Only human.

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness is something called a smile
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we're waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can't have a reason to run away
We've got to go, to that far away summer's day

If we find it tomorrow, we can't sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we've grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go forward, just a little further

As the rain clouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on

Kanashimi no mukou kishi ni
Hohoemi ga aru toiu yo

An incident.

Have u ever fall down when a good looking guy knock onto u?
Not only that, a story begin just like this?
He was fit, brown color hair, tanned skin, about 180cm.
He was wearing dull green T and jeans.
Gosh.. He's just so attactive.
He keep looking behind him, just in case his bus comes and he can run for it.
That moment came.
He saw, he rans and knocked onto me, I fell down.
Luckily I landed on my knees.
He quickly helped me up, now I could have a clear view of his features.
He apologised in his sweetest soft voice.
My heart was melted at that moment, thumping harder than it ever was..
How I wish I could be in that position forever.
After helping me up, I heard him say 'dammit'.
I felt guilty that I make him missed his bus.
But he said 'It's not ur fault. It's mine, I am too clumsy."
My face brighten up, just like a candle being lighted.
Dancing flame glowed in my eyes.
Yes Yes!
He asked for my number. Awww..
We exchanged numbers. I was so excited in my heart. It was racing against time.
Lastly, he smiled at me and wave me goodbye.
*High
Hopefully I can see him tomorrow.

Shall update again on this entry later.
=X

I truly understand.
Yes I do.
It's just the way it works sometime.
The fears in human being.
The doubts in life.
The committing in a relationship.
The promise of love.
The power of forcing.
The truth of reality.
Everything.
Life is short. Enjoy it.
Don't bother to make everyone around u happy, because u can't possible make everyone happy.
There will be disagreement and agreement.
It's the way u handle them all.

What will be will be.
What is yours will be yours. HOHOho.

Went back to school with xx today after working. //U alway say it's so wrong.
Seems to be missing school alot. //But there is nothing in this world 100% right.
I miss the 'exciting' and fun life we have in the class/canteen. //Have u ever ask urself, are u afraid of loving me?
I miss sleeping during lecture time. //Or u're giving up?
I miss eating with T11 for the cheap canteen foods. //Why can't it be the old good time?
I know I am cheapo, but eating outside of school compound really make me broke. //Somehow, it hurts.
But now, having attachment, I am afraid that I might have a high risk of getting C or D grade. //I finally understand how u used to feel.
And my partner doesn't seem to mind getting that kind of grade. //Am I really a teddy bear?
Gosh.. I am worry about my report. //Maybe I don't understand enough.
HOW? //Maybe I am still immature.
Please show me the light. //because my heart is sinking.

Not beating as sin2+cos2.

Dress!

Ehh..
The topic for today: Dress

I simply love this two dresses.. Please buy for me sweetie.. Joc.. >.<




Gosh.. I am in love with shopping, soon I will be broke. And there goes my holiday saving.
Temptation.. Awww..
Stop me!

Heels that I found on website a few weeks ago.


This last picture is the master piece. So elegant.. =X

Homework!

woohoo!
Don't think my attachment can get A grade liao. Sian. Mr Lam called us and told us that in order to impress the marker(s) we have to do something tougher, not just by creating website, we have to make use of what we learn in school. Like connecting to database, doing programming etc. GG. I should have choose the tougher IP, but due to my lazyness, I decided to go for one that doesn't need programming. End up killing myself and my grade. I don't want my GPA to be pull down by this IP. TT. Definitely NO WAY.
I need to save.
Mum said she is not going to give me allowance for the month july. GG. That means I have to start saving from now till July. And I want to go oversea for the 1 month holiday. GG. 3 months salary will be around 1.2k only! Then 450bucks on tioman trip, I am left with 750bucks. Plus I need to use my own saving for July. So sad.. Then phone bill to pay, other expenses (entertainment, shopping, enhancing IQ, improving looks & etc). This can costs me a BOMB.
SADDD.
I checked the currency for Ringgit. =X The exchanging rate is not bad. Going to check again tomorrow. I am doing my homework okay. Then I will be looking at maps around the island. LOL! I simply love tour. And Joc said "linn, u so kaisu, later cancel how." Wahh.. Cancel.. I will.. have other alternative for my holiday trip. =X LOL. She knows it.

Check the currency today!


I want my A so badly.
I want moolah too.
I want lots of thing to do for IP.
I just want to prove that I am not useless. I am useless useful.

