Haha.. I'm always that foolish to like U. I knew the result all along. Yah. I'm that stupid. I'm that stupid to be concern and care for U. I'm that stupid to wait for U. I'm that idiotic to promise to be there for U. All my fault to like U. It's not ur fault. Ni shi wo wei yi xiang yao de liao jie. U had disappointed me enough. It's enough. Whatever is no longer important le. Because it's my business. My business to give u a chance to hurt me again. My business to let u go, thought that because u like her a lot too and hope your feelings and her will stay there. My business to suffer silently when I don't even want to tell u I like u, because I scare I'll lead to misunderstand between u and her. My business to trying to be cheerful in front of u when I'm not. Whatever things, is MY BUSINESS. Believe it or not, I'm crying just because u say "if u're not going to believe me, it's ur problem." It's totally hurts like hell. U don't even know the feeling of liking someone and loving someone. It's not that easily to like someone and then forget about it so easily. Hoping that U will understand me one day. Hoping for one day the fairy tale does happen on me, asking me to be ur princess. But I don't think there will even be a glimmer of hope. I had already done my best in this marathon that has no ending for me to aim. I'm too tired to continue anymore. I'm exhausted in those disappointment rather than joyful moment. I'm totally beaten. I admit the defeat. Don't keep on saying sorry, because u make me feel even more disappointing when i expect more than just a sorry. I should be the one to say sorry when I knew the result and yet keep on digging my own grave into it. My heart no longer had any emotion for anything anymore. Thanks for ur "ur problem", U making me wake up from the beautiful dreamland that I have been waiting for. Buddies forever. It's is all over? God knows.
[Waiting For U Is Like Waiting For The Rain On This Drought]
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You seem most unhappy. Hope you feel better.
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