I got angry over a mini stuff. I am letting my emotion taking the lead.
And I just don't get it.
I feel irritated at that instant when I request for the reason behind that question and some idiot just gave some stupid answers. It really got on my nerves.
I hate this kind of feeling.
It makes me feel so dumb.
You know you can't get the answer which makes you even more curious about it. While some idiot acts blur over it.
I think I am stubbon and childish like shit. When I am serious talking to you, you better be serious in your answer, I can't tolerate nonsense.
Ha.

Maybe I am reading too much into it.
But then again, if you can't get the truth, will you ever trust the words again?

To me, hard.
What's worst, I can't differentiate what are the truths and what are the lies.

Minor stuff makes me confused.
I shouldn't be sensitive.
Neither can I pretend nothing happen.

Only the teller will know.

Perhaps I need that sleep, tomorrow I will forget everything that happened tonight.
Ya, perhaps.

I am back from the disappearing acts.

Flu bug and block nose still haven't go away.
I am physically and mentally sick.

Heart aching over the amount that I spent on M's birthday. =X

It's more than $400. Ya, that's my hard earn money. Ouch.

M's Birthday:

I was rushing around town in the early afternoon. Went to orchard to collect my holga 120 and proceed to submit my time sheet. Meet birthday boy after that and he dressed in smart casual.

We watched the Up 3D Movie, the dog and kevin so cute. I want a dog too! The movie doesn't has much 3D effects. So it's not really worth to watch the 3D.
After that was free and easy for 1 hour. =X Haha Because the reservation of the dinner is at 6.30pm, so I was waiting for time to pass.

M was curious where I am going to bring him to. Of course is going to sell to some rich tai tai! You'll have a luxury life! Lol.

I dressed like a tourist in white sundress and sandals, M says I lack of sun hat and sun glasses. Waiting for him to buy for me ma. Haha! Kidding only. We took the Sentosa map, head to Sentosa Express. Stopped at Beach Station and wait for the tram. M became more curious. And I still didn't reveal any thing. haha! Tada stopped at the beach terminal and walk to Barnacles Restaurant & Bar. M was quite shocked. He constantly repeat that if I am going to pay for it, I will be damn broke. Yes indeed, I am broke now. haa! Anyway we were greeted by overwhelming polite staffs/waitresses. Open the door for us and let us to the seats that I requested for. The seats are facing the sea and timing is just right, I manage to catch the sunset. WOOHOO! I am quite a romantic person. haha! We ordered Yin Yang appetizer, Boiled Chicken Consomme and Grilled Seafood Platter. The Seafood Platter is big portion that we can't even finish it. Stupid M still asked the waitress to get 2 bowls of rice. Waste my money lah. Escally the 1 bowl of rice costs $2! =X hahaha! Yin Yang is nice! The squids are normal but the prawns are superb! It's a must try! He's a lucky bitch to eat so many good food on his birthday. Baby abalone, lobster, and oyster, just lacking of shark fins. Ya, that's for him to treat me. =X I am so bloated that I can't eat anymore. After the dinner, we're chit chatting and I am waiting for the surprise to come. And a sudden moment, the waitresses and waiter popped out from behind bring the complimentary chocolate birthday cake and singing the birthday song. I am surprised by them too that I forgot to take photos. I only manage to take photo of the cake without his face until M reminds me. M doesn't allow me to take photo of his face. So all the photos are only food without people. Quite artistic huh? He spoiler one. LOL. I am so shagged that my brain is not functioning after 11pm.

Saw the bread behind the platter? They're super tasty with the sauces!

The murder's hands.

The weapons used.

I hope you really enjoy yourself on that day. :)

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29th August (Saturday):

Flea Fly Flo!
Venue: Home Club at The Riverwalk, B1-01/06
Time: 3pm to 9pm
How to get there: Home Club is at 20 Upper Circular Road, B1-01/06, The Riverwalk.
Nearest MRT: Clarke Quay and Raffles Place

From Clarke Quay MRT: Exit gantry, turn left. Go up to street level. Go to Underpass behind Cheers. The Riverwalk is at the other end of the underpass.Walk through the underpass, after which, Jumbo Restaurant should be on your right.Continue walking straight along the river, Home Club will be on your right.

From Raffles Place MRT: Exit gantry turn right. Exit for UOB Plaza. Walk along the rivers of Boat Quay, where the pub "Penny Black" is.Go towards the underpass where Coffee Bean is. Pass through the underpass and it is Home Club on your left.

Map here: http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel_id_29745/travel_site_1343/

Hopefully preview of the items will be up on Friday!

Come people, come and visit me! :)

Hello beloved friends,
Here is something touching. It touches my heart deep.
Spend some time watching this: http://www.tangle.com/view_video?viewkey=8cf08faca5dd9ea45513


:)

It has been a tiring week.
Totally exhausted. I sleep less than 7 hours per day that explains why pimples are popping out.
Sigh.
Work is boring. Doing the same stuff for 2 weeks.
Good pay and job satisfaction don't come together.
I feel that I am nothing but a slave of money. How pathetic!
It's rather weird feeling. All of a sudden, I have this strong feeling of breaking away from all the hectic things around you, from this bustling city and shut yourself from the world by doing the things you like. And I know at this moment, I need to play on my piano badly. I need music to cheer me up, to bring me life. To make me feel like a whole.

On a happy side, M has lunch with me today. Thanks for finding me! :)
I am still thinking of what to buy for him. Any suggestion?
Amelia said I'm crazy if I really buy him that. Ha!
Come to think about it, yes it's really expensive. I guess it will be the most expensive gift I will ever give to someone who is more than friend and not yet lover. But compare to the things he has done for me, I guess it's never enough right?
Perhaps that explain the need of working. Because that's almost half of my 1 month salary. :(
Come money, come to me!

All I need is to have faith in relationship as well as in everything I do and choose.
However when all of the above fail, should one hides or runs?

YEAHH!!

I finally got back my menu bar!

Side note: I have 3 spots on my nose right now. Yes, 2 more pop out this week, making me more depressed and ugly than ever.

1 good news and 1 bad news to share, the good news is I get out of the polyclinic job and the bad news is I am out of job.

So whatever jobs, I will take up. Need money badly ah!

3 birthdays (Amelia, M and PC) this month. Sigh. I can predict my bank figure will have a sharp drop. haa!

Meet M yesterday, missed him.

Got the souvenirs from him, one word to describe, happy. :)

And he said that these souvenirs are my christmas present, next year birthday present and etc! EEKKK! See he so cheapo now. hahaha!

I appreciate everything that he has done for me. Thank you so much!

Hugs!

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