Me: I feel cold
God: What is that feeling like? Do you mind if I tell other people you are cold.
Me: it's just so cold.
God: I am warm here.
Me: Can u give me warmness?
God: Why do you want it?
Me: I can't stand coldness?
God: What is stopping you?
Me: Nothing is stopping me.

Some entertainment by igod. LOL.
Talk to God.

I saw, I heard, I cried.
I felt, I touched, I cried.
I thought, I understood, I cried.
I don't need sympathy.
I stoned, I dreamt, I cried.
Why didn't u wait no more?
Why did u give up easily?
Am I really that cold?
It doesn't matter anymore. Not really that much.
I need time to think.
If one day I ever leave, will there be changes to everything? I doubt so.
I am strong.
Just that I don't believe anymore.

I beg no more.

I am feeling okay.
I will be happy.
I'll be fine.
I will be happy.
Why must words be contradicting?
I will be happy.
Why must love be contradicting?
I will be happy.
Why do people alway give up half way?
I will be happy.
Why do people cry when they are sad?
I will be happy.
Love will go to the one with the most patient.
I will be happy.
I am teddy bear with feelings.
I will be happy.
I am strong.
I will be happy.

I will be strong and fine. :)

Spree..

I have been so busy yesterday. VERY. Was keying in data as well as doing schedule for meeting stuff. And I got to practice hard on my piano, 1 more week to my internal exam. Die. Lacking of practices, everyday end work so late, where got time to practice? I'm extreme worry. :(
New items again.. Shopping spree again? :(
Which one should I buy?



Which one nicer? Top or the bottom shirt?

Went to bugis village yesterday with xx, in the end my mood swing and lead to selfish acts. =/ Sorry xx. :(
My faded blue jeans:


My black beads necklace:


My red color heels:








My vain poses.. I look mature now? =X
20 is such an irritating number. :(









Thoughts are making me crazy. :(

Wooo.. Just watched MI3 yesterday wtih XX! *winks, happy now? =X Good movie. 5 Thumb up for that movie. Exciting actions. This few day will be busy as we're given things to do. So say good-bye to surf the net task for the time being. But I still can't control the temptation of viewing those fashion clothings website. AWWW.. In only I am born rich, I will be titled as 'Shopping Queen'. Whahahahaha! Okay, time to upload some pictures.

This top look nice to me but at the same time, it looks like table cloth. So should I buy? Give me feedback at the tag. It's available in red or black color.



How about this simple diamond design T? It costs 20+bucks. How how?


I need more shorts. Especially those 3/4 pants. AWWWW..
JOC, here is ur birthday present. Please print the following picture out. LOL
Tada~

Like the shorts I gave u? Ahhh.. I knew u like it. whahahaha! HUGS!

To update on my afternoon entry, here are a few picture to add on.
As usual, necklace time. whahaha!

This is the first necklace I targetted on the website. Look so posh. Ahhhh.. When can I ever have such a necklace?


Then I saw something interesting. It's unique. A metal doll statue, interesting huh?










Here is a perlini's item that I forgot to upload the other time.


That's all for the pictures.
I am tired.

Far Away

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I needed to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing



Who was I to make you wait.
This song suit both of our mood.
:)

Dragon-fly

Ahhh.. Nice right? I love this a LOT! Can someone buy for me? Please.. Those who loves me. =X S$97 only. Ahh.. Dragonfly.. Fly high..


How about another similiar design?


How about some other design? Rosary?


NICE NICE NICE! What's more nice to be coming up? Stay tuned. LOL! I am too free to do anything. Surf the net everyday seems to be my only given task. I want to earn more moolah. MORE. So that I can go oversea with the T11 and oversea studies. So I decided to raise a charity fund call, Linn's Charity. Every cent count to me. Thanks alot.
=X
I need shopping. When are my darlings going to bring me out? :(

GSS is coming!

*Excited
I believe all the girls out there have been waiting for GSS?
Now, it's coming..
Are u ready to take out all ur saving and spend it on the branded/non-branded items that u have been eye-ing on long ago?
Perlini's silver is having GSS sale.
It's label ' Great Singapore Sale 50% on all necklaces and rings. So for perlini's lover, what are u waiting for?


It got me so excited. Remember the royal necklace I have been telling xx and some of u all?
Here is my chance to get it. =X
Here are some picture/products that I find it not bad. LOL

The Royal necklace! Oh my gosh. It is so expensive, costs about 120bucks? Now after 50%, the price will be about 60bucks? AWWW..


