+mixed feelings+

hohoho~ wo hui lai le. this few days had been busy with projects and FS class test. so stress~ so many projects to pass up. some more is THREE projects leh, still got one more coming up. wo hao ya li! haha today go online i chat with him again. we chat and chat. as usual, our chatting is so cold, like nothing to talk about. sigh. but when he says that actually on teacher's day, he hoped to see me going back to sch. i got so happy, suddenly feel so happy about it. what am i doing? i care so much about what he says to me. even just s simple msg from him, will make me happy and brighten up my day. i think i still like him, even through he may not feel the same for me anymore. i really really miss him alot! it's a feeling that i could not find the exact word to describle. the feeling is just there, no matter how hard i try to be forget. sigh. it's so miserable. it's just like something is missing in my life and i figure it out, it's u. breaking up is just a way of testing how stable our relationship can be.

hmmm.. just listening to jie kou from jay's newest (qi li xiang) album. the lyrics is so meaningful and sad.
here is the lyric i'm going to paste it here for u all.

jie kou

fan zhe wo men de zhao pian, xiang lian ruo yin ruo xian

qu nian de dong tian, wo men xiao de hen tian

kan zhe ni ku qi de lian, dui zhe wo shuo zai jian

lai bu ji ting jian, ni yi zou de hao yuan

ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo, ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou

wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo, qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo

jiu suan shi wo bu dong, neng bu neng you liang wo

qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu

wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou, shi ni shou shang de jie kou

qing ni hui tou, wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou

jiu suan mei you jie guo, wo ye neng gou cheng shou

wo zhi dao ni de tong, shi wo gei de cheng nuo

ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong, che mo shi yin wei bao rong

ru guo ya zou, qing ni ji de wo

ru guo nan guo, qing ni wang le wo