+wo hui lai le+

WooHoo~
I'm back from my camping. Finally, after 5days 4 nights camping, I'm feeling very worn out. But overall the camp is quite a nice one. whahahaha.. We did a friendship dance during the last night which is yesterday night. Haha. I'm the first dancer which means I got to move around and dance with other second dancers. haha. Fun. I get to hold a lots of guys hands leh. whahaha. At the same time also got to hold girls hands lah. I held Wei Qiang's hands leh! whahahaha. Canoe vice captain leh. whahaha. I also held jonathan's hands, Tian le's hands and Alvin's hands. haha. I like the dancing the most. So fun! Jocyceline, are u jealous? whahaha U should attend the dance. haha. Hmm yesterday didn't sleep well, only sleep for about three hours, because last night le. Everyone was so enthusiastic about playing games. So we went over to the guy's room to play game, as the dorm is more bigger. I played the story teller game, with characters : polar bear, civilian and wise man. Quite fun at first, but as I played and played, I'm feeling more and more tired. So I stop playing at about 4am? Think so. Then I sat on a empty mattress and day dream. haha. Why are Jeremy they all always vote for jonathan to be kill. Jonathan looks so innocent to me. hahaha. Then after a while, Alvin came over to accompany me. He taught me how to play the guitar, how to identify those keys and strings. Then he also play to me the songs he practiced for the family concert. Hao hao ting. I like the piece, 'Can't help falling in love with you'. Although he only play the bass, but already quite nice. Plus his singing. Woooo~ He's quiet a nice guy. haha. Jocyceline said his eyes look like her neighbour eyes. haha. Are u interested in him? If I will to comment anything about the camp, I will complain about the bed. haha. I keep on telling the first Jeremy that the bed is too hard to sleep onto. Whenever he asked about how's the camp, I'll definitely comments about the bed. haha. *Yawn* getting tired, very tired. Family concert is coming, Npstring will be busy practicing. Got to work very hard to get the keys and sound right. A lot of the keys is out of tune. Oh my, I'm so nervous. Way to go.

+Can't help falling in love with you+
Wise man say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For i can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

+Thoughts+

I can't cry. Or should I say, I don't even know how to cry anymore? I had fogotten how to cry. My tears no longer flow out from my eyes. Because my heart is bleeding, that it has make me too pain to cry for help. I lost myself in your shadow.
In love..
It doesn't matter whether who will take the role of a guy or a girl.
It doesn't matter how much time u spend with each other.
When two person are deeply in love,
it is intoxicated.
When hatred filled the heart,
it will easily break the heart.
The most miserable thing in life is to keep on waiting for the person that can never be yours.
The most foolish person in life is not to be brave enough to tell him/her that you love him/her.
The hardest thing to do in life is to watch the one u loved, love the other person.
Be contented because u might never know when u will be losing what u have.
Never take someone for granted, the person close to your heart and soul.
Because u might wake up one day to realize that a diamond is lost while u're busy gathering stones.

+Camping Time+

Yawn~
So boring at home. Always scolded by my dad and he will start throwing things at my lappy. Oh my, please loh. So childish. Some more I'm so old le, I know what I'm doing. Is it wrong to play online game? Please piss off man. I'm so irritated by his nagging. I really got nothing to do ma. Then U want me to do? Find a job? U think I don't want to? U think it's very easy? Oh my... I think I'm going nuts. Luckily next week I won't be at home. whahaha. Going to enjoy my camping in school. Guys, must miss me hor. I'll miss u all de. >.<

+Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars+

+Nothing+

Nothing much to say. All day laze at home and rot. Play ro~ ^^ fun sia. haha. After that incident, I really don't know what to say. Fear grows within me. Emotionless. At first hatred filled me. But after alone for sometime, I discovered that I had no right to object what u're doing, no right to tell u what to do. If u really blocked me, I really got nothing to say. I won't blame U. U're still my friend. Since now, u're in a relationship, just wish u good luck bah. Yao jia you! Take good care. Anything need my help just message me.
+To understand it all was to forgive it all+