The butterfly necklace and the ring is so beautiful. When will I have butterfly flying around me? Sigh.


The Key to my heart. Buy for me pretty? I will open my heart to you. :)


A day browsing through the net. Life is bored.
I got my pride. I feel hurt. =/
I am not a teddy bear that people can hug me when they feel like and throw me aside when they don't need me.
I have my senses. I know what is going on, is just that I am not sure what to do.
I am tired.
*wave flag
U don't understand. U won't understand. Lonesomeness is not my profession.

I dread that feeling.





Cry to myself.

Gothic.

Wooo..
I found new thing.
Gothic dress.
Aww.. So cute. But if I wear, people will be laughing at me.





So? But anyway I got no money to buy. Can only see no touch and feel. Sad.

Money-minded.

Sian.
I am broke. Bankrupt. Sigh.
Bought a music book for 30bucks. So sad. 30bucks for a book! Sob.
My bank left with 50bucks and that's for the phone bill which I haven't pay.
Wallet left 12bucks. And I haven't gotta mum any present.
Sad. VERY sad.
Spend too much on clothings. GG5 pants cost me 62bucks. Online shopping cost me 66bucks. DAMN. Total I spent 128bucks! Stupid ME. I shouldn't have buy so many things. SAD.
Where am I going to get money for next week expenses? And Joc's birthday is coming. GOSH.
SOB SOB.
Sigh.
When is my 2nd pay coming?
WHEN?
I need to come out for strategy.
So If I get 400bucks for my salary, I need to do the following:

1. Save 100bucks for phone bill, so that I won't have to worry I don't have money to pay.
2. Save 100 for shopping trip. If I over spent, like 120bucks, next month got to put in extra 20bucks and that means only 80bucks to spend on shopping.
3. Save 100 for mum's birthday, which is on the end of this month, MAY.
4. Save 100 for other expenses. Including dinner, extra meal outside, pay for hair cut, treatment, etc.
5. If none of the above successful, I will keep my bank card at somewhere which I will not be able to use! ROAR.

I am in need. of Money.

When I am sad, I cry.
When I am happy, I cry.
When I am disappointed, I cry.
When I am nervous, I cry.
When I am excited, I cry.
When I am being punished, I cry.
When I fell, I cry.
When I am being hurt, I cry.
When I am being accused, I cry.
When I fought with people, I cry.
When I am lost, I cry.
When I am confused, I cry.
When I am being questioned, I cry.
When people are bias against me, I cry.
When I expected much and I don't get it, I cry.
When I am sensitive, I cry.
When people are smarter than me, I cry.

When people are prettier than me, I don't cry.

Me: What if one day ur boyfriend fall for another girl and that girl is none other than your friend?
S: Huh? He will? I will make sure he got no more balls.
Me: Really meh? Why must it be no more balls?
S: Just kidding lah. Just make sure he has no more father's day.
Me: O.o

Me: What if one day ur boyfriend fall for ur best friend?
K: Hmm.. That's depends. Maybe I will wish them the best?
Me: But you still love your boyfriend? Some more is ur boyfriend leh! Not some ex.
K: Ya lah. But that also depends on whether my friend loves my boyfriend or not. Maybe some crush only lah. Infatuation only.
Me: And you just do nothing about infatuation? Infatuation will lead to love leh.
K: Then don't let them meet anymore loh.
Me: Easy to say, difficult to do.
K: Aiya.. That day won't happen. Why are u asking so much? U fall for my bf ah?
Me: Huh? No lah. U think there are no more guys in the world? =X haha.
K: haha.. Just asking.

Questioning.
Does crying helps?

Went to shop with Joc, in the end, only bought home 1 pair of earrings. Sad.
Wanted to find for 3/4 jeans or pants. But it was either, no size or last piece(dirty). Sad.
Wanted to find nice heels, wedges heels, normal heels and many others, but didn't find. Sad.
Saw kian min and his friend. They looked gay, but they are not. =X
Life is simple, just can't understand why people make it so complicated. Maybe I'm making things difficult. Once bitten twice shy.
I am not the one. I hate liars. Definitely. Good luck, have fun.
Water is precious.
All I want is to be pretty. VERY pretty and smart.
But ... Sigh.
Guys go to hell. Go blind too. So that you all will not orge at other girls.

