+Hurts+

Bad bad day to begin with. Sigh.
Went to school early in the morning for violin evaluation. Still need to practice a lot. Intonation is total out, timing not constant, etc... Got to do a lot of practice. Feel like freshies. After the evaluation, thought of practicing piano as I never practice for the whole week. Put my violin on the chair while I am practicing piano. A freshies just finished her evaluation, came out of the room, excitedly? Knock onto my violin, my violin DROPPED to the floor. ARGH! That point of time I really damn concern about my violin. She just walk away? never even say sorry! Damn her! Bloodly bitch?! Scatches on my violin and she broke my shoulder rest! ARGHH! Still never say sorry. Why am I alway the unlucky one? Just spend 40bucks on my bow and now.. Need to save money to buy shoulder rest again. Bad luck!
Meet eddie after piano lesson. He... Grow more man? Ya. More well build. Quite smart in his macdonald outfit. Was shocked to see him dress so formal. Hmm.. Treat me quite well. Then... The moment arrive. He saw my holding hand picture I took with Alvin. Yup. Alvin and me. His friend was mumming something. I looked at Eddie. He just doesn't know whether should he smile or not. Then.. Attitude changed. I...... My fault? Maybe. Didn't want to make him more upset. After they went to arcade, I went home alone. Yaa. Alvin was playing lan game with his friends. Well.. That moment really quite hurting? I thought a lot of things. Feeling so down. Feel tears dropping. Wipe it away, pretending nothing happened. You just don't understand how am I feeling. U're damn sad. What about me? It's hurting. I was waiting and waiting.. And Alvin came into my life too fast. You didn't even know what happened between us. Alvin. Get close to him is because something happened to steve. We wanted to cheer up steve, bought a card together. Then went to esplanade library with steve. Yup. As simple as that. Things just happened too fast. Before I can clearly think. The feeling when I am with him and when I am with you is totally different. What am I talking about! Just like what you said craps. Maybe. It's not totally your fault. It's mine too. It just play a trick upon us. Just like how it did to million thousands of people. Fallen for the wrong party. Sigh. I don't know what to do. Tell me what should I do.

It hurts to see uupset. Kill me.