esufnoc

After a long yesterday, finally I had my interview as well as role play done!
Hooray!
Went out with park, shufen and melvin. Had a great day with them. Melvin, you're a good entertainer. haha. It's a compliment. =)
Actually, I am feeling VERY sad. YA. Sometime, it really kills me. It's all about compromising. At times I feel I didn't treat him well enough. And at times I feel I am not being pamper enough. At times I feel... I am not clever enough. Most of the time, I feel Lost. Sigh.
It's five months. Time passes. And what I am feeling now is.. I really feel like giving up. I just don't know what else can I do? Maybe I didn't try at all? Maybe I didn't give enough. Maybe I am not good for him. Maybe I am.. Dumb. Am I really so useless?
Just like what u say? Tell you u may not know what exactly is. If never tell you, you will never know. So might as well don't say? This hurts. Ya. I hate that sentence A LOT.
Scream! I am so dumb and stupid.
Ya.
comparison kills.

How I wish so.
For U. For us. Forever. Ü