+Sentosa outing+

whahahahahaha..
Today T11 went to sentosa~ whoohoo. Only seven of us went lah. haha not all. Such a pity that there is no sun today. So Yee Sheng is still that white? hahaha. Don't worry, there will still be a next outing in sentosa. Coming soon. Please stand by. haha. Didn't get to tan as well. Raining a few minute after we got into palawan beach. we play "monkey" in the sea. Quite fun. then Joc, June and me begin to strip? hahaha.. Not really. just took off our clothes, of course we are wearing bikini inside lah. DiaoZ~ haha. Show off our figure. hahaha. no lah. I got no figure to show. Flat like airport. haha must drink more papaya milk shake le. hahaha I feel so high? Must be the volka effect lah. See lah. Let a young kid like me drink so much alcoholic. haha. I prefer weiwah buy de alcohol leh. Is it volka lime? Taste more like soft drink. haha Not much thing we did at sentosa. Because of that stupid raining lah. Just leave sentosa by about 4pm? Think so. On the journey out, I think I drop my dad's digital camera pouch on the bus. So unlucky man. Some more is not my digital camera leh! Oh my.. Start panicking and look all over the place. So well of course didn't managed to find it. Then went to parklane to play pool. haha. All xiao didi down there lah. My favourite? hahaha. No way man. Not going to like xiao didi anymore. So immature. haha. Then after that went to PS for dinner, the grilled chicken was nice at the food court. U all should try it. Well, of course I didn't forgot about my dad's camera pouch. After dinner, went to Song brother and brought a digital casing. So expensive leh!! It costs me $17. oh my.. I'm penniless now. haha. Sigh. Some more my dad don't like it. Oh my.. He doesn't accept the casing. Waste my money leh. Feel so heart pain! My $17! It's my one day outing allowance leh. SobSob..
Hmmm.. I really thought about it for a long time. I'm really not suitable for relationship. I'm not going to blam u anymore. I'm forgiving u and forgiving myself. I'll not think about our past as often as before. I'll not tell u I still like u alot anymore. I'll not say anything that offence u anymore. I'll not write about u as much as possible. All this while I had been very unhappy and depressed about it but now, I finally release what is inside my heart. Here I am to say that: ' I'm really happy for u, to found the person who u really like so much. I really hope that we can be best friend. All I hope for is just best friend and that will be happy for me. Because if U're happy with her, I'll be happy for u too. I'll feel the happiness too. I wish u the best of luck. Must try harder to win her heart hor. Yao jia You! Wo hui zhi chi ni de. One more thing, my instinct tells me that ur computer is not spoil. Think u block me in ur msn bah. Hmm.. If this is the case, I really got nothing anymore to say. Is there any misunderstanding between us? I really can't afford to lose this friendship between us. We're purely friends. ' Yup. This will make both of us more comfortable. ^^
+Hatred will only makes a person miserable+

+coincidence+

Yawn~ Yesterday sleep at alomst 5am. haha. Play ro, train like hell. Finally my base level is level 60 le, as for job is only level 45. But I change my job to assassin at 45. Lazy to train anymore. So difficult leh. Today saw ur friends again! Oh my.. So coincidence? Really so qiao. Happened that when i'm with TriaLz, I saw ur friend, kamuza, or what. Dots! He thought I'm TriaLz's gf. Oh my god. Wei.. Are u avoiding me or what? How come this few day never see u online? What happened to u? Are u okay? Think I'm gonna sms u tonight bah. Quite worry about u. haha. Ni zhe zhi zhu zhong shi ran ren dan xin.
Brought a violin just now. Guess how much it costs? Quite expensive man, it costs $315 for the violin. haha. Of course my mum pays for it lah. Where can I get that sum of money? I need a job man. Now having my holiday, feel so boring at home, must do something so that I won't be that free to think too much. Yup. Job~~~~~~~~~ Then at cristofori, there is this guy playing piano so well. Some more very smooth. I hear until I feel so inferior. He played Ou de yang- gu dan bei ban qui. Hao hao ting. Zhen de hao xi huan ta de qui! haha. He looks young. Like my age? haha Hope to have this kind of boyfriend, so that I can get to hear his playing everyday? But he is so tall. About 180cm? Or maybe because I'm short? haha. Quite excited about this coming tuesday, T11 going to sentosa. hahaha. Yeah! Feel like buying a bikini leh, but I'm broke le. Must plan my budget well or else I'll be left with no money on tuesday. Ya. Cya. Miss u.

