to wait for few day before the money is credit into my account. Blame myself.
Reached home. Missed Eddie sms. He logs into the game and asks me whether I saw his sms. I went to see. Mind blackout. Can't think. Tears rolling down like a spoilt water tap. What is this about? "I like a girl in my class =X" What do u expect me to reply? HA! Congrat! Finally found someone who is the same childish age as u're? How should i reply this type of message? Please teach me. Don't ask me whether am I angry or not. Because I am hating u. Don't make me fall for u when U don't feel the same for me. Because I'm selfish. Don't expect me to be nice to u when u're not to me. Because I don't take thing for granted. What U expect from me? Haven't U hurt me enough? U betrayed my trust, again and again U say one thing and end up doing others. I am sick and tired of U. Those memories, how i wish I can erase them. I don't hurt other like the way u do. Don't ask me to find other guy and say "there is surely someone better than me" Ohh.. I am not desperate for a boyfriend and almost every guy is better than u. HA! So what do u expect to hear? Good luck. Best wishes. Merry Christmas. Happy new year! I am crazy. Panadol please. Urgently in need.

+ wo ai cuo le ni+

+chalet lelelele+

O.o It's time to blog again. haha.. Psp2 paper on thurday was alright? Section B i am not so sure. quite tough for the Section B. >.< Forgot about the black-box testing and white-box testing theory. Well.. Hope can pass the paper.
Friday was a good friday. Went out with Eddie and his friend at 4pm? I am late again. whahaha. Lala~ Actually plan to watch movie, but then his friend spectacles spoilt. So they decided to go to sheng quan chalet instead of watching movie. I followed. Sheng quan chalet was at Tenah Merah's safa. Quite far from the mrt station. We took a cab in as we cannot find the shuttle bus service. Eddie was so entusiastic went he saw sheng quan they all playing soccer with other people. He and gavin joined them. They play and sweat like hell. Eddie T-shirt was drenched with his sweat. Eeeeekkkkk~ Then we went to buy some drink. For the first time, Eddie treat me a drink. I was surprised! Really surpriesed that I was smiling =X hahaha but I throw away the bottle le. Ahhhhhhh~ forgot liao. Then he began to talk about weird stuff. I was thinking about it then suddenly recall that I told gavin something. Ohhh myyy.. Gavin backstabbed me! How could nuuuu? Gavin said he was trying to help me. =.= I don't need any help. I need him to know what he's doing and not because his friend ask him to do. Ya, this is how I feel. Then went to sheng quan's chalet at about 7pm or 8pm after the pool and bowling games. I was starving! FOODS! I need foods!?! haha.. We don't dare to step into the chalet as sheng quan's family members were there. >.<>.< ate a few stick of crab meat and fishball before going up to second level. Just went I was about half stairs through, Eddie ran out of the room. Trapping me to that little corner. His back was facing me. His shirt was... Smelly! hahaha EEEkkkkk~ Went home with a little trouble. Sheng quan's father drove us to Pasir Ris mrt station. Seven of us have to squeeze in a car. Eddie was sitting on top of gavin legs. And gavin was there having pain. haha.. Poor gavin. Went home at around 10.50pm. ^^

+Sweet memories+

+null+

Slept late yesterday, wake up at 1.30pm today. Oh gosh.. First time woke up so late. Woke up in a daze. Feeling so lost out of a sudden. Don't know whether to believe what he said yesterday. Receive a message from at 2pm+ asking me want to go out or not. Meet him at 4pm at Plaza singapura. Went to Yamaha to see some piano before going to arcade to meet him. All the pianos are so expensive. 7k+ for those intermediate to advance studies. Planning of getting a new piano. Got to look out for more. Meet him outside the arcade. Went in for awhile, not use to it. Too crowded with teenagers. Realise that I am quite old. Well, getting older. They wanted to sing again. _ _lll well.. This is nuts lah. I keep on spending money whenever going out with them. Broke liao. We went to Kster, the price is 7.99+++ , think is around 12bucks per person. First time see Eddie sing. Quite funny, he was shy at first. But then he acts alot lah. Acts as if he's singing the song, but the actual fact is he's just moving his mouth. haha. Keep on disturbing me, messing up my hair. =.= Childish guy. Left at around 8pm. When to bus stop with his friend. Different direction. Sigh. Can't he just accompany me to bus stop? Think alot on the bus. *will be alright.

