Thursday, March 30, 2006

Title: What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]


"Awake, yet never truly alive, I seek valuation beyond reality"
Life is unfullfilling for you, and you aren't very fond of it. What you like is your own imaginative world, which can be your daydreams, stories you write or anything similar. You always prefer that before the actual life. To people you come off as quite lonesome, and you may wish you had more friends, but you are more of a hoper than someone who takes action. That is how you remain lonely. Or maybe you just don't find anyone who you can relate to. Inside you feel empty, like you are missing something important that you can't quite put a finger on what it is. Somehow you wish to be swept away from the normality and led into something extraordinary. This has yet to happen, and you keep on feeling dissapointed with the little that life has to offer. At least you continue to express yourself through art/writing/poems/daydreaming.

Quiz : What is your phrase
Taken at Quizilla.com

Sound so true

Wednesday, March 29, 2006


Here is my new version of logo.
But the coloring is not so nice. Perhaps I shall change again today. LOL.
My partner is back! Weeee! No more lunch alone! When I stare into his eyes, he remind me of alvin somehow. Alvinnnnn~ =X
I am bored. Find me things to do.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

cloudy day

My partner is NOT coming today. He got the MC for 2 days. That means.. Lunch alone!
Sigh. So sad. Eating lunch alone again.
I should eat western food for today, cheer myself up.
But.. the fate is against me! The western food owners haven't prepare to start their stall, therefore, I have to eat other food.
I decided to try economic rice (vegetable rice in chinese). Paid 2.50bucks for it, quite cheap and I got myself my favourite sotong with chilli. whahaha! Thought this could cheer me up but I was WRONG. Back to office happily. Open my packet of take away rice, ready to eat, there is a free gift that comes with the rice. Wooohoo! The auntie treats me so well. A hair in the rice. Sweat.
What happened to my luck?! TT.
Here I am, eating alone in the office.
Sadden.
Eating a packet of rice in a room with four walls facing me. Am I a prisoner?
Just that I don't need to wear uniform.
Sob.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Linn

'The greatest distance in the world is not birth or death. It's the one who stands in front of you yet you don't know she/he loves you.'

I am so bored until I design my own logo. Cool huh? =X whahaha. It's simple.

Raining day

My partner is not here today. Down with fever.
I am all alone in this room. Cold cold. Lunch ALONE.
So sad.
Today will be another boring day.
I shall read my storybook and do some web designing.
What should I eat today? Kfc or mac? *drools
Maybe 12 nuggets again? LOL. Jk.
My birthday is getting near! Wooohoo!
Presents presents! *hint
The sky is growing dark again. Raining soon?
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Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You'd better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do

You'll make it through


Sundae

I feel weird.
I feel like a living dead today. Perhaps yesterday slept too late.
Down on flu today.
I found out something today.
It's amazing kids are quite imaginative.
Saw a kid taking ez-link card as a camera trying to take pictures for her parents. And to think her parents posed too. I smiled.
I feel the warmness in them, as a family.
It makes me think back, all the times when I am sad. Who had been there for me. Etc.
Certain things I just don't feel like elaborate anymore.
Promises are meant to be carried out.
But sometime things will meant to be?
It's okay.
The smiles that I enjoy now.
Yes. Thanks new friend.
=)
perhaps one day I will be falling for you.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Week 3

It's going to be the end of week 3!
Hooray!
Means.. Next week will be week 4. And I will have 4 months left to go back to school.
Whahahaha. Can't wait to go back to school. Now everyday I am thinking of what to do in the office plus I got weird partner and I am his weird partner too. whahahaha! Weird project group we have. Everything seems so weird there. I seldom talk to him, that's why we got comunication problem. Sweat. I am too quiet. Whenever talk to him I will get nervous, cause he's too good in talking. This sounds weird. Anyway, I will try to improve in the situation. Because I need to do well in this IAP. I want good gpa. TT.
Got back our results. I want quite anxious to know how I did in my CP. Luckily I passed. Phew. Thanks to melvin! Bro, hugg! =)
Anyway, Lets take a look at my new phone camera. 2MPs is not that sharp.



Who kidnap the princess? =X


How boring can I be?