+waiting for u+

Hmmm.. Today was a great day for swimming? haha. Meet f2 at 11.30am but went swimming in the afternoon at about 12pm? That was when the pool was just open. Swim around for about 1hour plus then due to jocyceline feeling cold, we got out of the pool and went for a bath then went off. Wahhhh... I'm darker le. haha Gosh. My body has two colors now. So funny. My hands are more darker than my legs. How come? hahaha..
This two days never see u online, busy playing ur ro or ton at ur friend house? haha kinda miss u leh. zhen de xiang ni. Did i talk too much that u're avoiding me? haha hmmm.. Few day ago I met your friend in ro. haha guess what he said? "Are u supreme #17?" I was shocked. haha. I just reply nope. Guess because my nick is SuPreMe, then he thought I'm u bah. Play acro leh. See ur friend is playing too leh. Play leh~ haha. Miss ur scolding leh. Wo shi zhu cai xi huan ni? hahaha just kidding. Faster come online and quarrel with me! haha don't make me worry hor. xiang ni. xiang ni. xiang ni. Zai deng ni.

+Life has ending, Love doesn't+

+Love+

LOVE, Like RAIN,
can nourish from above,
drenching couples with a soaking joy.
But sometimes, under the angry heat of life,
love dries on the surface and must nourish from below,
tending to its roots,
keeping itself alive.

+If one day+

Hiya~~~~
Today went to watch movie with T11. haha.. Actually not the whole class, only eight of us, including me. We went to lido to watch Wimbledon. That movie is quite interesting. It's about two tennis people who fall in love at first sight. Quite romantic. It's quite exciting at the end of the movie. The male actor is competing for the championship. Well, guess u guys should know the answer. It will alway be the male leading actor be the champion. haha. Then we went to far east to take neoprints. Si samuel. Hate him leh. Draw my mouth until like this. So ugly. haha. Then melvin can't be see, guess murgesh is too huge in size le. haha. Nevermind, we still got next time. But overall the photo taking session is quite fun. Yeah man! haha. then after that went to play pool. Quite fun, enjoy it. Even through long time never play pool le. This is the second time I'm playing pool le. Still got abit unstable and having difficulties. This time, we f4 had broke record le, the latest time we went shopping together. only 6pm plus lah. haha. We are good kids. =P
Hmmm... What should I say about u? What I should say, I already say. But I think whether I had said or not, it won't has any effect at all. If one day, I suddenly disappear, will u message me and concern about me? To u, i may be just a simple friend of yours. But to me, U're not just a simple friend of my. Am I too greedy? Maybe I am. I'm learning to be content. Ya, should be content. Wo men shi hao peng you. Hmm.. Your display picture really very sweet and nice. I want it~ haha. But I shall not force u. It's your choice. Your decision. Sigh. I'm a loser. Let it be. Let it be. Let the rain fall and wake my dream.
[ love is not an on off lightbulb, that U can on or off anytime ]
This is those neoprints that we took. haha. Funny right? No comments about my lips hor. If not..... U're dead meat. hahaha.

