Saturday, October 09, 2004

+unfolding the truths+

Today a lot of things happened. In the morning went back to Ngee Ann for npstring, violin test. I did badly for my sight reading, but the rest quite okay for me. Hopefully I can pass the test. So that I get to play other piece of songs. *Waiting for that day to come* Then after the test, jocyceline and me went out together, meet shu fen, then go bugis shop for bags. haha. Then to orchard. Shop around for Jocyceline's vintage skirt. Today everyone also got brought something except me. Keep on looking at shoes. haha. So nice leh. Love ballet shoes design the most! haha. Then we went back home at around 5pm plus.
sSigHhhhhhss.... So sad after reading June blogger. I can really understand how she is feeling, I had been through before too. But seeing the guy that u really like, asking for other girl number, is totally a tearful thing. Sigh. Some more something untoward happened to my best friend. I'm even sadder. Cried when I hear his story. So sad! Why why why? But he still seems so cheerful, why is he so strong compare to me? I asked him, "are u acting strong in front of us?" He said no. He forgot everything le. I don't believe him. I know he was very hurt inside. But I just can't find the right word to console him. Just know how to cry for him. His inner feelings go unspoken, unnoticed, unloved. I feel so sorry as a friend, can't even help him. I'm so useless, a good for nothing person. Suddenly feel that u're so noble compare to me. U're the one that know my feelings and led me to the lighted path when it was dimmed. I'll be there for u, my friend, I promise.
Hmmm.. Ke qiang is just a guy that I had crush on. It's not like. It's just a different kind of feelings. Until now, U still need me to spell out for u, who I really like? U knew the answer yourself. You xi shi zhen de ke yi gen ni shou ma? Don't lie beneath your teeth. I'm not the one who U really like. Don't be good to me because U feel that u hurt me before. This is not the feeling I'm looking for. Maybe I'm acting childish or what, but I really very care about how u see me as. Zhe gen yang zi hao you zhi bah? Can't be help. Too emotional le, even my friend also shock that I crying when he told me the news. When can I stop being childish? Sigh. Miss ya.
+Some things are better left unsaid when u knew the answer+
I found this meaningful and touching paragraph in june's blog. Paste it up to share with u all. Really sadden by this after reading it.
"If you see me walking the road with someone else, It's not because I like his accompany.
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time, It's not because he pleases me.
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat.
If you feel me falling with someone new, It's not because I love him.
But because you're not there to catch me fall.
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere.
I too don't know where the road is going.
Are we gonna cross each other's path?
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had?
Don't let me walk with him, It's you I want to walk with.
Don't let me talk of him, It's you I want to talk with.
Don't let me fall for him, It's you I want to fall in love with."

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