+Bad day+

Tico alert.
PUI!
An uncle riding bicycle approached me twice. Arghs. *stare Ask me whether I want extra service. I was...... feel like giving him a punch. Get a life! I got no phone with me. If he approaches me another time, I will make sure I call the police. Give you a hard time. =/
Guys.. This is what the world look like?
Got to deliver the cheque to funan. And went I reached funan, it was dizzling, not so bad.
When I came out of funan, I was raining heavily. Oh man. I waited and waited for the rain to go away. But the rain just getting bigger and bigger. Then finally when it's getting smaller a bit, I ran to the bus stop. Ran and ran. Reached the bus stop drenched. =/ Poor me. But soon, my bus arrived! yeah. Everyone in the bus was like looking at me. I just bath. LOL. A kind lady even offer me a packet of tissue. So nice of her. =))) Luckily, there is a warm side of the world. People in the bus will kind. Some offered seats to elderly people. This is a good sign. I feel so warm. =D
Today is 31th of dec 2005. Tomorrow will be a new year, 2006. So what is my resolution? Haven't think of one. I want to be happy and strong. I hope you will be happy too. =)

Cannot touch, cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss
Cannot have each other
Must be strong
And we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave
And we must go on
Must not say what we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you

Must be brave
And we must be strong
Cannot say what we've know all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away from all of the memoris
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you when you are gone

How can I? :'(

I'd rather

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
You said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

An then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine.

I'd rather have bad times with you
than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm
than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

Who holds my heart.
Will you?

Christmas

It's over! Christmas is over.
Same for us?
My mind is in a haze.
I can't focus well.
I am simply lazy to think anymore.
U're right.
It takes more.
Frankly speaking, I have to admit that I never think of the future. But i know that relationship is not all days honeymoon. It takes alot of commitment. And I ignored your signal. I just care too much for myself. I am.. Selfish. I shouldn't hold you back when you can find someone even better than me and more committing than me. But.. I was really hoping that I can change for the better, change everything. Without thinking how to? How to.. Change? I am at the loss of words now. Is my feeling fighting against my own thinking now? I guess I am a feeler more than a thinker. Yaa.
I am not that hurt as last time. I just don't feel like crying anymore. It's tired to cry. Guess I am learning it well? I just feel so tired. Feel so dead. I am back to the don't know what to do stage. And i need someone there to guide me. =S
Sigh. Don't throw away the box. =X I will miss it.
What should I do now?
I got no emotion and innovation to draw.

Why am I moving forward when I know it's going to be a dead end?

Sighhhh.
Why have things turn out to be like this? :'(
Why when things get worst then we start to talk it out? Why must human being always wait till the last minute then they start to realize that actually they cherish each other a lot?
Why?
What is the root problem? What is/are the root cause(s)?
I don't know.
We get into relationship without knowing where it will lead us to. No one really know how a relationship will end up. And we are the one to decide it. To end it or continue. A strong relationship takes a lot of hard work. Commitment, compromise, care, share and time. It takes time to love someone as well as to be loved. Some time we love someone without getting anything in return. Love means living to make the other happy, not using each other for gain or satifaction, but giving without counting the cost, sometimes at great sacrifice.
In conclusion, it actually takes a lot to love someone, a lot of courage.
So why not make it better?
Scream.
No more i don't know this words.
Hearts may change.
Will you?
I promise for the better.

I heart feiry.

Bells..

Jiggle bells.. Jiggle bells.. Jiggle all the way~
Christmas is coming! WEee! Will i get MORE christmas present this year? Better not to think so much, or else I will make myself disappointed again.
=)
I haven't find anything to give him. howwwww? Days are getting nearer! *panick
Bag? Wallet? Sneakers? What to buy?
*ponders
Just gotten my attachment result. And I got the job. But.. I don't know how to go. LOL. This is another worry. Hopefully everything go well. Yeah yeah!
Just finished 1 project, which is SA. LOL. Learn alot. Bird flu and a lot of useful information. =) Great job guys.

I love my peers.
Hug.