+How can I smile with the tears in my eyes+

+Esplanade+

Yesterday went out with Eddie and his friends until late night. Met them at suntec at 8.30pm, late for half an hour. haha. Then went to esplanade to enjoy the scenery. We sat on the chairs by the river outside Fullerton Hotel. The air was so cooling. Then a bunch of teenagers or should I say kids? hahaha think they are around my age, playing along the river. Pushing each other, or are they doing stunts? haha. Eddie keeps on cursing them to fall into the river. >.< bad. After resting for about an hour, we decided to sit boat. It was interesting, never sit boat ride at singapore river before. But then the ride for entire round was expensive. Each person is 12 bucks. Left there at 11.30pm? Went to orchard to buy drinks as the 7-eleven at city hall was closed. They wanted to sing. Thought of going to KBox. We took cab to chinatown. It was expensive to sing at night in KBox, the price there is about 18bucks, Kster is about 14bucks. haha. But I didn't join them, mum called and wanted me to go home. Yup. Think alot of things yesterday. Naggy mum. haha.

+Looks or money? was what she told me.+

+Wedding dinner+

Weeeeeeee~Back aching from the wedding dinner plus not enough of sleep. I am so tired now. >.< Just now went to my cousin wedding dinner at sentosa shangriLa's. Not as grand as the ShangriLa in orchard? The foods was soso bah. The bride is so pretty, a national netball player she is. Saw her on television before and i was like.. This girl looks familiar. haha. Didn't notice any good looking guys at the wedding, all are pretty girls. haha. Eat till i am too full to move around. Took many pictures of the menu and flowers? haha. Nothing to do. Have a picture with my pretty cousin.
here is it..

+Hitch+

Great show!
You guys should catch that movie. Funny movie with romances behind it. The dancing part is funny. The whole cinema is filled with laughters. Went home alone and reach home fast, but lazy to get foods. haha So hungry in the bus. Didn't get enough foods for dinner. TT Park starved me =X hahaha. Just kidding. I came late and dinner is gone. Thanks people for the movie. Bones aching and head tired. *hungry*

+I won't look back anymore. It just ain't worth my time+

+Sentosa day+

What a sad day to begin with.. Chat with eddie in the morning, he said he got a ro girl player msn. I was like... very very angry with that. Totally pissed off. I reply ur problem. Cry on the spot. Didn't know why am i so angry. Still got to go sentosa with xing long and jocyceline. Meet them much more later than 11am. haha. Then we sat Xing long's friend car into sentosa. We turned so many round.. End up in a car park far away from palawan beach. _ _lll Jocyceline keeps on wanted to put xing long and me together. But it's impossible.. xing long expectation is high. Plus I am not interested in him. BAD day! Got bully by xing long and his friend. TT throw me into the water. Especially Xing long's friend. Childish! keep on wanted to throw me into the water when jocyceline and andrew went to bath. TT after that, went home alone by mrt.
Eddie.. is a flirt. That is what i can describe him. Nothing to say. Miserable.