+cherish U+

I am so bored today. Wonder how am I going to spend my holidays. Gotta rot at home. Can't play computer for the whole day, or else at night I can't use my computer. Then cannot chat with U. Sigh. Oh my... I'm so hua chi again. haha. Jocyceline there all lah, make me think of ke qiang. haha. How about u guys go there and cut ur hair again? Then I can get to see ke qiang again? *sheepish giggles* haha. I want his picture leh. Who can help me get? haha. *still dreaming* Gosh.. I'm insane le. Dream until like this. Please wake me up bah. haha
This morning thought about many things. Then read my yesterday blog, discover that I don't even understand what I am talking about. haha. Oh well, guess yesterday not in good mood to blog and I'm so childish to be mad at U for being concern about me. I'm such a noob! Sorry ya. I'm so immature. Didn't mean any offences. Hope U won't take it to heart about what I said yesterday. Hmm.. If U have any problem, must share with me de hor. I can't promise to help U solve it, but I promise to be there for U, listening to U quietly no matter what. Human is always such a fool. Only after losing, then they realize how valuable it's to them and start to cherish it. But often it may be too late. Well, cherish everyone that U have, because U might not know when U're going to lose them. If that time, I want U to stay by my side, will the outcome still be the same? Xi huan ni~
+Love is something that U can't afford to play mind games+

+unfolding the truths+

Today a lot of things happened. In the morning went back to Ngee Ann for npstring, violin test. I did badly for my sight reading, but the rest quite okay for me. Hopefully I can pass the test. So that I get to play other piece of songs. *Waiting for that day to come* Then after the test, jocyceline and me went out together, meet shu fen, then go bugis shop for bags. haha. Then to orchard. Shop around for Jocyceline's vintage skirt. Today everyone also got brought something except me. Keep on looking at shoes. haha. So nice leh. Love ballet shoes design the most! haha. Then we went back home at around 5pm plus.
sSigHhhhhhss.... So sad after reading June blogger. I can really understand how she is feeling, I had been through before too. But seeing the guy that u really like, asking for other girl number, is totally a tearful thing. Sigh. Some more something untoward happened to my best friend. I'm even sadder. Cried when I hear his story. So sad! Why why why? But he still seems so cheerful, why is he so strong compare to me? I asked him, "are u acting strong in front of us?" He said no. He forgot everything le. I don't believe him. I know he was very hurt inside. But I just can't find the right word to console him. Just know how to cry for him. His inner feelings go unspoken, unnoticed, unloved. I feel so sorry as a friend, can't even help him. I'm so useless, a good for nothing person. Suddenly feel that u're so noble compare to me. U're the one that know my feelings and led me to the lighted path when it was dimmed. I'll be there for u, my friend, I promise.
Hmmm.. Ke qiang is just a guy that I had crush on. It's not like. It's just a different kind of feelings. Until now, U still need me to spell out for u, who I really like? U knew the answer yourself. You xi shi zhen de ke yi gen ni shou ma? Don't lie beneath your teeth. I'm not the one who U really like. Don't be good to me because U feel that u hurt me before. This is not the feeling I'm looking for. Maybe I'm acting childish or what, but I really very care about how u see me as. Zhe gen yang zi hao you zhi bah? Can't be help. Too emotional le, even my friend also shock that I crying when he told me the news. When can I stop being childish? Sigh. Miss ya.
+Some things are better left unsaid when u knew the answer+
I found this meaningful and touching paragraph in june's blog. Paste it up to share with u all. Really sadden by this after reading it.
"If you see me walking the road with someone else, It's not because I like his accompany.
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time, It's not because he pleases me.
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.
If you feel me falling with someone new, It's not because I love him.
But because you're not there to catch me fall.
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere.
I too don't know where the road is going.
Are we gonna cross each other's path?
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had?
Don't let me walk with him, It's you I want to walk with.
Don't let me talk of him, It's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him, It's you I want to fall in love with."

