+Our Day+

WOOOHOOO!~
Happy 2nd Anniversary!
We didn't went out to celebrate that day, because he got to teach juniors guitar. Was quite disappointed again. But after reading the letter he wrote to me, I was quite alright. haha. Stone in club house. Manage to find a laptop and played warcraft3. Quite enjoy the game. Weee! New game. hahaha. He accompany me home. Didn't talk much in bus. Guess because he feels guilty for not bringing me out? =) I am not unhappy. Just thinking why am I so easily disappointed. Are my expectation too high? Maybe. haha. Gave him his present. Hope he likes it. Quite messy with the card. The markers ran out of ink. It's the thoughts not the appearance. hahaha! At least it's some kind of hand make thing. Love hand make things *hint hint.
Yesterday went to east coast for cat's birthday bbq. Enjoyed myself alot! Ate alot of foods. WEEE! Free foods, I'm loving it. hahahaha! Most of all, I love alvin. whahaha! We met at bishan before going to east coast. And he bought me ring. whahaha! Propose? =X He doesn't know my size, that's why he wants me to meet him. =) Love him. Went to east coast happily. Melissa they all haven't reach yet. So we went to the break water there and sit. The scenery is so romantic. AWWW! He put on the ring for me. AAHHH~ I was feeling so loved at that moment. whahahaha! So sweet. Love him. XD

+Good game+

Damn.
I lost my star hair pin on the way to meet Alvin. Sigh. My favourite. Feel like crying when I discovered that my hair pin was gone. Damn stressed.
Baked cookies for so longgg. The longest of all. Damn. Spent too much time on those cookies. =(
I am so tired now. Haven't do my ECID project yet. And guess what? Tomorrow I am having a group meeting to combine our work for the project. Fcuk. Didn't even study for tomorrow NF test. I am damn tired. Think I got kidney problem. My left side of my back was hurting just now. So painful that I can't stand straight. I can't sleep late anymore. Damn exhausted. Fcuk. I should stop here.

+I miss you+

+Fireworks+

WEEEEEEE!
Went to marina south with Alvin and his friends to see fireworks. hahaha. I enjoyed myself! Beautiful fireworks! NICE! Too bad shufen can only hear the sound of fireworks from her house. hahahaha! Love that moment. Wanted to say something to him. But in the end, I don't have the courage. Sigh. Such a waste. I mean, sometime some words/actions are only mean to be say/do in romantic moment. Aiks. Nevermind. I will pluck up the courage for the next time. =) We stayed in marina south until 1am plus. Then took mrt home. I want to treat him more better from today onwards. Feel like I haven't been a good girlfriend. Yuck. His classmate said, "Alvin treats you very good." I was.. Ya. Come to think about it. Yes, he treats me extremely good. Yet I still so demanding. Should be. Yes. Goal for this month, treat you more better.
So many projects to rush for. Arghs. EBF, DB, OOP and ECID. Ohh nooooo!

+Love ya, love me+

+That Moment+

Hmmm.. Just reached home and talked to alvin on the phone. Quite upset. My eyes were filled with tears with he said "Maybe I am going to quit NPS too." I was.. Speechless. Yes. For that moment, I am going to cry. But I hold on to my tears. I asked, "then, we will have lesser time to meet." and he said, "Ya." I was... Sigh. Hmmm.. Don't know what is going on. Maybe he really busy until he wanted to quit NPS. Then he added on.. "Maybe only." Well, who knows? Look at micheal. Micheal is alway joking around, being friendly to other. But now, he's quitting NPS. What is going on? I feel so sian of our relationship. Started too fast. Now is kind of i don't know what to do. Sigh. I told marcus about this. And he says I think too much. But am I really thinking too much? Some how I can feel alvin is sian too. Have some talk with him today. Hmm.. Kind of alright. I still don't dare to ask him about the problem that is on my mind. Maybe some times later bah. I feel that if alvin really so busy, then.. then... Maybe we should do something about it. Hmm.. I am a strong girl. Yup. Shouldn't be too upset. But for now, I don't know what to do. Feel like talking to someone about my problem. But then.. I will end up crying. So.. Well.. Let it bury deep inside my heart. Yaa. =)
I am not good for you.
Maybe I am thinking too much.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Somehow, things don't taste the same.
Maybe. Just maybe.
Teach me. How to be strong.
Teach me. Just teach me.

+From that moment onwards+

+No mood+

Started my day quite alright but then PMS got hold of me. I'm feeling totally unhappy. Yaa. Unhappy. Cheer me up. But u didn't. U sound a bit unhappy just now. From that moment onward, I don't even feel like talking to anyone. I know I am slow and dumb. Don't have to talk to me in such a way. Everyone is feeling tired. Ya. We're both feeling tired. Not in the mood for whatever stuff. Arghs. Hate PMS. Cheer me up. Someone please cheer me up.
Unhappy. Upset.
This is not what I want.