+I am just another substitute in ur heart+

+BAD presentation day+

OHhhhhhh~ it was a BAD BAD day. Everything didn't went well for me. Having Oral Communication presentation in the morning. I was... So nervous like hell. Last minute prepare my presentation, of course I don't have any confident at all let alone say I prepare to entertain the class. When I was walking toward the computer, my teacher say, let us enjoy some music now. I said, there won't be any entertainment. "Ohhh.. Then I will be disappointed" was what she replied. The first word of my Violin parts was wrong, it was suppose to be chin rest and I said tail piece. I was still pointing to my violin chin rest and I said tail piece. _ _lll Then I corrected myself. At 3minutes, the teacher ask me why not U just end with a piece of song? I was stunted. I didn't practice any song, just running through a piece yesterday, didn't really went into it. So, I said, I try. This was the WORST part. First three note I played wrongly, then realize that I had a BAD beginning. The whole song was hell lah. A lot of notes went out of tune. Didn't even know what I was playing. Sob sob~ Wanted to get out of the room as soon as possible.
Return home as deadly. Slept for about 3hours. My mummy angry voice wake me up. I realize that she was screaming at my brother for the phone. _ _lll She bought stocks again. Ohh welll.. Few minute later come into my room and say, "everytime, U're the one who get me into trouble." I was...... Speechless. What the hell did I do?! I didn't force u to buy stocks, I didn't force U to cook for me. I just say I am eating dinner at home before I go to school for cca. Okay. Got to eat my dinner now, before she shouts at me again.

+I don't see any hope from anywhere+

+I see You+

Wake up at 11.30am today. Bored. My rashes still haven't go away. So ugly! Argh. I think it's mosquito bites. There are really quite a number of mosquito in my area recently. Sick! Recall what happened yesterday, I'm back into the moody mood again. Sigh. Yesterday went out with Eddie and his friend, actually is to meet him then go to bugis and buy his birthday present. He had something in mind, nike sneakers or billabong wallet. When we met, I asked him which one he wants, he said just kidding only. _ _lll Then he asked me want to catch a movie? Oh.. Alright was my reply. Some more I had to pay for the ticket myself! What kind of guy is this? I was beginning to get annoy. But the movie Constantine was quite a nice movie. What makes me laugh during the movie is when I saw Eddie reaction! whahahaha.. During the front parts, there was this guy holding the spear and running. Then a car suddenly appear and knock him down. The effect was big, then Eddie was shocked and say that part scared him. Hahaha.. Serve him right! hmmph~ In the movie he was asking me to watch I do I do after Constantine. I didn't reply him. But then after the movie, his parents called so we head straight home. Maybe I expect too much from him. But shouldn't a guy send a girl home? Okay. Send me to the bus stop and I will be contented. He didn't.. I was wondering why in the bus. After liking him for quite a long time, then I discovered that he was not my type of guy. This is sad.
I lost the ticket that belong to his friend.. What is with me now is the only two tickets stating my seat and his. Isn't this weird? Sigh..

+tong hua+

This few day had been going out with f3. Though it was tired but I enjoyed it. haha Common test is finally over le! Yeah! Firday after common tests, we went to shopping in orchard again then at night went for steamboat. Weeeee ~ Spent alot of money >.< hahaha =X Satuarday spent alot of money on hair cut! now no more money. TT Some more got two people birthday coming. Gotta save more money! look at me! my new hair cut.
Today slack at home the whole day, RO-ing again. Help eddie to level up. ^^ talk quite alot of things with him today. He sent me a song, tong hua. The song is so sad. TT it's a nice song by guang liang. Then he talks about US. Hmm.. Quite surprising, he knows he has a bad character. Hope he's going to change it. ^^ way to go eddie! jia you!


This is Friday steamboat picture~ yummy yummy!


This is my new hair cut! hahaha..

+this is hell+

OMG ~
This is hell man! Today Amath paper is so difficult. Gosh, I'm going to fail that paper. So many blank. The indices sux lah! Seem to be easy but when u do, it's tough! What the... sigh. Another paper again. What am I doing? Oh man! Have to stop playing RO every night or else I'm going to play my whole life through. But this is tough. How to stop myself? I... just want to see him online everytime i log onto RO. So that I can have time spending with him >.< Sigh. I'm stupid. Well.. This is ME. I'm going to sleep or else I can't wake up tml morning and study. Sigh. Talk about study, tomorrow is OS paper. TT Another Blow. If only...
Wish me luck bah. I need alot! Plenty of luck! Two more days!