+Am I+

Oh my... Today I have to wake up so early to go school for violin practice. Sob~ Cannot have a bit more sleep, some more yesterday I slept so late. Then after the practice we went to meet shu fen to go toni&guy to cut hair as jocyceline meet an appointment le. haha.. I see ke qiang again. He is wearing white and black stripes T shirt today. Still giving people those sweet and gentle feeling. haha.. The way he smiles is so cute. cutie~ We just say a few words to each other. Then when we are leaving the saloon, actually I wanted to say good bye to him de. Some more he so near me. But then he looking at the magazine, so I never say. But I think he knows that I want to say good bye to him. Sigh. Nothing interesting. haha. Hmmm.. Feel so excited when he talks to me. How come? Am I falling for him? Well.. Better not. He is just a guy who cut my hair and dye my hair. I'm just a customer to him. Nothing special. Gosh.. I'm attracted to gentle guy. hahahaha.. He really is a very gentle person. Believe that he has the quality to make a girl happy. Man.. I'm really insane le. Help me F3! haha I must be royal de. Must deng ni de. haha.. Jocyceline and june are not so happy with her new hair cut. Maybe because they are not use to her fringe. But look cute leh. Come let me pinch ur face. hahaha
Sometimes U make me feeling so tired and fed up, but sometimes u make me feel so happy and warm. Hmmm.. Are u sure u really want to play Acro? Or u want to download Acro is because I forcing U to download? No idea. Am I being too sensitive again? haha.. Tomorrow got violin test, pray for me to pass. haha. Miss ya.

+I am nobody+

Whahahaha~ So long never write blog le. Exams are finally over le! I'm so happy. The holidays ahead of me seem so exciting. haha. Guess I'm really over excited le. haha. Yesterday feeling so stress about the CSA exam. After doing the paper, I cried when I left the hall. So stress. sigh. Don't even think I can pass the paper. The questions were so difficult, I don't even know how to answer them. Mcq itself is already so difficult. Please kill me. I almost got all the answers wrong by comparing with park. Please be kind to me.... sigh. Today FS paper is quite difficult too, but not as bad as CSA paper. At least FS paper I still know how to do about three questions. haha.. The rest no idea le. Question 3c is so tough. Oh man.. We didn't even learn that before. I was like staring at the paper for quite long before I moved on to other questions. But at least I'm not stuck with the first question. Glad about it.
Well, at last, our class went out to eat together. Although not whole class, but majority of them. We ate lunch at pizza hut. So fun! Samuel keeps on saying funny things. But sometime the way he says it, is quite offensive. After lunch went shopping again. Only the four of us as the guys want to go play CS. haha. Enjoy it. Brought a pair of shoes. But I think looks abit like my previous silver shoes from POA. haha. But this shoes is more cheaper compare to that POA's shoes. Much more. haha. Hmmm.. We went took neoprint, da tou zhao. We didn't prepare what actions to do, therefore quite boring for posting the same post. haha. But I like the neoprint, at least I look okay in it. whahaha. New hair cut, new styling, new beginning. haha Am I crazy? Maybe, study too much le. haha. I need a big break! Give me a kit-kat.
So excited about tomorrow. I'm accompanying Jocyceline to cut her hair. What should i wear tml?Can see ke qiang again le. Hao xi fen! hahahaha.. No lah, just kidding de. Only interested in u. Hmmmm.. Today chat with U again. So happy. Oh my, I guess I'm really over excited le. U really need to give a thought for ur future leh. I mean it. U can't be playing basketball for the rest of ur life. Think about ur future, who U wanna be, what U wanna be? At the same time, I keep on wondering are U really worth it for my waiting? Already going on to the 3rd month. It's still the same feeling. Hmm.. "I don't mind standing in the pouring rain just to see U smile." remember this sentence? It means I don't mind going through all the hardship just to see u happy. Even the person u choose is not me. I need to know ur decision. What's on ur mind? Tell me whether should i continue waiting? When will the angel i have been hoping for come into my life? I wonder.

