DISGUSTED!

I was filled with emotions now.
Let me start with the angry side of me..

FREAK!
What is happening to singapore society?!
I just watched a video clip on a group of girls beating/abusing a secondary 1 girl! It totally turned me off! I got so agitated. That if I saw them on the street, I just just go over and slap them. If I am the government, I will strip them and make them to walk on street. Let them have their own medicine. FUCK! It's the worst news I have ever know. But I remember there was once in the 'NEWSPAPER', there are a group of teenagers (mixed) abusing a girl. It was the WORST NEWS because it was so affected that they wrote the story in 'straits time' too. FREAK! I was disgusted by those news. If there is a possiblity, please make those idiots disappear from the earth. They're wasting our resources. I demanded that they should be jailed for the rest of their life.
No life people go to hell.
U girls SUX!
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Where are those happy days, they seem so hard to find
I tried to reach for you, but you have closed your mind
Whatever happened to our love
I wish I understood
It used to be so nice, it used to be so good

So when you're near me, darling can't you hear me
SOS
The love you gave me, nothing else can save me
SOS
When you're gone
How can I even try to go on
When you're gone
Though I try how can I cary on

You seemed so far away though you were standing near
You made me feel alive, but something died I fear
I really tried to make it out
I wish I understood
What happened to our love, it used to be so good
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Attachment make me realise that I am actually lack of a lot of knowledge in computer and technology. I feel I am stupid. Just so stupid. I don't even know how should I write my report. And my partner hasn't even mention when to write or do the login page? #$#$#%@#! I feel out of place. I am VERY serious when it comes to work, too serious that sometime, I will think my partner acting childish in front of me. Seriously I need counseling.
SOS!
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Out of sudden, the video clip make me gain back all my emotions, I thought I was dead in my heart. I thought I couldn't think anymore. I wish I was a good thinker. I wish I was smart enough to know what is good for me.
Am I trying to run away or am I really don't understand at all?
I am confused. I can feel...
The heart is sinking..
I feel sick and tired.
I wish I could be mature in my thinking.
I wish I wasn't sensitive.
I wish I wasn't in love..