I..
Feel stress too.
Not only you feeling it this way.
Love is not suppose to be stressful nor pressurize.
I don't feel like doing anything.
Just too tired to carry on.
I can't even think for myself, let alone think for you.
I am too childish, stupid and clumsy.
We're two worlds apart.
Deeply..
Hurtful..
Meaningless..
I am sorry..

Lets stop..

+New Year+

Hello!
Happy New Year!
I am not satisfied with my hong bao. =X
So little. Getting lesser and lesser each day.
Went out with alvin today. Didn't go to river hong bao in the end. We went to visit larry's house. And his mum gave us $10 each! And gave his gf $40! So good. LOL. I think my relatives are all stingy people? =X Anyway, it's just a meaning of new year.
I drank alcohol. Wooo! I am not drunk! Never will be. =X haha.
I feel I let copycat down?
Feel so bad of disturbing him when he's gambling.
Alway online late. And he offline. Sorry cat.
I called out of no where. Alway like this. =X
Am I too strict to people?
Am I irritating when I am asking question?
=/
I am dense?
That is why I wanted to know more?
Guess so.

Smile more! =)

+Sweet+

Some of the best things in life are for free.
Find a guy, who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

The you in the past will do this. But what about the present?
Thoughts.

Anything but ordinary.

+Reunion+

Eaten my reunion dinner with my family members. =)
Feel so good!
Well.. Affairs of the heart....
Let nature take its course. =)
Why make myself upset when I can enjoy?
Give some thought to it.
I can be more happy!
Cheers to everyone.
Smiles.
Memories is alway memorable.
Life shouldn't get hold back by memories.
Else there will be no improvenment at all.
So great year to everyone!
Hugg.

Merry new year! =)

Feel good after having dinner together. Weee! Love my classmates. =)
Cheers~
Bought a skirt at collage today. In the end, I made mel they all wait for so long.
Sorry bro. =/ hugg.
Seriously, I don't know what to do. My heart belong no where. I just want to be loved. I feel so tired of crying in one corner. I feel so lonely at time. I feel so insecure. I don't like the way u answered my questions. I don't like the silence in the phone. Attachment is coming. There won't be any more time left for me. Your reaction is making me mad at times. I just want to run away. Just like how you did to me. I just need somebody to be there for me.
Somebody.
Tell me that you need me and I will be there.
Maybe I am a bad girlfriend afterall.
I just don't want to get involve in any relationship.
Don't hurt me.
I will cry.
I don't understand at all.

Emotionally unstable.

+Hearts+

Complicated heart.
Feeling will change.
It may be just a jolly moment.
It's a mistake.
Don't make me fall for you.
I am indecisive.
I want to hurt no one.
Even though I need someone to be there.
I am continue to be strong.
Continue to be independent.
Continue to walk on.
Continue to pretend.
Just let me be.

I am crazy.

Ton

Ton at my friend house yesterday to do a BIG project. Sleep for 1 or maybe 2 hours? Do the documentation at around 5 or 6am. LOL. so fun doing project together. We joked and slacked. In the end we rushed. Staying over is fun. But more girls next time please? =X I feel insecure. LOL.
But they showered me with care. hahahaha Love u guys. Even though I didn't contribute much. =/ Hugg. Copycat was so hyber yesterday. Everyone was dead. And he still down there talking talking, jumping around. LOL. Act cute. whahahaha! Behaving like a kitten. haha.
Skipped PM lesson today. Was vey tired. Sorry copycat, can't go home with ya. Anyway u got kian min. LOL! Or u wanted to go home with someone else? erhem. =X
Slept for quite long. End up never go out instead. =/ When i woke up, the first thing i did was to look at my handphone. I thought there will be miss call or sms. But there aren't his. =/ I didn't know what to do. Ps me the second time. Sigh. But anyway there will alway be a next time to go out. Tomorrow will be better.

Hopefully.

+hello+

Hello to my new friend who is viewing my blog now.
=.=
Accompany this lonely Copycat home.
Feel as if i am escorting a child home. =XX
What am I thinking huh?
Took 151 from np all the way to hougang interchange. Dots.
I must be insane. Oh noo.. Must be too tired to make sense.
LOL.
Anyway he showed me around hougang. Shop houses. And I discovered something. There is an auto door at the hougang shopping mall! haha. At such place, to think that there is auto door.
I ate tako! Octopus balls. I dropped one. And that silly person took it with his hand. PIG. =X So silly.
Took nel mrt home. And a stalker stalk me into the mrt! =X
So silly yet cute. bth. Never see such a guy before. hahahaha! indeed is COPYcat.
Still feeling quite exhausted. Feeling very heaty.
Feeling sick.

Praise the lord.

Ponders

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolth of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could meant
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

How long are u going to run?

+Rainy day+

The rain continues for days.
Why is it so? Winter?
It's a good weather to sleep and slack.
I am beginning to go back to my bad habit. Sleeping in class! F5.
i just feel so bored. =/
Feel so tired after school tis few day.
As if I had not been resting for days.
Or is this growing old symptom?
=X
Is this what happened to park?
LOL.
I miss feiry.
I want outing. =)
Ya.
Did something extremely stupid today.
I broke 3 violin's fine tuner by sitting on it.
This show how heavy and stupid I am.
=X
Thanks to me, this is the BIG new in club house today.



It's amazing, isn't it? 4 fine tuners, now left 1.

I get down on my knee and pray.

Loneliness

I am still not use to the feeling of staying at home.
Used to go out with you.
Even through, we didn't talk that much when we meet, I still love the feeling of be out there with you.
But now, I got to stay at home. Nowhere to go.
Sigh.
Where are you? TT
Why didn't you msg me at all?
Sad.
For the whole day, I have been mapling and going to piano class.
There is nothing much for me to do.
You have been treating me cold.
Much colder than I expected.
So different from the past Alvin.
Very different.
What's going on?
Am I still dreaming?
Somebody tell me, please.
TT
Love, me.

I pray.

Thoughts

I want dress!
Ohh myyy.. I want the pink dress. I look nice! *wink
LOL! It's cheap too. Only about 45bucks! Buy for me, someone?
Have been feeling low since yesterday. It means alot?
It's your attitude. Give me an answer. Please. It's hurtful.
Tell me the truth. Will you?
If you want to hurt me, just hurt me once and for all. Or cherish me.
Think about it. =)
Thank you. =)

Time limits : 20th Floor.

I, tear.

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away?
There's no one like you
You speak to my heart
Its such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I've got to choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let u go, I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know if I let you go?

If I let you go.