F4 de pictures. Neoprints~~~~~~ hahahaha. one more, two more, and more and more and more! Love ya~

+lady night+

HoOoRaYy
Yesterday finally meet up with my Secondary School friends. Well, we went to Mache at heeren, to celebrate one of my friends, Agnes's birthday. I was late for the dinner, as I went to citylink there to buy Wan Jun's belated birthday present. Brought something cute for her. haha last minute. Thought I'll be the most late comer, turn out that Pc was the most late comer. haha. See lah, go dye your hair lah. I ate a few thingy only, soup, one slice of pizza and two scoop of ice-cream. The foods there are so expensive! Once u see the price of it, u don't feel like eating anymore. haha Am I over exaggerating? Some more it's my friend treating us, bu hao yi shi. We seem to be ordering a few dish only, but the bill turned out to be $126bucks. More than my friend budget. Luckily she used her visa card, or else we will end up down there washing plates. haha.. Then the birthday girl had to rush to airport to send her aunt back to New Zealand. So sad, only spent one hour plus having dinner with her then she had to go off le. We took a lot of picture in Mache. *Hope to see the picture soon*
Hmmm.. Then we went to take lot and lot of neo prints. hahaha.. Neo print queens~ All of my friends said I look good in this new hair style. haha Really meh? Pc said I looked more mature when I waxed up my hair and the color look good. I'm always mature de, only u don't know. As for the color, I think it's still a bit too light. Not used to my hair color. I think ting hair style looks great leh. Like her hair style, suit her, quite stylo. But she find her fringe too short, maybe she never cut her fringe that short before. hahaha.. Have a great night with the ladies. Hoping to meet u girls when the exams are over. Then we can go shopping like hell. haha..
[ Happiness doesn't depend on outward conditions. It depends on inner conditions. It isn't what you have or who you are . Or where you are or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about it ]

This is the so call "Birthday Cake". haha.. Mache cake very expensive so we only order five slices of cake with different favour.


Here are some of the neo print that we took yesterday. haha.. So fun! Lot of postures.

+dead meat+

What the hell?! I'm dead meat le. I don't think I can pass Psp1. How? So difficult leh. Even through I did cheat. But it's still difficult! It was hell for me. I spend so much time on the first question that I think I only left 15mins for the second and third question. Oh my...... I can't understand the question at all. I can't think well, panic leh. My mind went blank. Just anyhow scribble through. Sigh. It was a disaster man! Exams are going to make me sick. So sick~ Play too much meh meh game le. "How many meh meh jump over the wall?" hahahahaha.. This was what june repeating in class. We were all playing game when we were supposing to revise for the test. Indeed, I finally understand what does hard work pays off means. Sigh! But all the guessing games are so interesting! Hao wan hao wan, wo xi huan. hahaha..
Today meeting my hairdresser, Ke qiang. He's so good leh. Wait for me since 6pm till 7.10pm. So embarrasing. Hahaha.. See lah, talk to f2 and shancai talk until forgot the time le. Laughing like hell, "Bang bang bang! Who die?" hahaha.. Then Ke qiang and me meet at Dhoby Ghaut mrt station there, he passed me the wax then i gave him the money. The wax is so expensive! $28 leh. A big hole in my pocket to buy such a thing. Almost can buy the slipper i wanted and it's only $29.90. The smell of the wax really smell like bubble gum. Delicious, yummy. Because of me he's late for his dinner with someone. haha.. Guess who? Think is his girlfriend bah. So sorry to make u late for ur date. Zhen de dui bu qi. He smsed me about the wax, then tell me he is eating in a mexician restaruant. So good! I also want to go there and eat. Be his girlfriend surely very fortunate de. He's such a good guy. Too bad he's attached le. No more second thought. I like the way he dressed, like poly student, quite stylo. Haha.. Okay, enough of Ke qiang le. Hmmm.. Chat with u today, quite surprise that u'll miss me too. How can I believe u? haha.. Promise me to come np hor. It's a promise between us. haha.. Xiang jian ni~
+No man is worth a woman's tears. The only one who's worth her tears is the one who knows he could but would never, ever make her cry+

Haha.. Here is two picture that we, the F4 took in class on Friday. We are all so crazy over pictures. So cool~ PictureS here we go.