Me and min


That kappo!



Cow evolution

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Tuesday

Read this passage from the book(Tuesday with morrie) that I bought a few day ago. It's about a dying professor and an ex student of his.
"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love and to let it come in.
Let it come in.
We think we doesn't deserve love, we think if we let it in we'll become soft.
But a wise man named Levine said it right. He said, 'Love is only rational act.'"

=)

Monday, March 20, 2006

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask, I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world, what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection someone I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

Why must we all conceal, what we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me, I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

Friday, March 17, 2006

Is that we've been together much too long?
The answer many not be in black and white
We're always trying to prove who's right or wrong
And now we're giving up without a fight
I know when you're gone
I wish I'd held on

So baby surrender to me
They'll be no holding back now
So baby surrender to me tonight

I don't want our love to cause you so much pain
If this is how it's gonna be I'll walk away
Oh, neither one of us should ever say goodbye
Let's forget about the past and who's to blame
Cause when this is all gone
We'll wish we'd held on

How could this love be in danger
That used to be so good, so right
To think that fate could make us strangers
Just hold me in your arms tonight

lemon.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

I am back at home.
Home seems to be the only place that I can find my warm.
Perhaps time will really make somebody forgot everything.
Is it true?
I'm feeling moody again.
Tell me anything u want. Don't ever keep quiet. Scold me if u like. Just talk to me.
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Sigh.
I like u. He likes me.
I found something familiar today.
Remember that time we were both watching windstruck at ur place? I got the tears song that is played in piano. So nice. How close we used to be.
sigh.
Take good care.
Hugs.

Tears.

Day 10

Oh man. Blog is having problem again.
I just blog it and the post is disappeared. Gosh. Kinda eerie.
Anyway, I can access to the internet in my company. Good news!
So I don't have to wait till I reach home and blog. *grins
I have also finished watching the 'Romance' vcd. The ending is expected. Just as like every fairy tale. When can I ever be the leading actress in a fairy tale? *blink
Now I begin my shopping experience.. My shopping incidents with xx yesterday.
Fun! LOL.
I make a fool of myself man.
Xx was late! Woohoo. Finally I am early. =X
Went to raffles place food junction to eat chicken rice. He stuffed me with chicken! 1 plate will usually cost around 3bucks but he buy two plate together so they gave us a plate of chicken which is 4bucks each person! Money..
Then after that went to look at the clothes in Espirit Whahhaaha! I found something nice! I want it too! There is this jeans that I liked. It's a fading light blue and its design is a quarter folding up jeans. Guess how much? 99.90bucks. Then I happened to see a white sweater! Gosh. It's fabulous to match with that jeans. =X It's also 99.90bucks. Whahaha! *hint hint My birthday is coming. Hahahaha
Then try on a red sweater. It's a two zips sweater. Quite unique. But I PREFER the white sweater more. Hahaha.
We went to our next stop, perlini! Didn't fully notice the necklace at raffles place there. Only notice that it was 110bucks. Gosh. I want it so badly that I keep on telling xx that my birthday is coming. As I wanted to take a look on how the necklace is, we decided to went to suntec. On the way there, I bought the mirror metal box sweets. Whahahha! Limited design leh. =X wanted to get the high maintenance design instead but I thought about it, lush is better huh. LOL. Envy me ma xx? LOL.
Back in perlini, looking at my desire necklace. Now I can tell that it's a two piece crown necklace. Very unique indeed. But too expensive leh. I even asked the sale assistant is there any purchase of only 1 piece of the necklace. =X I tried the necklace on, but it doesn't match well with my collar shirt. Guess shouldn't wear collar shirt with that. Should have wear a sleeveless shirt. Then xx said, he wanted to touch the necklace too because it was quite expensive. Dots. Got the impulsive to run out of the shop when I am wearing the necklace, then let xx pays for me. Whahahahhaa! Poor friend. =X After we got out of the shop, I suddenly remember that I got this 'How well do we score' card from perlini in my bag, so I tell xx to pass it to the girl as I feel that I am quite troublesome. Little do I know that the dateline for submitting the card was already over. Gosh. And I pass it to the sale assistant. She give me a confused expression and told me that the card was to submit before 31th of march 2005. 2005.. Which was supposed to be last year! F5. I was so embarrassed that I keep on laughing at how silly can I be. LOL. Xx also feel that I am a noob. LOL. Whahahaha! But it was fun doing stupid things. That's why I am always doing silly stuff. =X Went to carrefour to buy corn flake. In the end bought coco krunch. Yummy. Spend quite long time in carrefour. The towels there have nice color! Oh my.. I like the brown color strips with heart design at the corner. The orange, yellow and white strips also not bad. Gosh. Many many. Got influenced by shufen to look at towel. LOL. Bought sushi, coco krunch, milk, chestnut drink and dried apricot. Money can be spend easily just by buying those items. It costs 10.95bucks. I am broke again! So sad. When can I get my hp? My necklace? My clothes? My bag?
On the way to mrt station, xx said he wanted to buy that mirror box sweets. But the push cart was closed, so he had no choice but to wait till next time. =X
Fighting with xx in the mrt station. Actually we have been fighting since we met at raffles place. He was taking revenge. ROAR. We missed two trains. Gosh. Reached home about 11.50pm. And I have to bath and wait for my hair to dry. In the end, I sleep while my hair is still wet. Too tired. Used too much energy.