+slacking+

Sighhhh~
After so many days of study break, I still not in the mood to study. Maybe because too addicted in ro le. >.< I'm going to fail every modules. So many things happened... I have to bear it alone. This is unfair... U're unfair to me! Couldn't describe anything in words.. Let it bury deep down into my heart.. Got to forget everything as soon as possible. I'll be strong. Yesh i will. *not in the mood to study _ _lll*

+ Forgiveness is the fragrance the violet sheds on the shoe that has crushed it +

+headache+

Ahhhhhhhhh~
Headache man. I hate making such a tough decision in life. Whish major should I choose? Especially it is related to my future. Oh my gosh.. Which one is more suitable for me? One wrong move, I'll be dead. Software engineering is tough. But there is a good prospect in the future. E-business is something related to business plus programming. I want to study something related to finance but it's a high competitive stuff in the future. What should I choose? Follow my interest or to follow the money path? >.<
Sigh.. Please show me the lighted path.

+Me+

AHhhhhh~
Today don't have to work. *smiles* I'm currently working. Only need to work for lilian until next 12th January as their promoter had quit recently. At least can earn some pocket money for me to buy adidas bag and reborn my hair. whahaha.. So boring and stress leh. Need to cope with studies and work at the same time. Understand how those people coping studies and work together. You need to really manage your time well or else you won't have time for studies. Working in taka is quite fun. Got quite a number of O levels students, can get along with them quite well. ^^; Miss the time when I'm working in John little. After work someone will be there fetching me home. I miss the old times. Sighh~ Never mind lah. Need money to feed my three gf ma, so having a tough life for the time being. hahaha..
RO? Don't think i'll have time for RO bah. Don't even have time to sleep le, I need to plan my time well. Oh my gosh.. Tomorrow still have OS test. Argghhh~ Exams are around the corner, I'm going to be drive nuts! >.<

+whatever+

Welll....
You make me fed up. Really fed up today. Stop saying you like me when you really don't seem to. I definately hate you! Please disappear from my sight, you JERK! I hate small kid. I'm not going to believe your words again. You lost my trust in you. I'll be playing RO more and more seldom, then eventually stop. I'm glad that I'll not be seeing you in my life again. So just get lost. Good bye, JERK!

+Let the rain fall and wake my dream+

+come clean+

What the hell?! I'm feeling deep down in the drain now. It's raining some more. Feel like crying and crying. Stupid Eddie makes me so fed up that I'm hating him right at the moment. Sux! Hate him to the core. Somebody please bash him up. Shouldn't have know him from the start. Flirt and flirt and flirt. Whatever. It's alway him who spoil my day. TT Sighhhhhhhhhh~ Nelson what should I do? Arghh.. I hate RO! Deleting every Eddie's message. Dots! Don't every make me feel pissed off. I'll curse and swear at that person. Eddie, please go and die! Sob sob~

+I give u my heart but U give it away+

+coldness+

Sighhhhhh~
Today is such a bad day! Raining day. First time try playing tennis in the rain. >.< feeling so cold in class that I tembled when I'm giving speech. Oh my gosh! Definately going to be mark down on my marks. TT After reading the news about the monday or sunday tsunamis outbreak, I almost cry. Seeing that more than 150 childrens were killed in that waves, make me realise that life is really vulnerable. Sending my prayers to the deads. *praying silently in the breeze of the night*
Quite happy that received ur last night message. But who knows bad thing happened after that? sweat~ Well.. I really got nothing to say if U're going to continue with that kind of attitude when talking to me. Nelson never did anything wrong and U misunderstand him. He's just trying his best to make me happy when u're not there to share my woes. Should I say he's much more mature than u? I hope that U won't be so xiao qi. Cool down and think clearly. I shouldn't demand too much from U. Maybe it's just a crush? yaaaa... Should be. Tired.

+ everything behind me seems so insignificant +