There is no other way out.
Sigh.

More clothing

There is no more floral dress! Joc, u so lucky! LOL. To be cheapo for the free delivery charges, I decided to order more, because I scare later the items that I eyed have no more stock! LOL. Once bitten, twice shy. Gogogo! Hopefully I can get the items that I wanted.


Is this shirt nice? Simple looking..


Is the color of this heels nice? How about another picture? LOL.


How about it now? This heels is cool right? LOL. Pretty please, BUY for ME. XD

Can I have more moolah please?

Choing ahhh!

From my title you could see that I am rushing..
I want to shop like siao.
Be it make up, facial, clothes, bags, wallets or shoes.
Ahhhh! Temptation. Give me moolah!



Nice right? Joc and me thought the same too. LOL. The dress is nice. Awww..

How about bag? Which color is nice? Feel like buying heels. Ohh myy gosh.


Goshh.. Shopping here I come!

BIG day

Today is a big day for Singaporeans. As we know that today is the polling day, polling day means, we get to vote whether the area we lived in will be control by democratic or autocratic party. In Singapore, Democratic parties consist of 3 parties, which are Singapore Democratic Alliance (SDA), Workers' Party (WP) and Singapore Democratic Party (SDP). While Autocratic party only consists of People's Action Party (PAP). People's Action Party consists of all the ministers that is control is certain area. Example,
Here is my stand for today polling, this is just my thoughts. No criticizing at any party. All along Singapore is ruled by ministers from PAP and PAP consist of Mr Lee Kwang Yew. Our father of Singapore, he's the man who fought hard for the future of Singapore. Even though there may be lots of restriction in transportation, migration, banking system, business rules and education system, but he never fail to keep Singapore up to the world standard. As there are always rooms for improvement. If he doesn't put any restriction nor attracts any investment from other countries, maybe Singapore will not be as famous as today. I am not saying that the credit from a kampong Singapore to a modern Singapore should be all goes to Mr Lee. There may be other people involve that helped Mr Lee but in the fact that Mr Lee is a clever man that is why he's the PM. It's not easy to build a modern Singapore out from a kampong. There is a lot of things to consider, like money issues, construction materials and etc. I am sure if we're rich enough, we will have become like the US or other western countries. But we are not. And now, what we have is a peaceful country with growing economy. My friend told me that this year election is going to be a tough fight. The democratic parties are strong and lots of people want to be independent from the government, want to have a say in things that can change the government mindset and of course they want benefit from the government.
A few day ago, I was on the bus and I saw the news about election, rally etc. During the democratic rally, a contestant even said that if they win the election, he will provide a fulfilling package for elderly, "You could see that other countries government will give those retired or jobless elderly a monthly/weekly allowance and look at our country, our government do nothing of it. If you vote for us, we promised to provide 200bucks of weekly allowance to the jobless/retired people." I was like 'GOSH', are u kidding? 200bucks per week is equal to 800bucks per month. What if singapore have 1/3 of the population are jobless and retired people, then where are we going to get the money to give? From our taxes? Seems to be the only way.. But wait.. Didn't he say weekly allowance? Then, who will be interested to work and earn for themselves when we have the allowance package of getting our weekly allowance? When they are in need of winning, certain people often say things that are tempting. And it's up to you to believe in them. Why should we have a change when we're living good and in peace now? People resist to changes because they are afraid of changes, worry that they might not get used to it, worry that it will not benefit them and worry that they might lose what they have now. So PAP or WP, PAP or SDA? PAP or SDP? It's ur choice. Think of our future.

Just like this picture, we have cows eating grass. Cow gives us our daily products, eg milk and beef.


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But what if one day the farmer decided to mix breed the cow and pig together?
And they produce.. A weird specie of cow and pig combination. Tada!

And do you think people will still want to buy the milk and beef? Of course not? Because.. Human resist to change. They can't adapt to the change, they scare that by eating the mix breed, it will causes them side effect. And of course, that depends on individual.

So do I.

Quiz again.

How do you see life?

Life is good and bad. You know it can never be perfect and that it never have been, and you're fine with that. You still feel it's important to live life since it can end any day and not sulk because of some little failure in life. You are often a happy person, still you don't laugh all the time. You have a somewhat calm aura and most people feel comfortable around you.
Take this quiz!








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LOL. I am content with life. whahahahaha! Give me money and I will be more content. =X