+) :( :'(

Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is man's all. For God will bring every work into judgement, including every secret thing, whether good or bad.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Day7

Today is a boring day!
Nothing to do. Sleep in the afternoon.
Sigh.
Life is not good.
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Here is a email I received. Guess it was quite cool. My birthdate is from maple tree. =)
So what is urs?

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) -Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 -Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - Cypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Hornbeam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree
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Apple Tree (the Love) -- quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.
Ash Tree (the Ambition) -- extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.
Beech Tree (the Creative) -- has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economical, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).
Birch Tree (the inspiration) -- vivacious, attractive, elegant, friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.
Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, Likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, >industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.
Chestnut Tree (the Honesty) -- of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.
Cypress Tree (the Faithfulness) -- strong, muscular, adaptable, takes What life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Elm Tree (the Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.
Fig Tree (the Sensibility) -- very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, few sexual relationships, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.
Fir tree (the Mysterious) -- extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness After long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.
Hazelnut Tree (the Extraordinary) -- charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.
Hornbeam Tree (the Good Taste) -- of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.
Lime Tree (the Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before trying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, can become a complainer, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.
Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) -- no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.
Oak Tree (the Brave) -- robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of action.
Olive Tree (the Wisdom) -- loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.
Pine Tree (the Peacemaker) -- loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.
Poplar Tree (the Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.
Rowan Tree (the Sensitivity) -- full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.
Walnut Tree (the Passion) -- unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.
Weeping Willow (the Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves family life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Day6

A boy and a girl, the best of friends.
From elementary to high school from beginning to end.
Through all those years their friendship grew.
They both felt the same, but neither knew.
Each waking moment since the day they met.
They both loved each other sunrise to sunset.
He was all she had in her terrible life.
He was the one who kept her from her knife.
She was his angel, she made him smile.
Though life threw him curves, she made it allworth while.
Then one day things went terribly wrong.
The next few weeks were like a very sad song.
He made her jealous on purpose he tried.
When the girl asked, "Do you love her?" on purposehe lied.
He played with jealousy like it was a game.
Little did he know Things would never be the same.
His plan was working but he had no clue.
How wrong things would go, the damage he would do.
One night she broke down, feeling very alone.
Just her and the blade, no one else home.
She dialed his number, he answered, "Hello"She told him she loved him and hung up the phone.
He raced to her house just a minute too late.
Found her lying in blood, her heart had no rate.
Beside her was a note, in it her confession.
Her love for this boy, her only obsession.
As he read the note, he knelt down and cried.
Grabbed her knife, that night they both died.
She was found in his arms, both of them dead.
Under her note his handwriting said:"I loved her so, she never knew.
All this time I loved her too."
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Story of today.
Today I am late for work. First time ever since working. Gosh. All the clothes fault. =X
Time passes quite fast because my partner brought his korean 'Romance' vcd to work. And I watched it. Quite interesting. It was about a student falls in love with the teacher. And he said "Love doesn't consist of races. Age is just a digit."
Indeed age is not a matter to love. That's why more and more young adults dating guys who are in his 30s. That's the trend now. Perhaps. haha I found out something interesting about my partner. He loves romance movie alot. He will buy those korean, japanese and hong kong vcd to watch. Interesting huh? LOL.
Something more interesting happened..
I was watching this korean show until half way, I feel something on my leg. 1 glance, and I scream! Cockroach! A big disgusting cockroach was on my leg. Gosh. That's damn scary. A cockroach appear out of nowhere, scare the daylight out of me. Luckily my partner helped me to get rid of the cockroach. Thanks to him and my colleagues. =) Cheers.
How I wish I could get my pay earlier. I saw the date for getting my pay and it was like.. End of the new month somewhere around the friday of 3rd week? Man.. That's long.. But I am going to wait patiently. =) Money!

Home sweet home!

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Weeeee!
It's finally weekend!
Can't wait till next weekend again.
Work is getting stress.
Bored with nothing to do.
So I bring newspaper to work everyday. hahaha!
My complexion is getting worst.
Pimples popping out! GOSH. *Screams.
Skin sensitive again. Sob.
So many construction work around my office. Weather so humid some more. Plus I always eat tibits in the office. =X I need to take good care of my skin.
UGLY!
I need to drink more water.

Ugly me. =(

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Day 4

I feel stress.
I feel stress when my partner wanted an out.
So stress. Can you imagine that your partner say "I rather they don't pay me for the project than letting me wasting my time there." or "They can either pay me if i complete the project and they are satisfied about it." or "if they can let me have maybe 3days of working in a week."
Gosh. Can you ever do that to your partner?
I feel so stress when he mentions that. Plus he's outspoken, hardworking, helpful, eager to work and etc. Whereas I am lazy, stoner, quiet and etc. I feel pressurize when I am working with him. He's the one doing talking most of the time and I just keep quiet.
At time, there is not much thing for us to do. With two people in the office, when one person can handle the workload. The people there seems to like my partner a lot. Cos he's good in speaking english with them? He handle things well? That is the way church people are? Maybe they interact with lot of people that's why they are so social?
Sigh.
I am not clever nor social.
Sad.

Down.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Day2

Basically today is just another slacking day.
There is not much thing for us to do except do a documentation for every staff computer(system properties). Then we have to make a draft on how the current website is and what are the information that is missing etc. There is finally network connection, but the problem is.. We are only given intranet. Gosh. How can we survive for 5months? Oh man.
I am sorry my friend, I feel useless in being ur friend. I can't do anything to make you happy. I thought some day you will realise that we can actually be good buddy? I never want to make you upset nor want you to hate me. I am feeling stress. There is alway a border(line) for certain things. I know you want to make/see me happy. But somehow, things don't work out right for you. Patttttt~ How can a person lost the interest of liking someone by not seeing them? If this works, then why am I still like alvin? Love.. Grows not by looking at nor meeting them. It's a strange and beyond control thing. How can you ever control how much you are going to like/love that person? Sigh.
I.. am your good friend!
Don't be upset with me, can you?
=(
I am sick.
Very.

Goodnight everyone. Hug

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Expect the unexpected

I finally get to see my attachment place. But.. I still not sure how to get there. If by walking, it will take 30mins! Oh my gosh. Should have check out those buses to there. =( At least I know how to get there by walking. dots.
When to G2000 with xx and joc. Whahahaha! I got the 20% coupon from xx. WEeeeeee! Joc and I each bought a collar shirt for 47bucks after discount. Gosh. Expensive. Knew my mum will surely nags at me. F> cheap and good material skirt. Rush off for piano after that. I was late for 30mins!
Met my family after class. Was quite excited about it cause I thought I can get a nice handphone today. Tired using my dummy phone. I want smart phone! ROAR. I don't want to be dummy owner. TT As usual, bad things alway happened. The shop doesn't allow using the 300bucks discount coupon that my bro had. Oh gosh. Can't they just be a bit nice? I wanted a new phone so badly that I even heartache when I spend money. Sigh. When will be my turn to get a new phone? Unfair life I have.

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